White Chicks

dear went for a job interview todae. he looked smart in formal wear.. hee... beauty is in the eyes of the beholder ma. hahaha.... the job dunno can get or not, but i dun like to stress dear to find a job. juz want him to feel happie and no stress..

after the interview, we went to catch "White Chicks" todae finally! i enjoyed the whole show... very nice. makes me laugh n laugh. dear enjoyed it too. he kept on laughing and laughing. and though i was watching the movie, i was secretly peeking at him smiling. makes me so happie to see him smile.. the actors are so funny. hahaha.. its entertaining and worth the money....

dear, thanks for spending the day with me once again...

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I Got No Supp Paper! Yay!

my heart was beating so fast juz now when the sms tone rang! luckily dear was with me. he was the one who opened the sms and claimed a little credit! hmph! yay! i am quite happie with my results. they get better every semester (at least for now) hehehe. and i'm very happie coz i have put in alot of hard work. so scared juz now man! haha. can't slp for 2 days coz of this. i'm so glad everything has come to an end and now in can slp and play in peace! can oso celebrate my 21st birthdae happily. i think this is the best present that i have given to myself. heeeeheee.. so happie.. dear's happie for me too! hahahaha.... thanks dear... i know i couldn't do it without your support. thanks for seeing my thru everything and always being there for me.

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Steamboat Frenzy...

went out wif JJVL todae... went to get liang and velly's birthdae present. had so much fun and laughter. hahaha.... was supposed to get my present too, but i couldn't find any nice items to buy. heehee.. aniwae, liang and velly treated jan and me to steamboat. had so much, i'm still so full now. i was very happy, coz we are so close and laugh so much. heeheehee... thanks liang n velly.. the bill came up to a lump sum of $95.... not cheap sia... velly's going back to indo tmr.... boo hoo hoo...

dear is watching movie wif his frens now. dunno wad movie he watch. nvr wait for me. hmph! hope dear come back early. he always come back late. actually i oso dun like but he oso dun care. always go out late late... flower leg.....

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My First Fishing Experience...

was too tired to blog last nite. dear went out wif my family yesterday morning for breakfast at Tung Lok Restaurant. we each had a bowl of sharksfin and delicious dim sum. the bill came to a lump sum of $170... whoa! afterwhich, i spent the whole dae with dear and his friends at bedok jetty to catch crabs and fishes... was quite happie.. i managed to catch a garupa (correct spelling ma?) with juz a nylon string. hahaha.. i think its juz pure luck. aniwae, we managed to catch quite a lot of fish. we were there from 2 to around 8 plus. i had quite a lot of fun. and it was my first time fishing. dear was such an expert, casting the fishing rod and everything.. so nice... but i caught my migraine and it kinda spoilt my mood... bryan's gf was so nice, asking me if i was okay and when i got home, she msged me too...

i had a nice time learning how to fish. it was a nice experience. thanks dear~

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I'm Happie, Coz Dear Is Happy...

spent the whole dae wif dear todae... i'm very happie.. coz dear is happy.. juz as simple as that. seeing him so happy juz makes me so delighted too.. went with dear to bugis, at the back of the streets.. why? to buy fishing stuff.. dear has his new found interest.. hehe.. so i supported him... the price is kinda steep.. but so long as he likes it and is happie, i would be most willing to give him my support.. we went to get the fishing stuff.. the rods, bait.. and other stuff which i dunno... spent like $70 on all the stuff... and he was so excited about it. he looked like a little boy who has got a new toy... aniwae, we are going to bedok jetty wif his buddies to fish this saturdae... bet he's looking forward to it...

went back to dear's house after buying the stuffs.. i cooked for dear and he... haha.. of course meddle with his fishing rod.. and after dat came to the kitchen and proudly show me his fishing rod after fixing the wheel... he was gleeming.. haha.. look so happie...

i have always known that when dear is happie, i would be happy too.. but todae, i felt it.. i felt his happiness and i shared his joy... and i realised that everything else didn't matter so long as he was happy.. so simple...

aniwae, thanks dear, for everything... for the 3 years and 11 months of love and care...

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Happie 47th Month!

happy 47th month dear! 1 more month to go. and we will be going steady for 4 years. can u believe it? we actually went through so much together. especially your army life. and not forgetting.. todae is your O.R.D day. so happie O.R.D too.... guess you muz be real happie in getting back your pink i/c instead of the silly green SAF ones.. i'm happy for you, and i'm glad we managed to get thru that critical army stage, where having you around me and looking after me was no longer possible, i had to be independent when you are not around me and i have to take really good care of myself. though i'm always very careless until now.. heeheehee... and seeing you as often as i like was not up to me too... it was all up to your "sir" but after you became a "sir" you had bigger responsibilities which i have to understand and i had to be your pillar of support. coz i noe that if i wasn't there for you, you would be lost. aniwae, those days are over. now i can call u as and when i like. heehee...

though it was our anniversary, we did not spend the dae together.... i went out wif liang and velly instead.. it was enjoyable though. the bonding between us was great and we toked alot. it juz seems that we have known each other for a very long time, but then again, when u think, it is not that long... we went to velly's condo for a swim.. which was cool~ i got a tan! and my body's burning now! hahaha.. and then we went to TM for lunch and afterwhich we went to catch Wimbledon. not a bad show. it was so exciting that we wanted to jump when the player was about to win... heehee... that was how exciting it was. hahaha.... after the movie we went to starbucks and i drank rhumba.. eekss.. fattening.. but i enjoyed it.. so it was a win-lose situation.. aniwae, i dun rhumba often~ hahaha... then spend for about 45 mins at starbucks... did nothing but talk about gays and men and results of our exams and friendship and wad would happen in the future and many more. we juz got so much to tok. so nice to be together. we spent the whold dae together. and the thing is.. we are all happie!

dear, on the other hand, went back to camp to get his pink i/c and then met his fren for a movie in the evening too... he's not back yet. guess he's still in the cinema. i haven't toked to him for a day. i guess we would have alot to tok later. looking forward~~hehe.. okie.. gotta go...

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Simple Sunday

it's sundae... i'm at home now.. so early rite? hahaha.. dear's at my house... erm... to have dinner, watch tv wif me and... hmm.. tk a nap? hahaha... went for a little shopping in the morning. though we did nothing much. but managed to catch jackie chan's new police story.. not bad not bad... so many movies are coming out.. arrgghh.. not enuff $ to watch liao.. still got wimbledon and white chicks. i think there will be more to come!

dunno when will the results of the exams be out. but hopefully can pass all.. shucks man! haiz.. keeping my fingers crossed (-_-)"

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Dear, Where You Going?

dear msged me in the morning, told me that he's going somewhere, to buy something, but cannot tell me. i dunno wad he is up to. he juz said that its a secret. leaves me with a big ???? wonder wad he is up to again... dat silly dear dear..

my flu is getting better, but my throat becomes sorer. and the phelgm.. arrggh.. i shall spare the details. actually, i hope to see dear soon. kinda miss him. we din see each other for about a week and still counting.. coz of my exams lo... we only survived through telephone. hehe.. hope to see u soon dear! then i can search your room and find out wad u went to buy and wad u are up to. hahaha..

aniwae, dear told me something sweet yesterdae.. will always remember it in my heart. juz makes me *melts*.. heee...

tmr HRM paper.. i'm not so scared. but aniwae, gotta get back to my books soon...

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Sick...

arrgghh... i'm down with flu and sore throat.. and u haven't been updating my blog lately becoz of the exams. been studying very hard for the papers. hopefully i pass. not too sure of it yet. had my second paper todae. ops was sokay. hopefully i pass. thanks liang, for teaching me.. it was great to have u in the same subject as me. why? coz u are a super duper clever whiz kid.. everything u oso knoe. i wonder why god made u a human being. they should juz make u a god of maths. hahahaha....

aniwae, haven't been feeling too well lately. juz woke up from my afternoon nap. lucky tmr no paper, so i'm taking it easy. and the nxt paper is HRM! my favourite. hope to do well too!

lastly, dear, thanks for supporting me throughout the exams. (^_^) appreciate it alot!

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Happie 50th Anniversary!

it's like 1am in the morning. i am still not in bed. still fighting with finance. arrgghh.. i need my freedom. hate exams!

aniwae, happie 50th anniversary dear. i got to know this shy guy 4 years and 2 months ago.. we became fast friends, or rather best friends. can tok about anything under the sun. he made me fall in love with him. this shy guy of mine, used the e-mail to ask me to be his girl. he's so adorable rite? hee.. can't believe it man. still got one more month to go and we would have been steady for 4 years. hee... dear, thanks for loving me.. so glad to have u around.. we've been thru so much more than other couples plus your NS and everything.. glad that things are finally settling down. our next hurdle is, graduating! u from NTU and me from TP! looking forward to the day you wear your graduation outfit! :)

i am having problems absorbing the formulas on topic 9 of the finance topic! i can't stand it anymore.. that's y came to blog. hahaha... gonna get back to the books! arrggh.. hate it man.. shucks!

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Got Dear's Letter!

i got dear's letter! dear wrote to me! hahaha.. so happie. he drew something for me. so cute and sweet. i am so happie... hehe :)

*all smiles*

Why Are Guys So Insensitive??

been quarrelling wif dear again... haiz.. i dunno.. i juz know that i love dear the way he was before he went to NS. i really do. its all changing now. so, for all my girlfriends out there, treasure your boyfriends when they are still un-enlisted. u might think that he won't change, you might be so sure of it. but be careful. i thot so too. but i know that there is no deceiving anymore. things are changing. he always tells me that i oso got change. but he dunno that i changed because of the change in him. it made me so terrible now.

was quite hurt recently for the string of events that happened lately. especially sentosa. i've always wanted to go to sentosa with him. why? coz i love the beach. and i thot it would be a beautiful place to spend it with someone i love, since i always go with ali and grace. i thot he would love it too. but i was wrong. i thot he would appreciate it. but he didn't. dear went twice with his friends to sentosa oredi. wad about me? none. i felt terrible. i dunno how to react. call me petty or wad. i dun care. i juz felt horrid. he loves going with his friends so much. and all the reasons are like, oh u wanna go on the weekends, so many ppl.. my friends ask me alot of times liao. paiseh. wadeva. i dun think i'll ever go to sentosa with him. not anymore. i thot i could show dear the little fishes there at the end of the beach. but i doubt i'll ever will. that place now reminds me of something so saddening. he won't understand how i feel. he never will.. its something i like so much. dear always tells me. if it makes me happy, he'll do it. he knoes that i'll be happy if he brings me to sentosa, but he juz won't go. he knoes that i love to take pictures, but he never wants to take with me. and till now, we haven't taken pictures for 1 year. why won't he take with me? coz he dun like to tk pictures. well, wadeva the reason is. i always got mistaken and will always wonder if this relationship was all one-sided. he loves chatting with his friends, playing mahjong with his friends, going sentosa with his friends, going holland village to eat with his friends. but i'm juz a dumb girl. standing by him thru all these. and not being appreciated. i dunno wad love is. i know very well, that i didn't change. i have always been like that. now dear's needs are more, he needs mahjong, he needs staying over, he needs to satisfy the needs of his army buddies. sometimes i wonder if there are girls in the outing. but i never asked. if he got someone new, i'm sure he would tell me.

besides this, we still have so many problems. i'm starting to wonder if i got the right guy. he wasn't like this before. maybe i wasn't too. he forced me to be like this. short-tempered and petty. i can handle friendships so well. but when it comes to relationship, its juz zero score for me. i dunno wad is happening. i'll juz take one step at a time. i wun ask dear to go sentosa with me, nor will i ask him to e-mail or write to me anymore. i dun think i'll write to him for the time being. i shouldn't do so many things. why should i give so much to the relationship? relationships dun work if only one person is willing. both persons have to be willing to commit. what use is it if i'm the only one slogging hard to maintain this relationship? i'm so soft-hearted. i always tell him that its my fault. which sometimes i dun even knoe what i did wrong..

dear, why are u doing this to me? driving me to the wall? wad good does it have on u? i need the old you. i need the lost you. i need the Qin before enlistment. i know its all gone now. it will never come back. i was reading your last letter that you wrote to me before enlistment. u told me to wait for you. i did. but don't take me for granted. pls. i'm not a toy. dun always assume that i'll be there. pls treasure me. i beg you. i'm going crazy..

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Last Sunday...

this is gonna be the last sunday to meet dear... why? coz my exams are coming! arrggh.. so i won't be meeting dear until 2 weeks later. gonna forgo my weekends to meet him. i can't afford to fail. aniwae, studies are more important no doubt dear is important too.. hee..

juz realised that soybeans from carrefour taste awful! eeks.. not nice one. ntuc ones taste better. was so hungry juz now, i drank campbell's cream of mushroom and ate my favourite walnut cake from bengawan solo! i juz love walnut cake. dun ask me why. heehee..

aniwae, spent the whole dae wif dear. went to orchard to shop and bought a new bag.. again.. hahaha.. dear is wondering why i need so many bags. hee.. oh well.. girls are girls...

tmr is study week. arrgghh! gonna meet liang and jiayi and velly to study... sianz... juz 2 more weeks to go...

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Exams Are Here... (-_-)"

next week is exams liao. ahiz. can't wait to get over it man.. so sianz...

todae went to mit liang and velly to study HRM. glad i did some quality work. then met dear for dinner. went to seoul garden to eat coz i was craving for steamboat. didn't eat lunch. which resulted in a pain in my tummy at the end of the buffet. it felt horrid.. went to haf a sit and then i felt better. the pain was horrible!! eeks...

haiz. still can't find my dream bag. i juz feel like buying a bag. have one imaginary bag in my mind. but no one seems to sell it. went to rip curl website juz now and came across 2 bags which i like though. dunno singapore got sell or not. haiz..

dear went to bryan's house to play mahjong. he told me he's going home tonite though. i dunno how true is that actually. but aniwae, juz let him go bah..

hmm.. tummy's feeling a little weird.. gotta rest..

aniwae velly, i added u to my blog! hee...

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Last Presentation...

hurray! did my last presentation todae. was so glad that the semester is coming to an end. how time passes... its been 1/2 of my poly life oredi.. exams are coming soon.. grr..

went out wif dear after my presentation todae. dear was so crazy. he wanted to mit me. why? coz i was wearing formal. hahaha.. silly dear. aniwae dear went to pick me up and bought mooncakes for my parents. they were YAM! hahaha... so nice! and then we headed down to Marche for dinner.. so nice. we had sambal squid, sambal stingray, seafood combo (which consists of squid, prawns, fish and soft shell crab) and ROSTI WITH SOUR CREAM! (my favourite!) heehee.. so happie..

thanks dear.. for everything... i'm lucky to have u around..

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Tuesdae... Tuesdae.. Tuesdae.

dear has left early in the morning to mit his friends at harbour front. they are heading to sentosa. hope he enjoy his trip..

exams are coming soon... arrgghh... so sian.. aniwae, later gotta go for marketing tutorial.. plus, i still gotta mit up wif liang.. gotta do the presentation slides for PSQ.. sianz man...

hmm... oh yah! i gave my laptop a name! it's called "Baby" coz its white n silver n its so small... (at least smaller than liang's one.. haha.. and i got more USB ports than him!) heehee... aniwae, its my baby... love it so much.. daddy bought it as a gift for me for my 21st birthdae.. heeheehee...

okie la.. gtg sch soon! ta-ta..

Drfiting Apart???

juz finished toking to dear on the phone. we din tok much. or rather, i din tok much... dear said that i have become not as vibrant as before.. i used to be very chatty and tok alot.. dear asked me if we were drifting apart and that i was losing interest in him? definately not.. i am sure.. i would never lose interest in him... maybe its due to the busy schedule i have in school.. i dunno...

dear's going to sentosa wif his army buddies tmr.. i was kinda upset when he told me. not bcoz i dun want him to go, but because whenever i asked him to go, he would say no. and told me that since its the wkends there would be plenty of people.. dear told me that he is aware of that and said sorrie.. coz his buddies asked him plenty of times. but me too.. din he think about it? he said he did and he dunno wad to do. well.. he's gonna go aniwae... he told me sorry that he's not a good boyfriend as he is not able to fulfill my dreams and always make me angry n sad.. well.. wad can i say? but its ok...

i dunno wad's going on.... i'm not angry wif dear... juz loads of knots in my heart.. wonder when they will be untied...

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Phew....

haven't been blogging for the past few days.. has been busy with projects.. and i got 2 due tmr! been so busy these days... aniwae, i got 10 mins to spare, before i leave house and mit dear... we are gonna catch dodgeballs.. hahaha.. sure very funny one.. tink i'm gonna enjoy the show..

aniwae, i finally managed to buy my "chicken in a biskit" after a very long search.. haha.. NTUC dun sell it anymore... i bought mine at 7-11....

dear has been very understanding for the past few days (he has always been understanding! :P) coz i have been so busy, staying back everydae to finish up my projects.. he has been there, waiting for me. even if it means me sleeping at 3am, he would gladly wait up for me. i'm very touched, by the little things he does..

dear, its not about a big diamond ring, gifts that u shower me with or expensive gadgets... its ur care and concern that matters.. i felt it... u loved me, treat me like a princess... like i was the most precious thing to u.. sending me home on every single date that we go... its like... wow~ after 3 years and 10 months... u are still so sweet to me.. its going 4 years soon... and i've nvr regretted being with u... coz i know u are the one for me... no one will knoe ur goodness except me, and i'm glad to be ur girl....

thanks for standing by me thru all these late nites that i had to work.. u haf been most understanding and patient... i love u..

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The Terminal

so long nvr blog liao. the mystery person tagging my blog must be reading my blog.. i wonder who it is. i think i know who, but i can't be sure... he or she seems like my guardian angel. makes me feel protected.. i dunno why...

aniwae, went out with dear yesterday.. we went to watch The Terminal since i got no school. actually was supposed to do my HRM project. but i juz dunno why got no mood to do. i have to slog todae liao. haiz... but the show was nice. i enjoyed it..

been meeting dear alot lately.. hee.. guess it is a good thing? but not good for long, coz dear haven't found a job.. SAF won't be providing for us anymore. hahaha... so happie.. 1 more month.. dear ORD! yes! haahaa.. pink colour IC would be back soon...

aniwae, was supposed to meet jiayi to do project in school but she smsed me told me she can't make it coz she slpt at 3am. haahaa... aniwae, gotta go sch for finance lect and ops lect later.. sianz... todae will end at 5pm. can't believe it man. so sian to go to school...

my network connection ar. lately xiao xiao.. can connect, then cannot, i very sian liao. dunno wats up man!?!? hmm.. aniwae, gotta go back to HRM..

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Stressed..

whoa.. i can't believe it man.. time passes so quickly.. very fast going exams le.. sianz... and the worst thing is i have to hand in HRM project on Mondae... arrgghh.. stressed sia..

aniwae, haven't been blogging for the past few days.. hee.. coz saturdae went to CK's birthdae party wif dear. finally saw his gf.. not bad.. hee.. and saw bryan's gf too.. they were all quite nice ppl to get along.. hee.. exchanged numbers! i think i'm too talkative bah? hahaha... then the best part is, i came home late, and my daddy asked dear to stay over.. coz its late, no transport and somemore take cab gotta pay surcharge. so dear decided to stayover too.. hee.. my parents were so hospitable.. mummy took mattress and toothbrush for dear and my dad lent dear his clothes. hee.. since we are all stinky from the bbq.. no sleeping together though.. poor dear gotta slp on the sofa in the living room. but dear told me its ok, at least we made some progress.. it seems like a lot for us though ppl might think, "chey, only stayover ma" but it is our first time staying over together.. we chatted till 1am... then dear asked me to go to bed.. and my dad came out from his room too! haha.. he asked us why so long still haven't slp.. hee.. i tucked dear in bed, kissed him goodnite and went back to my room.. the feeling was undescribable.. juz so... hmm.. i guess only dear and me knows.. our relationship is not easy, coz of my parents they are very strict wif me... poor dear dear..

juz called dear not long ago... his primary school friend was at his place. can't believe it man. wad are 2 boys doing at home? hahaha.. aniwae, said he will call me after his friend goes home. i suggested it, coz i think its not nice since there's someone at his place. he should play host.

hmm.. spent the whole dae wif jiayi.. haha.. laughing and eating and doing project.. stressed again~ heee.. aniwae... hope our project turns out well! cheers!

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Thank God Its Fridae!

been so sian these days with school.. projects and all.. glad that todae is fridae.. i'm juz gonna hand in my marketing project and go for my ops tutorial.. exams are coming soon.. dread those days. my main aim now is not to get supp paper.. hee.. aniwae i did well, got A's for HRM and Mktg.. finance was okay.. i'm happie with my finance results.. on the whole, i passed all my subjects... yay! muz work harder for the coming exams. i'm determined to do well... but for now, muz concentrate on my HRM project and PSQ... shucks..

aniwae, gonna be meeting dear later.. he went back to camp todae for his medical checkup.. then gonna be meeting me for lunch and to buy CK's present for tmr's BBQ... and back to my house for dinner and then tutor my little sis..

hope todae will be a wonderful dae... :)

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Thursday...

haha.. looking at my blog title, dunno wad title to put. aniwae, i'm at the school library now with jiayi.. hahaha.. she doing the finance tutorial.. haha. the both of us actually say wanna come and study finance but ended up toking, surfing and eating. haha.. guess its juz us bah.. heehee..

wonder wad dear is doing now.. hope he's feeling better... little tummy ache.. so poor thing.. hee... miss you..

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My Nose Is Running Away...

haiz.. spent the whole dae in school todae. and the worst thing is, i'm feeling so fat the whole day.. shucks.. i muz go on a diet..

down wif a flu.. felt so horrible.. came back and slept like a pig.. then studied for my mock finance test tmr.. sianzz... exam coming liao..

dear's not feeling well too.. he got tummy ache. hope he's feeling better.. tk care when i'm not around ok??

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Roller Coaster....

phew.. didn't have school todae. was glad though. hee.. met dear todae coz he needed my laptop to type his resume as his computer is down. so we met for breakfast, then went to buy cute little handphone holders for his room. i chose them! heehee.. one fat piggy - that's me! and the other is a fat cow - that's dear! hahaha.. now our phones haf something to sit on.. hehe.. and Qin mama said it was cute! she asked dear whether it was me who bought it.. haha.. she even commented on dear's room.. say i pack for him so neatly.. haha.. i haf to admit i was happie.. hee..

dear spent the day doing his resume, while i was continuing with part 2 of the packing. which means, packing dear's cupboard and closet. hee.. hope dear liked the layout of it. he finished his resume and fell asleep on his bed. and i juz continued packing and like a fairy godmother who woke him up to show him is "magical cupboard" hahaha..

everything went fine until dear shouted at me for no rhyme or reason.. coz of where we wanted to eat. i was upset. tears flowed down. he was remorse, i juz ignored. after all the things i've done. we made up though, or rather, i chose to forgive and forget and compromise or else things won't get us anywhere. i insisted on going home myself after dinner though, saying it was still early.. he gave in, in the end. i was quite glad to go home alone though. hee.. but dear msged me when i was on my way home. somehow he sensed it? that i was upset? oh well.. i chose not to be unhappy.. juz told him that its alrite... dear said something which touched my heart.. he told me that i'm the best and he can't imagine how life would be without me because i have already been part of his life and he can't do it without me. i was really touched on the MRT...

aniwae, we are fine now. felt like i was taken on a roller coaster ride todae. hee.. but nevertheless, i was happie todae.. and glad to spend time with dear... still love u loads..

haa! juz found out that i dun need to take PSQ main exam. yay! so happie. at first thought the school nvr let me take the exam. hahaha..

aniwae, gotta go.. tmr got lecture at 10am sia!
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Not So Blue Monday...

it's monday! but i'm feeling good.. only for the thot that i did not manage to drag myself out of bed in the morning. but on the whole it was ok.

was supposed to meet dear to but i guess i'll juz give it a miss for certain reasons.. firstly, dear has to pay for my expenses of i meet him for dinner.. and then i guess its better if he goes with his friends. if not his friends say him this and that again. stoopid army guys. no brains de.. hahaha.. but its a good thing coz i get to meet grace, sara, yasmin and gladys. i dunno who else is coming though. hahaha. but i guess it would be fun to meet up with my old classmates. aniwae, gonna meet grace and sara early and buy flip flops from havanias. hahaha. i think its gonna be so fun. but i'm not wearing very nice lei. haha.. got the typical sch slack look.. hee.. somemore carry along my laptop. haiz.

now in school doing my PSQ project.. arrggh.. can't wait to buy my flip flops. haahaahaa.. aniwae hope everything goes fine for dear coz he's gong to find job todae.. heehee..

ok.. gotta go liao.. ta-ta..

Glad...

so glad that everything is finally back to normal. though dear and me did quarrel for a while in the morning. well... i guess we were juz on the wrong frequency.. but things we great after that..

helped dear to pack his room.. so nice now! and we even hung up our cute little couple slippers that sharon (yeo) gave me last sem.. heehee.. so sweet.. packed all the stuff! so dusty and dirty.. and then also saw the tons of letters that i wrote to dear.. he kept them nicely in a box.. and i oso saw the letters which his crush wrote to him. hahaha.. even laughed at him about it!

then went to play badminton wif dear's cousins. actually had a wonderful time todae. dear sent me home too...

nevertheless, thanks for being in my life thru all the ups and downs.

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Sunshine Is Finally Out After The Storm

dear was back home early. so unusual of him.. but i was glad.. heehee.. i guess things are finally fine now. we had a wonderful chat over the phone.. i am supposed to slp now, but i can't help but to blog. can't wait man. haha..

dear asked me if i had a daughter, wad name would i give her? and we started talking about our children's names.. hee.. dear chose Edward for his son. as for me, still haven't made up my mind. haha.. he chose.. Edward Eng.. so cute.. E squared.. haha.. or double E.. then i guess the daughter's name muz be starting with an E too bah? maybe Edna? or Edwina? but dear didn't like Edna, which i quite like very much.. haha.. i think we think too early le bah?

tomorrow dear and me are gonna go orchard for some shopping and then head back to his house to pack his messy room.. haahaa.. guess its gonna be a nice day bah? heehee.. aniwae, hope to see dear soon..

meanwhile, i think i better tuuck in bed since its going to be 1am oredi.. shucks! haha.. ta-ta..

Family Day..

didn't meet dear todae.. he went to pulau ubin to cycle with his friends. those reading my blog muz be feeling surprised! haha.. jul at home on a saturday?? yeah.. wad to do? we have been quarrelling over the same problem for the past few days. taken our relationship into a strain. i wished this week never happened in my life..

was dreading this saturdae to come. coz it juz feels so weird. toked to dear till the wee hours last nite. toked alot, really toked. but i guess, it wasn't fruitful.. he told me many things of which i didn't know. and somehow, though i know that he's not telling me all this coz he wants to win my sympathy or wad, but i juz feel like i'm a thorn in his life. i regretted entering his life. i regretted saying "yes" to this relationship. i regretted being his girlfriend. coz i'm juz like a barrier between his friends. i dunno wad i'm supposed to do. a little care and understanding.. that's wad he said. but when i need ur understanding, u were never gonna understand. u are never gonna understand how tired i am to meet you after school.. i felt like the worst girlfriend on earth yesterdae. i felt like a failure. i didn't know wad u wanted, i can't read your mind. and i wonder, how some people can juz walk out of relationships as and when they like. love hurts so much, though the happiness you receive is double.. love was never easy at all.. it is always easier said than done. promises are hard to keep and old habits die hard. if i could ever turn back time. i wouldn't wanna be in a relationship.. it juz hurts too badly..

i hope tonite passes even more quickly. i juz wanna slp and wake up to find myself on mondae. this is the first time i hated weekends.

but though so many things happened. i'm glad that i spent time with my parents. daddy drove us to PS.. in his new car! hahaha.. so nice.. leather seats and everything.. then went for lunch at lao beijing. ate until $90++ whoa.. haha.. i loved the xiao long bao and the peking duck. of course there were other things too! hehe.. then went to carrefour to get some groceries and junk.. haha.. by the time we drove back, it was already 5 plus. i'm so glad that half of the day is gone. i'm juz so sian. i think i never wanna get this week back anymore..

dear, our relationship is taken to another level of test again. hope we are able to pass it.. the last thing i wanna do, is to lose you. i thot of letting you go.. but i have no courage to do it. actually i know u can do it without me.. i dunno how u would feel if i told u this. i'm juz gonna gif each of us another chance. work things out. hopefully, we knoe where we are getting at... lastly.. i still love u all the same...

love and relationships are such complicated stuffs....

ta-ta...

Blissful???

dear dear is at my house now. he is currenly tutoring my little sis. and here i am blogging on my beloved laptop. dunno i should feel blissed or wad? where to find a boyfriend like that? but i'll be contradicting wad i said in the morning..

juz now dear and me met up and then we went for dinner and then catch a movie.. guess wad we watched? Garfield! hahaha.. he's such a cute and lazy cat. juz reminds me of dear dear.. aniwae, i enjoyed the show. dunno why, i dun seem to be angry with dear anymore. i dunno wad has got into me. haha..

dear's friend called him juz now i think. i dun wanna ask oso.. i guess, i should be glad that dear dear has been very nice to me. so wad matters most is that he is happie bah? aniwae, i should be joining my parents for dim sum tomorrow bah... hahaha..

by the way, i haven't announced the good news! my ops management presentation was a success! yay! my tutor was impressed. hahaha.. can't believe it man. juz so happie..

okie.. gotta end here now.. gotta go and do my mktg project liao..

ta-ta

Happie 49th Month...

todae's the 3rd.. means that i have known dear for 49 months.. well.. its equivalent to 4yrs and a month.. well.. happy 49th month dear. though i dunno why we have been quarrelling these few days.. we were fine on tuesday.. but it juz seems that things fell apart after that.. perhaps ur trust in me has gone. moreover, i still need to change.. but when u fell in love with me, u fell in love with my everything. i dunno why i need to change now. because of ur friends? i dunno wad is the reason. but still, i will change for you.. coz i love you. love is sacrificing..

had been feeling upset the past few days.. but i guess its all not worth it to be upset over your friends.. coz in the end.. i will still be at the losing end. coz u ppl are guys.. guys are insensitive, full of pride and ego.. guys think that love is juz a part of life, while girls think that love is everything..

i still have alot in my life.. why cry over guys??? at the very end, i know, at the very least, grace and alicia would always be there for me.. rite?? hee..

gotta go sch soon... got my operations management presentation.. wish me luck!

later gonna meet dear.. dunno why he wanted to meet me so early? becoz he misses me? or juz becoz it would make him less guilty tmr? i usually love saturdays, but i dread tmr's saturdae.. i dun wanna bother... juz wanna hide myself under the covers.. haha.. at least i got fei mao with me.. and my beloved laptop :)

You Made Me Stronger..

wad u said to me did pulled me back yesterdae.
i was gonna have to give up one of the two days that i can meet you,
because of your friends..
weekends are precious to me,
i reserved them for you.
i was upset.
i cried last nite,
i lost sleep.
but through alot of thinking,
i realised that,
crying over this was not worth it at all.
not in a situation like this.
i'm not sure who is right or wrong in this situation.
i juz know,
i juz dun feel like talking to you right now.
and i must thank you,
for making me stronger than i used to be.
its ok,
it doesn't matter anymore.
meeting doesn't mean anything.
it might be a good thing,
for the both of us.
i can juz spend time with my family, my parents,
and i can do my projects.
i dun wanna care anymore.
its taking so much of my time and energy.
i have other things to see to.
i'm so tired..
i'm sorry..

Dreadful Computers & Laptop

dunno wad has got into my computers.. the spirit of the 7th month ghosts??? they have been good for a while and then turned their back on me.. i can't believe it man. i dun have internet at home!!! shucks man! juz can't live without internet. i can't make it man! i can't do my work, i can't chat wif velly, jiayi, liang and jan. so sian... and the worst thing is, i can't update my blog!

i'm in sch using the net.. lucky sch got internet. if not i think i die liao. i dunno wad is wrong with the damn home connection... juz hope that the problem will be solved soon..

gonna meet dear later. he gonna accompany me at home to see to the computer stuff.. so sweet hor.. haha.. sorrie dear, these few days got no time for you.. coz of my heavy school workload and the stoopid computer.... maybe we will have lunch together later okie? muacksy....

ok la.. gotta go liao.. ta-ta..

Happie Sunday...

spent the whole day at dear's house slacking... but was very happie.. we didn't do anything much todae, juz watched TV and we ate alot of stuff! haahaha..

saw dear smile a lot of times todae.. feel so happie.. its juz like, when i see him so happy, i become happy oso... our hearts are joined together bah? hehehe.. that's love..

dear's off tmr.. aniwae, glad that we spent the whole day together laughing and being together.. hehe.. so nice~

dear, thanks for everything.. u make me feel so pampered.. juz like a little princess...

ta-ta..

Dear & Me...

dear came to fetch me from tampines todae.. then we went to have breakfast.. so nice.. went to watch 13 going on 30 todae.. not a bad show, but can't be considered good also.. it was so-so only..

went to dear's cousin's birthdae in the evening.. gambled a little.. lost $2.. haha.. i first time gamble sia.. juz joined in the fun..

dear won't be going back to camp.. until he O.R.D.. clearing leave now.. which means that he's mine 24 hours? hahaha.. but i'm used to dear not around me.. i'm used to being left alone in the afternoons on weekdays.. i'm used to being alone, not being cared about, and learnt that dear cannot always be with me, though his heart is.. heehee.. but nevertheless, i'm glad that dear has ample rest now.. now that he's so free.. but will expect him to find a job soon... to keep him occupied until he goes to NTU in july next year.. things are moving so fast.. i was at o'levels and now.. everything seems to happen in the blink of an eye..

gonna see dear tmr again.. i know he's tired to travel, so i'm going to dear's house myself tmr.. bringing my laptop to dear's house to do my HRM tmr.. dear's getting breakfast.. heehee.. aniwae we can't go out oso.. Qin mama going to pray to the gods tmr, coz its the 7th month.. so dear needs to be at home.. guess, i'll juz hang around bah.

dunno why i can't wait for school to start on mondae.. there's juz an excitement in me.. maybe coz of my laptop and my new crumpler bag bah? it juz motivates me to study.. hahaha... and i have to confess "i love my laptop alot! its white, its silver, its small, its handy, its my communication between my friends, its my schoolmate and its my e-mail..." so thankful for this 21st birthdae present that my dad bought for me.. i love it so much

oh yah, speaking of birthdae present, was toking to dear on the phone, he asked me wad birthdae present i want for my 21st.. told him i dun need anything liao.. he say cannot cannot.. muz be good good one.. actually i dowan anything, i think i am lucky enuff oredi.. coz, i have a loving family and my parents dote on me alot, i dun need to work for my own allowance, i dun need to do the housework, and most importantly, i have something that no one will have.. dear dear... only i haf dear dear, no one else.. and dear dear dotes on me too.. so i dun think i need anything else, if i had to really choose something for my birthdae, i want dear dear.. hee..

hmm.. whoa.. 1.30am liao.. dear know i haven't slp sure sold me again.. heehee.. ok.. think i gtg oredi..

ta-ta...

Dear's The Best!

this is for you dear!

for one thing that i've never regretted in my life..
is choosing to be with you..
you gave me the best..
treated me like your little princess..
and though i know u dunno how to show that u care..
deep down.. i know that you care..
the little things you do.. i appreciate them..
travelling all the way to my house..
lending me your shoulder to sleep..
and most of all always respecting me by making me your piority before your friends..
we have come a long long way..
giving our love to each other, and having that mutual trust..
i've always loved being with you..
even if its juz a bus ride, slacking at home, or juz holding hands..
from they day i held your hand..
i knoe no one could replace them..
coz u held my heart too..
and with this love you gave me..
i'm gonna treasure it..
and i knoe..
we are gonna last..
forever..
thanks for being by my side..
all this while..
helping me thru everything..
u are always the one i run to for help..
seems like you are always the life jacket..
helping me to float..
and bringing me to the shore..
lastly,
thank you for your patience, love and care..

with love...
jul

Tied Up...

i have not been blogging recently.. was tied up with my computer and my new laptop and the internet connection.. was kinda vexed with it... aniwae, i hope that it would be repaired soon so that i can stop worrying..

gonna meet dear in 15 mins time, but i am still in school blogging.. juz can't stop using the internet.. feeling so hungry now...

yesterdae nite got a little conflict with dear about my laptop.. he was sad that i spent so much time on my laptop and feels forgotten.. i'm sorrie dear.. but u still remain the most important person in my life..

aniwae, hope everything goes well... hmm.. till then, ta-ta...

New Laptop!!!

i got my new laptop!!!! yay!!!

finally i got to the internet on my laptop.. but sill haf to change my laptop coz got some wireless problems with the internal if my laptop.. but nevertheless, i'm so glad to be able to be online!

wonder wad dear dear is doing now. he haven't called me yet.. i got so much things to tell him!

and the best thing is, i got an A for marketing and HRM! yay! so happie lo.. can't believe it man i scored so well! haahaahaa..

aniwae, i'm kinda tired after all the computer stuff todae... hee.. gotta go le..

ta-ta..

Quill...

todae i'm so happie.. for many things... here they are..

firstly, i got back my operations management mid semester tests.. yay! passed.. very very happie.. haahaa...

secondly, dear dear came down to TM to look for me. we went to kenny rogers for dinner! i had their baked fish! hmm.. so nice! then came the surprise! dear brought me somewhere.. he juz said "follow me" in the end, he brought me to the cinema. he bought the tickets in advance! we watched Quill! so cute! doggie show! so nice. dear was so sweet.. i was so touched.. after the movie went to see my laptop to scan for the best ones.. think Toshiba is not bad besides HP...

too bad dear has to book in tonite.. though its his off.. but tmr dear gotta conduct IPPT.. so too bad, he gotta book in... but i'm glad to be able to spend my time wif dear... so nice~ juz the both of us...

another good news~ dear told me he would be clearing his off soon.. dunno why i seem to "phew~" in my heart... it feels as though i'm the one having NS... its like "finally its gonna be over soon" i'm glad i went thru this great big obstacle wif dear... only the both of us know what we went through..

i lent dear my discman so that at least he got something to accompany him on his way to camp.. hope he likes my songs that i burnt..

aniwae, thank u dear.. for the movie.. and for ur love.. its been a wonderful 3 years and 9 months..

aniwae, its 53 more days to go...

ta-ta..

54 More Days To Go

todae so sian.. did so much things the whole day. even went to TP library to research on my HRM peer teaching notes.. so much things to do.. so little time. so tired. dun wish to blog le.

dear dear i miss u..

ta-ta...

Phew...

whoa.. i'm so glad to be back at home... came home from sch so tired le. then went to TM to make my red specs.. and it cost me $54.50! juz to repair a scratch! can u believe it? haiz.. spent so much $$ sia.. haiz.. aniwae, i'm so tired, after all the running here and there. and my migraine came back.. haiz.. sianz man.. ok la.. going eat dinner liao...

ta-ta...

55 More Days To Go

hmm.. its 11.20am now and i'm in the school library waiting for liang and velly to finish lesson so that we can go makan together. their class would only end at 12 which means i got 40 mins more on this computer.. chee weng is sitting down staring into space. haahaa.. wonder where we are going to eat later?? hopefully jan can come and join us too, if her lecture ends early..

so sian man.. wonder wad is dear dear doing now. heehee.. todae is a long dae for me. will only end at 5 this evening. oh man! still got 2 more lectures to attend.. haiz..

still got 55 more days to dear's O.R.D finally can count it in days. so happie whenever i see the number dropping day by day. heehee..

i'm feeling light and happie todae.. coz i'm wearing my new tee from FOX.. its so comfortable. heehee.. but i tink my migraine is coming back.. feel a little slight pain on the head till the neck. oh god.. i hate that feeling.. and the worst thing is, i forgot to bring my migraine medicine. arrgghh..

hmm.. nothing much to blog todae. maybe i will go home and blog again..

dear, i miss you..

ta-ta..

56 More Days To Go

dear juz smsed me to do my power rider exercise.. so sweet rite? heehee... aniwae, i did todae liao..

went to sch todae.. practically spent the whole dae doing project. but todae not so efficient. did not managed to do much things.. i think we are not focused la and tink we oso tired liao..

i'm starving man.. waiting for mummy to come home and haf dinner wif me. i love eating wif my mummy.. coz we tok and tok abt alot of things... schoolwork, love relationships, dear and many other stuffs.. haahaa..

mummy juz told me on the phone that my dad would buy a laptop for me next week!heeheehee.. i'm so happie! yay! yay! yay!

oh yeah. mummy is back finally.. go eat dinner liao.. ta-ta...

57 Days To Go...

haiz.. todae is a bad dae for me! my computer died on me with the stoopid spyware virus. wad the heck is spyware? so damn irritating.. beware ppl!!! from 4 plus i repair and repair until now.. 8 plus le.. haiz.. i had to back up all my files and then reinstall my hard disk! now all my favourite mp3's are gone! gone! gone! and i dun even haf irc lo. haiz... so sian.. got migraine somemore. and my blog! dunno izzit the settings or wad.. it juz became so ugly! the font and everything! aggrrhh! so pissed off! but i dun care le. when i free then i edit bah. its not impt aniwae...

tmr muz go sch early for HRM project. and till now, i haven't rest or did my service reflection.. so sickening! arrrggghhh!!!!!

gotta go.. ta-ta..

58 Days To Go....

tomorrow is the start of the second half of the semester. haiz.. so sian. time passes so fast.. aniwae, i went to beach road wif dear todae to get some army stuff, then met bryan and ck (dear's friends) go temple.. haahaa. so weird.. they juz suddenly called and say wanna go temple.. aniwae, we went to the bugis one.. kuanyin temple.. then dear's friend drove us back.. and the slacked at dear's house for the whole day.. haahaa. can't believe it man.. ate steamboat again for dinner since Qin mama is working.. so no one cook.. heehee. i think i eat steamboat so many times liao lo.. haha..

was so tired todae, i slept on the way back home in the bus.. luckily nvr missed the stop.. think partly bcoz i knoe tmr got sch.. so damn sianz.. aniwae, reached home and then toked to dear on the phone. had quite a nice conversation.. heehee.. and dear worked out an exercise plan for me (coz he's so sick of me saying that i'm fat "but i am mar!" haahaa..) i juz did 50 situps and my abdomen is so painful.. haahaa.. guess its working bah??? and i have to do power rider 50 times everydae plus 50 situps. strictly by dear dear.. heehee...

aniwae, thanks dear.. for hmm.. everything? yeah.. thanks for ur diet plan, ur patience wif me, accepting me as who i am now (haahaa.. but i'm fat ma!), and lastly for showering me wif ur love.. so much that i juz feel so loved when i'm wif u... hee... love ya..

ta-ta.. gotta go to bed le. if dear know i so late haven't slp sure scold me again. hee.. coz tmr got 9.00am tutorial..

Juz Another Normal Saturday...

todae, i spent the whole dae wif dear... slacked at home and then went out for dinner at TM coz i got a lot of stuffs to buy. dear seemed to wander off at the later part of the dae. dunno why.. maybe he's tired? i dunno, i asked him he say nothing. that's wad i dun like.. he's so MCP.. i guess he's tired, he juz wun tell me... haiz... little things lidat oso can't tell me... i oso dunno wad to do... aniwae, glad that he's home..

i'm kinda sian. tmr is the last dae.. then sch is gonna start liao.. then i'm gonna be busy again. haiz...

blog tmr bah.. ta-ta...

Friday Is Here Again!

phew.. added some stuffs to my blog... pictures to be exact.. heehee.. think my blog looks so nice now... haahaa.. thick skin hor?? heehee...

todae went back to sch to do my ops management project.. sianz man... haiz.. monday start sch le. how time flies. i didn't even managed to enjoy my holiday..

managed to buy Nishi's birthdae present with Grace todae.. finally... so hard to get for someone a present.. haahaa...

hope dear's work is fine todae.. he's under alot of pressure from his boss.. and though i can't help much, but i'll always be standing by and be here whenever u need me.. i knoe its tough, i know it is not easy.. but no matter what, juz remember that you have to control ur temper ok?? flaring ur temper would not get u anywhere... juz control.. at nite when u call me, u can juz tell me, tok to me or vent it out on me : ) okie?? most importantly, i want u to stay happie.... tomorrow's saturdae.. hope to see u soon... meanwhile, tk care... miss you..

ta-ta...

Happie 45th Month!!

dear dear, happie 45th month! its been 3 years and 9 months since we went steady.. wow how time flies... aniwae, i am very glad to be able to spend this part of my life with you and thank god i haf u by my side... heehee.. having you in my life makes me the luckiest girl in the world, coz i was loved by you! heehee...

todae haiz... was sleeping and then jan called me and said there was a finance lecture, i was so shocked! then bo pian.. missed it liao.. so in the end went to sch to do project..

went to city hall wif liang and velly and bought a Red Swatch.. haahaa.. so happie.. heehee.. then after that meet grace to get nishi's brithdae present. wad a tiring dae..

toked to dear juz now.. dear so poor thing.. his superior is so demanding. so stressful.. to think that he going O.R.D soon.. poor dear dear..

dear dear, i miss u..

ta-ta...

Juz Me, Myself & I

i'm so bored at home todae.. haiz... liang has gone to sch to do project, and will be meeting his sister later, jan's friends are going over to her place to watch video,velly is going jogging wif her sis, ali is in police academy, gladys is too lazy to come out and grace is helping a friend in need.. haiz.. so many friends, but all so busy..

i'm all left alone at home todae! faced nothing but the computer the whole day... thank god there is still blogger to help me waste a little of my time.. i miss dear dear.. msged him like 3 times but he didn't reply.. so unlike of him.. maybe he went to play soccer wif his army buddies.. didn't take hp wif him.. dear dear, where on earth are you? i'm so bored.. can't wait for you to take leave. but i know, by the time u are clearing your leave, jul jul will be busy doing projects and having exams... haiz.. our schedule has never ever fitted.. its either u not free, or i not free...

but there is always something to look forward to! tomorrow jul's going out wif gladys and grace. we have to get nishi's birthdae present... and me? i feel like getting a watch! yay! hehee..

by the way, tomorrow's the 12th.. its QinJul's 45th month.. which means that, its been 3 years and 9 months since we went steady.. can't believe it man.. so fast... love ya dear..

last nite, dear made me so happie.. heehee.. i smsed him "Mr Eng, gd nite.." guess wad he replied? haahaa.. "Gd nite too Mrs Eng.. love ya.." i was so shocked.. so sweet! i had a very sweet sleep last nite.. yeah.. i admit.. i can't wait to be Mrs Eng.. i wanna spend and have a life with dear, but not until he and i finishes our studies and both our careers are establised and definately not until he asks.. in the right moment, right time, right place, with the right stuffs... i won't say yes so easily! haahaa.. its gonna be tough.. wow~~~ haaaa.. i'm actually talking about all these.. yeah.. i'm gonna be 21 this yr, wad u expect rite? there's no more puppy love btwn dear and me, both of us have matured and grown up.. we think differently.. many things to consider.. like our future... we are not the 17, 18 year olds anymore.. in this relationship, we have learnt to compromise, and give up some of the things we like and accept some things that we hate too.. compromise is a big word.. u might know how to say it, but when u really wanna do it, its not going to be easy.. love was never easy.. not for the both of us... we had many tough times, sleepless nites, countless fights, teary moments.. but through it all.. we stuck together, only for one reason... bcoz we love each other... and we know it deep in our hearts... we might say hurtful words when we are angry, but we dun actually mean it... the power of love is juz so great....

lastly.. dear, i love you.. from the bottom of my heart..

ta-ta..

Nice Teeth!

went to breakfast wif mummy todae.. then went to make my teeth.. now got nice nice teeth le. heehee...

now feeling very very tired.. dunno why, but juz damn sleepy.. miss dear dear alot.. dear dear having outfield. dunno wad time then he come back. can't wait to tok to him...

miss you dear :)

ta-ta..

happy, happy, happy

was so happie todae... juz spent the whole dae wif dear dear, from morning till nite... went down to dear's house to mit him in the morning coz he's tired.. and then we went to have breakfast together.. then bought junk (oh my god, its making me fat!) and dear dear bought live crabs for his mum to cook chilli crabs.. back at home, he finally admitted that he bought the crabs bcoz of me coz i have been craving to eat chilli crabs for the longest time. dear was so sweet.. he juz dote on me so much. i think i'm falling more and more in love with him. he din even tell me that it was for me. he juz told me that he wants to eat.

then back at home we watched tv together and ate n ate junkies.. hahaha... 2 piggies.. then slept halfway while watching tv.. coz dear dear watched a show which i dun understand. haha. the gong li and lin ching hsia one. the olden day sword-fighting type. haahaa. the best part is.. gong li is a lesbian in the show or wadsoever. haaahaa.. then me so sian, i fell asleep while they were fighting (can't blame me rite?) heehee.. and the thing is, i actually fell asleep twice..

finally dinner came and we ate the chilli crabs! hmmm.. yummilicious.. plus, Qin mama cooked curry too.. wow.. fabulous.. really nice.. hehe. wad a marvellous dinner! then as usual, we spent our National day together watching the parade.. i asked dear many questions about the silly marching that the SAF is doing (dear's favourite part of the NDP is the march)
i asked dear why the ppl in the first row nvr turn their heads?
why the others must turn?
why got military police?
how do they know the commands in malay?
the commander shout so loud?
they all can hear ma?
the bullets in the guns are real?
wad are they shooting?
wad if the commander with the sword slashed the president by mistake?
wad is the sword thingy in front of the president for?
haahaa.. u can by now imagine the look on dear dear's face! haha.. dear dear was shaking his head. this gf of his is asking and asking like an inquisitive mouse.. heehee.. naughty me again..

right after the parade, we watched singapore idol.. haha.. so damn funny. especially the lemon tree guy.. its really interesting to watch singaporeans lidat.. dear and me enjoyed the show! thank u singapore idol!

after that i took a cab home as it was so late oredi.. then dear and me toked on the phone again when he was in camp and me at home... so sweet.. thank god i haf dear dear..

msg for dear: "thank u for being that wonderful guy who is always by my side. i need u when i'm happie, i need u when i'm sad, i need u when things go wrong, and i need u to guide me, hold my hand, and walk through this winding and rocky road wif me. i love u.. jul"

The Notebook

todae, i spent the whole dae with dear dear.. we went to watch The Notebook. it was a fabulous show i must say. i juz love it. so romantic and sweet. if my husband is like that the nxt time, i would be so touched.. wad a wonderful show. i love it!

after the movie, dear n me went to eat long john! hahaha. my long craving fish and clam chowder. i juz simply can't resist it!! so nice! hahaha.. satisfied my cravings. then after which went back to dear's house to slack. hehehe. its been a long time..

then at 7pm, watched the happy fish show. so stoopid show.waste my time watching. oso got no ending one. sianz...

dear sent me home afterwhich.. but there is one thing on my mind. dear rejected a mahjong session wif his friends todae. izzit becoz of me? is he really changing? aniwae, if it was really bcoz of me, thank u dear.. i'm aware of the sacrifices u made for me and i appreciate wad u are doing... juz 4 more months and we'll be going steady for 4 whole years! through all the fights and unhappiness, i still love u all the same, and it has never changed..

lastly, thanks for spending the day with me. i am very happy todae, coz i'm with you....

ta-ta..

It's Finally Over and Done With!!!!

whoa, i haven't been blogging for the past week.. so busy with my exams.. busy studying...

yay! yay! yay! i am over and done with my exams. so happie. the best thing is, i finally get to see dear dear after 1/2 a month. didn't meet dear dear for 1/2 a month due to my exams. hehe... so happie.. todae dear dear coming to my house coz its my grandpa's birthdae. hehe... can't wait to pig on the food man! hahaha.. sure got a lot of things to makan.

aiyo this liang ar.. tag me so many times... he damn sian then will come and li siao my blog. haiz.. haha..

aniwae, i heard a sad news this week. my secondary school teacher passed away.. was supposed to attend the wake, but due to my heavy exam schedule, i couldn't make it. haiz..

aniwae, gtg... blog later or tmr bah.. hee.. ta-ta..

Something Happened To My Teeth!

i dunno wad happened but something has happened to my teeth. i wun say wad izzit, coz its too gross! and the worst thing is, all the dentists are closed around my area.. shucks!!!

damn, i haf to go to the dentist tomorrow. cannot go sch le. haiz.. think i haf to mit the rest later in school. haiz...

wad a bad omen!

ta-ta...

Down With Flu and Sore Throat... Eeeeksss..

heaven really hasn't been kind to me. i had a big blow of my life todae. i wun say wad izzit. but i'm very upset wif myself todae. and i'm so sick now, its so hard to study. my nose is reddened and pain from the constant sneezing and rubbing. and my mind is constanly worried about my mid semester tests. i'm so worried that i can't study finish.. haiz..

dear dear has gone for his shooting range. this time it will be 3 days long, but it is also his LAST shooting range. yay! finally... can't wait for dear dear to O.R.D.. heehee.. since dear is at his shooting range, he will be calling me late tonite.. gd oso.. then i can study and wait up for his call :)

dear dear finally agreed to bring jul jul to sentosa on the 8th august.. yay! so happie..

meanwhile, i'm gonna study real hard.. can't wait for the semester tests to be over soon.. haiz.

ta-ta..

Busy Studying...

Whoa. this week is a critical week for me.. got 5 subjects to study.. but so little time. oh no.. i'm on a verge of a breakdown.. haiz...

todae went to library to study wif liang and velly.. then went home at about 5plus...

i'm so tired now. think gonna study only later at nite.. ta-ta...

Stressed All Over Again...

i'm in the school lab now, with liang beside me, rushing for time for his project due.. hehe...

aniwae, arrgghh.. i haven't been blogging for the past 2 days.  was extremely busy, i didn't even have time for dear on saturday. we went to singapore river to sit and chat. and then headed to lau pa sat and had a simple dinner and then we headed home. dear went to my house on saturdae and my parent's were delighted to see him. hahahaha. coz he so long never go my house oredi. then dear watched tv wif my dad, while i was busy rushing out my HRM report and mindmap. i juz left dear on the sofa. hehe. but then again, he had my dad for company.. dear left my house around 10 but headed to meet his friends for supper. as for me, i continued with my never-ending project (i'm so glad it's over!) and slept only at 3.30am. aren't i poor thing?!

met dear again on sundae. we practically did nothing. dear came down all the way to tampines to fetch me! so sweet rite? heehee.. then we went for breakfast and proceeded back to dear's home for tv... and we went downstairs to play badminton! then we had a wonderful steamboat dinner and i had my udon! yay! so happie.. and then i went home in a cab.. so tiring. and i can't sleep till i finish my project finalization. i'm so glad i handed it in oredi!

todae.. i'm so exhausted.. slept late and woke up early todae. i tink i'm going home to have a nice bath and have a nap before i start studying tonite for my mid-semester tests..

gotta leave the lab soon.. might be back home to blog again! ta-ta..

Exhausted...

phew! i had a long dae todae.. after ops management tutorial then mit liang for lunch at mensar.. then we went to library to study finance until 7pm.. so tiring.. me so scared of tmr's finance test though its 20 MCQ, but i knoe its not easy.. haiz..

dear muz be having "happy hour" now.. coz he told me juz now. he muz be happy lo.. heehee.. good lo, dun need to work so much like me. aniwae, sorry dear, i'm so busy these days.. but i will make time for u tmr.. we go makan dinner together ok?

aniwae, i gotta go study liao.. ta-ta..

Stressed...

haiz.. dunno why got so much things to do. so squeezed up. gotta complete my HRM project due on mondae and gotta study for finance test this wk... and plus mid semester tests starts on the 02 of august and i got 2 exam based CDS's.. haiz..

but one good news, i got an A for my PSQ individual journal! yay! yay! yay! heehee.. so happie.

as for dear, me so busy this saturdae, got finance test and then gotta attend lecture after that. then after lecture still gotta finish up my HRM in school. haiz.. guess i can only meet dear dear for dinner bah.. aniwae, dear told me that nxt wk saturdae he can't meet me. he got shooting range. so i guess, i would also be a good time to study and prepare for my mid semester tests. juz nice the timing. we both are busy.. aniwae, i miss u dear..

gotta go n do my HRM oredi.. ta-ta..

I Washed My Hair!!

yay! i washed my hair finally. couldn't stand it after a dae. the hairdresser told me not to wash it after 3 days.. haahaa. i can't be bothered le. dun expect me to go to sch wif oily hair rite? feeling so fresh and happy after my bath. heehee.. but still, i hope my hair would grow longer abit. heehee. its kinda short now. but one consolation, hair do grow! : )

aniwae, my PSQ quiz was okay.. heehee. but i got a bigger surprise! i received a msg from dear after i came out of the lecture theatre. he wished my good luck for my paper.. wow~ i was so happie and surprised. heehee.. dear really changed alot. i dunno wad caused the change in him. after wad happened last saturdae at 2am. he changed completely. he changed for the better, and it makes me very glad.. now, he's giving me surprises here n there. hee.. i muz say, i'm happie... thanks dear : ) though its juz a simple sms, but i knoe it means alot, to u and me..

haiz. later haf to get back to my HRM peer teaching notes oredi. sianz man. hmm.. aniwae, gotta go soon.. blog tmr..

ta-ta..

New Look!

i rebonded my hair! but had to cut it short, coz my hair was spoiling and it wouldn't be nice if i didn't cut and rebonded it. i feel a little silly though. haha. my hair is so straight. can't wait to let dear dear see it.
 
aniwae, i still haven't learn my PSQ quiz tomorrow. arrgghh.. i gtg oredi. think i'll blog tomorrow.
 
msg for dear: i miss you..
 
ta-ta..

Extremely Exhausted

i think i've been bitten.. by the tired bug. my whole body is aching, my legs are wobbly, my tummy is aching too and i feel unwell. i can't afford to be sick. not at this moment. i have tons of project waiting for me to complete. a PSQ test and finance test.. i juz can't get myself to function. not at this moment.
 
i'm missing dear now. wanna sms him. but i dunno wad to put in the sms. hmm.. came home at 5.30 todae. sianz.. very exhausted. think i'll blog tomorrow..
 
ta-ta..

Juz Dear & Me...

todae meet dear at great world city.. we went to haf breakfast at coffee bean plus a brownie! dear loved it. he eat n eat n eat i see him eat n eat i very happie.. then we went to watch mean girls in the afternoon.. not a bad show. quite nice. we then proceeded back to dear's house.. watched tv, then had a nap, i helped dear dear pack his bag.. and then we ate dinner. then go home le..

though we did nothing special. i was glad that i'm wif dear. we spent quality time together and i'm glad that i was wif him..

msg for dear:
"thank u for spending time wif me. they are special moments kept in my heart."

ta-ta..

Prawn Fishing

its saturdae! aniwae, i was woken up by dear's sms.. he sent me something so sweet.. at 2am! i was moved. he can't sleep. juz thinking about me.. can't believe it man.. dear has changed.. but i dowan him to make changes for me. i juz feel that he should find someone who suits him instead of making changes for me.
 
aniwae, wahhhh.. todae i went prawn fishing.. opposite the jurong bird park. so fun! but expensive lo. one rod costs $25 for 3 hrs. and me n dear only caught 3 prawns after 3 hours. haahaa. so funny rite? but i did enjoy myself. we went wif dear's buddy n his gf.. had a fun but tiring dae. after that we proceeded to crystal jade at suntec. the new one. crystal jade la mian xiao long bao. haha. so cute the name. not bad.. heehee... was really happie todae.. thank u dear..
 
now, i'm tired, but happie. coz i gotta spend the whole dae wif dear. hmm.. so nice...
 
ta-ta...

Fridae's Here At Last...

wow.. blogger has improved! now got colours and fonts to choose.. hee.. cool.. aniwae, had a busy fridae.. but so glad that i'm home. so damn tired! went to school at 10am todae.. and did my HRM project.. and at 12pm, went for ops management tutorial.. then finished at 2pm. met liang for lunch at mensar.. then proceeded back to the library to do my project till 6pm.. whoa.. so tired lo.. run here and there..
 
so glad that tomorrow is saturdae.. then i can get to see dear dear.. (poor me rite? i only see him twice a week. but i think its good enuff... see too much oso dunno do wad.. haahaa... dunno wad we are gonna do after dear dear ORD... ) so contented... then can be in his strong arms... wif dear dear around, i fear nothing... heehee... think we might be going prawn fishing tomorrow wif his buddy.. can't wait man. i have not tried it before!
 
dear going to clear leave next month.. yay yay.. then will ORD soon.. at long last.. i waited near to 2 & 1/2 years for him! its not easy sia. it takes so much patience, understanding, trust and care... after october, yay! no more army, no more book in timing, no more book out timing, no more IPPT,  no more SOC, no more outfield, no more shooting range, no more track & field, no more clearing arms, no more late phone calls at nite! haahaahaa.. i'm so happie! dear, we are gonna do it, we are gonna pass another obstacle test to our love... : ) thank god i haf u... u mean so much to me... u are the one that keeps me going, holds me when i fall, and pick me up at my lowest moments... thank u dear dear..
 
arrgghh.. i'm so exhausted. still got tutorial haven't do leh. aiyo. i think this week dun do tutorial le. better put all my time and energy on my finance test on saturdae..
 
ta-ta...

 

Relieved...

wahahaha.. i found dear dear le.. haha.. he went to play soccer.. nvr bring handphone.. no wonder la.. so relieved to hear his voice..

arrgghh.. tomorrow got project to do again. haiz.. project project n more projects..

now i'm stuck with finance. i dunno how am i gonna go thru the test. but the main thing is i muz do well for my HRM if not i dun need get my specialization le. haiz...

so tired. now waiting for mummy to come back n eat dinner wif jul jul..

aniwae, i'm so glad i found dear dear back. haha. seems a little silly, but who cares aniwae.. heehee..

ta-ta..

Worried....

oh- oh dear dear is missing. can't get him on his mobile.. he asked me to sms him if i'm going for the dinner wif my friends tonite. but he nvr reply. i dunno wad he is doing. called a number of times but juz can't get him.. oh man.. its been like 2 hrs oredi? haizz..

ta-ta..

Rainy Evening...

Phew! luckily i made it home before the rain came down. the sky is grey and the rain can come down anytime soon..

todae was such a hectic dae. got 7 hr lectures all the way. no break, nothing.. sianzz man. later after dinner still haf to do my finance tutorial haiz..

tired sia.. aniwae, i miss dear dear.. glad that he is back! can't wait to tok to him.. :) yay! yay! yay!

ta-ta..

Specially For Dear

I miss you dear.. Dunno why i suddenly feel like this.. but i juz miss u... hope u tmr come back quickly from outfield...

:)

Forever - Mariah Carey

Those days of love are gone
Our time is through
Still I burn on and on
All of my life
Only for you
From now until

Forever and ever my darling
Forever
You will always be the only one...
You will always be the only one...

As long as I shall live
I'll hold you dear
And I will reminisce
Of our love
All through the years
From now until

If you should ever need me
Unfailingly I will return to your arms
And unburden your heart
And if you should remember
That we belong together
Never be ashamed
Call my name
Tell me I'm the one you treasure

Miss My Dear...

todae dunno why missing dear dear... miss him alot lo.. but he outfield.. so impossible to tok tonite. and it was raining heavily somemore. wonder how his outfield is. hmm... dear, jul jul miss u...

aniwae, todae went to TM wif jiayi. haha. had a wonderful time. and i bought a nike tee and a levi's top. heehee.. so happie, but my bank go down le. haiz..

todae not much to blog. juz miss dear dear alot.. can't wait for tomorrow, coz he coming back tomorrow.. hope time passes faster!

ta-ta

Happie 44th Month!

dearrrrr dearrr.. Happie 44th Month of our everlasting love n relationship. whoa. time passes so fast. its been 3 years and 8 months that we are together.. hmm.. my feelings? hahaha.. i've been thru the ups and the downs wif u. we've got fights, quarrels, love.. everything... juz want u 2 noe that i've never regretted knowing you... coz i knoe i can never find someone as good as u anymore. thanks for standing by me all this while. though u make me angry at times, but i still love u all the same n nothing can change that.. love u...

todae went to sch for HRM. and then was supposed to attend marketing lecture, but the lecturer was sick. so me and my project mates stayed back at the TP library to do our HRM project.

next week got finance test le. so scared leh. finance so chimology one. haha. hope i can pull through. or else, i sure very sad one!

the rain is so heavy.. makes me wanna slp. might meet jiayi later to go TM. but it all depends on the rain..

ta-ta..

Boring Saturdae Again...

todae, din meet dear, he went to his army buddy's 21st birthdae. so me stayed home to do tutorial. and later in the afternoon, went wif jie jie to TM. me didn't buy anything, except a pair of earrings from perlini's hee...

haiz. todae nothing much to blog oso. juz hope that dear come home faster, then i can tok to dear dear..

i'm looking forward to tomorrow..

ta-ta..

My Thoughts...

juz happen to see my tagboard. and someone called wisdom juz gave me some advice. whoever u are. thanks. i think u are right. do i wanna spend the rest of my life wif him? yah, i want! i knoe he's the one. its juz one of those days where we are not in the right state of mind coz of our environment, stress and workloads. nevertheless, it is not going to break us apart. friends of mine should know rite? heeheehee.. i'm fine wif dear dear oredi.. we're a happy couple now and i'm glad that i'm still his girl. which relationship got no quarrel one rite? :)

heee..

msg for dear:
"this wk was not a good one for us, but i'm glad we toked things out and we finally can see a rainbow after the storm. i knoe we were meant for each other.. coz its moomoo n tortoise forever.. heehee.. love ya. muacks"

Everytime - Britney Spears

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...

Weekend's here!

firdae is finally here. i got lotsa things to do.. hmm.. aniwae, todaei went out wif liang n jan. we went to bugis coz jan needed to get sumthing for her friend.. and guess wad? adidas outlet in bugis opened oredi! we went there.. and i saw a bag, and i fell in love, all over again.. haiz.. i was thinking whether to get it or not. and guess wad? haiz. ppl who knoe me well would knoe the ending oredi. i got the bag. the price, i won't reveal.. heehee..

yesterdae, kor kor smsed me, asked me out for dinner on thursdae. yay! he finally have time for me. i so long never see him since i left ITE and he, NS.. hehe.. so happie..

as for dear, we din quarrel yesterdae, juz had an hour conversation. nothing much happened :) he msged me todae in the evening too. i was surprised! (coz he usually dun msg me) he juz ask me "how u doing girl?" well, i was happy to receive the sms, but somehow, that happiness in me is different, it is mixed with a lot of doubts.. i was wondering, if he was doing it for me? or was he doing it, becoz he really missed me? he said that he missed me, that's y he smsed me.. nevertheless, i am still feeling weird.. and i guess.. i shouldn't think too much about it..

as for schoolwork (which is still the number 1 thing in my life) getting more and more. gotta list of things to do tonite and tomorrow..

1) Marketing tutorial
2) HRM peer tutoring notes
3) Operations management tutorial
4) Finance tutorial

wif so much things to do. i guess, love would be put aside for now. piorities first.. gotta go..

ta-ta..

In The Middle of My Tutorial...

i'm in the middle of my ops mgmt tutorial, i dunno why i juz gotta urge to blog. i juz got hit by an arrow.. to be specific, its dear's arrow.. here i am, wounded badly.. what happened was this:

my little sister asked me a question on chinese which i was unable to solve. i knoe dear would be able to solve it, so i msged him, ask whether he is working or not. then when he said no, i called him, asked him wad he was doin. he was playing a game. i dunno wad the heck was it. and he asked me why, i juz suddenly felt like i was intruding.. his army buddies were at the background, "wah lan eh" this and that. i felt irritated and sad.. so i told him, its ok. nothing oredi. he said why, tell me, i said its ok, tok later.. he said ok. i said bye.. and hung up. so weird that this actually made me sad. haiz. wadever.. i think the sad part was that i was thinking if i had met wif an accident, and died this very moment, would he be lidat too? he can juz "fang xin" to say bye without even knowing what i called him for..

it juz makes me wonder why i fell for him. and it really makes me think twice.....

Crazy - K-ci & Jojo

This song is specially for dear...

I don't know why, what I'm doing what I'm doing
See, baby I, apologize
For all the things that I've done that I've done
See I've known that I've been a fool for far too long
And baby you have it, I go around to wait, just come back
Please baby, baby won't you stay
If you really love me then why are you leavin me

I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, when I can touch you
Crazy, crazy when I can hold you
Crazy, crazy,when I can see you again

I've finally realized, that you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all I seem to keep thinking,
To keep thinkin of, yeah
And now I know I need you each and every day
I can't live without you, so don't run away
Baby you say that you love me, so why'd you leave me, why?
I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, but I can't touch you
Crazy, crazy, when I can hold you
Crazy, crazy, when I can see again
If I can see you, if I can see you again
Then I would go, if I could see you again
I'd go crazy

Cold, Rainy Dae...

it rained the whole dae todae, and i haf to go to school! its such a good weather for napping. aniwae, for those who get updated about my life through my blog, i'm fine wif my dear oredi. not in the sense that we managed to solve our problems or promise that things like that won't be happening anymore, but we juz sort of dun tok about it. and tok about other things. he msged me and i'm happie.. and glad.. juz hope that i dun screw things up oso.. hee..

how time flies, and tomorrow is fridae. i am not meeting dear on saturdae, he got his friend's 21st birthdae. heehee.. he can catch some chicks there too! at least, he will be able to know that i'm not the only woman on earth. i always tell him that there are good n pretty girls out there. he juz dunno, coz he haven't came across one before. haha.

haiz. later muz do tutorial for ops mgmt. i can't stand that tutorial. i dun like it. seems so weird in a logistics class.. eeks. i hate fridaes now.

aniwae, juz wanna say "thank u 2 my friends for standing by me, consoling me, supporting me, lending me your shoulder n ears, laughing wif me and most importantly for accepting me as who i am... u never know how much u mean to me.. thank god i found all of u.."

this msg is specially for grace, alicia, gladys, liang, jan and velly..

Tell Me It's Real - K-ci & Jojo

This song is specially dedicated to dear...

Tell me it's real
The feeling that we feel
Tell me that it's real
Don't let love come
Just to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
It's up to me and you
To make this special love
Last forever more

Baby you told me that you love me and you'd never leave my side
Through the bitter end through the thick and thin
You promised me baby that you wasn't going anywhere, yes you did
Baby keep it real let me know just how you feel

I can't explain the way you make me feel
Everytime you tell me that you love me
And you know you did so many times
Just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
That's when you came along
And showed me happiness
Baby you are the best
I think you're different from the rest
I really love you

Tell me it's real
This feeling that I fell
Tell me it's real
For your love
I will do anything

My Tiring Dae...

whoa. todae from 10am to 5pm. really had me longing for my bed. i was so tired by 5pm. aniwae, i haf to update u all on the dinner at mushroom pot yesterdae. i had a wonderful dinner wif JJVL last nite. it was my first time at mushroom pot and i enjoyed the ambience. very romantic. and after dinner we went to the back of mushroom pot. the bridge was beautiful, if u knoe wad i am toking about.. such a romantic place. and the weather was fabulous. but i had heavy thoughts on my mind. coz me n dear sort of argued, and haiz. here i am, at the fighting peroid of my relationship again. aniwae, we toked things out last nite. and i hope it would be fine from now on.

tmr would be another hectic dae for me. and for now, i got lotsa things on my mind..
1)HRM FILA dur tomorrow
2)Finance tutorial due tomorrow
3)PSQ individual journal due tomorrow (though it is meant to be done in class, but i still haf to prepare for it)

haiz. these are the most impt things on my mind now! arrrggghhh... but something to make me feel glad, i gotta hair trim, a wash, blow and treatment juz now. feeling good now.. heeeheee...

aniwae, gotta msg for dear:
"hope u are doin fine, our differences in life, and the environment we are in makes our relationship harder. though we haf been through 3 & 1/2 years together, i know that more obstacles and hardship are ahead of us. nevertheless, i'm glad that u are beside me, goin thru all the obstacles together. we never said we wanna part before, and with that, i'm sure the both of us wanna be together, so i hope things get better now, and we'll be happy together."

gotta go my schoolwork.. they are waiting for my attention..
ta-ta..

My Bad Nite

yesterdae nite, i had a fight wif dear, i think that we have come to a point that quarrels and arguments seems to be a part our relationship.. i think maybe our relationship has strained becoz of the fact that we are goin on steady for too long.. haiz.. wad a bad nite. i cried and slpt at 1 plus. things juz dun go the way it was supposed to turn out. aniwae, i guess i was at fault too. so here i am "sorrie dear, i dunno wad is goin on in our lives rite now. i juz know that there was sumthing u said last nite still hangs in my mind clearly. i juz feel sad when i think about it. its not ur fault, and i guess, i would make some changes in our relationship.."

todae went to school at 9 to do HRM project. glad that me n my grp members managed to finish the FILA. heee.. aniwae, i had a wonderful tutorial todae. and thank god i haf wonderful friends to keep me off my mind that i quarrelled wif dear. my friends are the ones who make me laugh and tickle.. i guess.. i can't live without my friends..

now in sch at Lab waiting for jan to finish school and then liang, me n velly would go MP for our dinner together.. can't wait man. i juz can't go home and think about dear all dae. that's not how a girl should be. a girl should be strong. and i dun wanna depend my life on dear either.. if everything around me is only about him, then i see no point..

i promise as of todae, i would learn to be stronger. i'm a scorpio.. i can do it..

ta-ta..

How Does It Feel - Westlife

True lovers never take it slowly
when they've found the one and only
nothing can replace this feeling
knowing someone loves you

It's painted with the pain and glory
taking from a known sad story
laying out my life before me
fearing the unknown

Sharing never showed me much appeal
and now I'm only praying it's for real

So how does it feel
when I hold you in my arms
and you're lying next to me
never wanting you to leave
until I'll tell you how it feels
to be cradled like my dreams
and to know that you love me
no more wasting time in asking other people
How does it feel

Forever taken you for granted
you give me everything I wanted
I'm so afraid that I might lose you
but time will let us see
If everything is real I'm feeling
well maybe we've been only dreaming
and if it's gonna die to save it
coz baby I believe
Nothing in the world could make it right
Coz baby loving you brings me to life

Nothing in the world could feel this right
Coz baby you're the best thing in my life

Monday Blues....

arrrggghhh!! its mondae again. sch ended at 1, but gotta stay back to do HRM project. so tired now... and its 5pm le..haiz.. and to make things worse, my tutor is so damn naggy and long winded.. and plus, her information doesn't help us at all.. tmr morning still gotta be at school at 9am to finish up this project. todae we all tired le. so went home lo. i guess, alot of hard work need to be put in this sem..

i'm so glad that mondae is over.. haiz.. really dragged myself to get out of bed this morning..

yay! tmr going wif liang, jan n velly to mushroom pot to haf dinner. i can't wait man! so excited. dunno how the food would be like. heehee..

as for my fishes, they are doing fine. still alive and kicking. heee..

haiz.. the football hor.. aiyo that portugal, dunno why will lose la. me oso nvr watch, but dear dear betted on them. haiz. me heartpain sia. though its only $20. if greece didn't win, dear would haf $70.. oh well, that's the price to pay for gambling rite? dear said, aiya. got win got lose ma. hee...

dunno wad dear doing now. probably still working bah? hmm.. tk care dear..

think me going to nap and be pig now. i'm so damn tired..

ta-ta!

Happie Sundae...

for a start, i was quite upset wif dear yesterdae nite.. he did something which made me really furious and i guess i shall not say wad happened.. aniwae, its between me and dear.. but we're okay now.. i forgave him in the end. he was really upset last nite..

todae, i spent the whole dae wif dear dear.. he came all the way down to tampines to fetch me.. which is very sweet to me! and then we had breakfast at BK and after that we went to catch Spiderman 2 at TM.. Spidey was a good show. really nice.. i love it.. juz like a romantic love story. and i liked a quote which says something like "sometimes we haf to give up the things we like, even our dreams.."

afterwhich i headed back to dear's home to "nua" haha... so damn sian. tmr got school.. so we watched tv, cooked together (maggi mee) haha..

dear dear.. thanks for the wonderful time together... its good to haf u in my life..

gtg now.. so tired.. ta-ta..

Boring Blue Saturdae....

juz managed to finish my marketing tutorial and oso my HRM.. but HRM i dunno correct or not. did a little mind map too..

dear is home oredi. juz hanged up the phone wif him like half an hour ago.. he's tired.. so haf to go napping.. we din tok much either.. coz we dunno wad to tok about.. only tok about the recent 4 years juz passed us by like that. and 4 years! unbelievable.. but he thinks that its still moving too slowly.. how fast do u want dear? i still haf loads of projects to do, of course i dowan time to pass so quickly..

haf to go for photo shoot later. damn sian lo.. haiz. wonder how it would turn out. it would be hung up in my living room. hee.. can u believe it? haa.. my sister is a graduate!

oh ya.. time to update u guys on those little orangey fishes of mine. they are so extremely naughty. happy keeps on biting blacktail.. and the only thing i could do was is to add more members to the tank so that he wun haf only one target. haiz. y are all fishes so naughty? or izzit only mine? aniwae, i went back to the pet shop and bought 2 more. and the uncle recognized me.. haha. he asked me 2 enuff or not.. hahahaha... and i came home, placed all of them together, and its better la.. but dat happy still keep on li siao the blacktail.. well, i did my best.. as for grumpy, he's in another tank, all alone. i think he likes to be alone.. wad a loner..

can't wait for sundae to come. then i can see dear dear. hee.. i wonder how some ppl can be in the same class as their bf, and then, same school, and then mit everydae, and even on weekends.. omg, i dun think i like my relationship to be lidat.. like cannot live without each other until so jia lat. aiyo.. but aniwae, the girls and boys in sch are all younger than me, so i dun blame them.. still puppy love ma.. me old woman le.. haahaahaa..

hmm.. ok. that's all i guess...

aniwae gotta msg for dear:
"happie sleeping... sweet dreams... muacks.."

ta-ta..

Happie 47th Month!

hey dear, todae is our 47th month of friendship. juz one more month and i will knoe u for 4 years le.. haha. time flies so fast.. thanks for always being that soulmate, best friend, lover, adviser, teacher and the best boyfriend!

todae is so damn sian. why? coz i am not meeting dear dear. and since i am not meeting him, i might juz as well stay home to do my tutorials..

woke up at 9am todae, i slept at 12.45am yesterdae nite. dunno why wake up so early.. but aniwae, i got up since i dun wanna be a fat ass. heee... hope i am sliming down. me not having breakfast todae, will have brunch later..

yesterdae nite, i got hurt.. while toking to dear, he fell asleep again. i know it wasn't intentionally coz he's really tired after his 10km run. he needs sleep. i juz dunno wad to do when i didn't hear anymore sound on the other end of the line.. hmm.. maybe i shouldn't mind so much.. oh well.. wadever it is, its all over. dear was wondering wad happened to me, since i was so moody for the whole week. he told me that he juz can't seem to make me smile. i told him to try harder. heehee.. aniwae, hope dear is doing fine todae.. i wish he could see my new blogskin, and my new tagboard and my new mediaplayer. and of course, my feelings..

siao liao.. HRM PBL is so damn difficult.. hmm.. muz work really hard le. haiz. so sian man. muz do so many things...

jul jul is looking forward to sunday..

might be back to blog later.. ta-ta..

My New Blogskin!

wow wow wow... i got my new blogskin. and i love it alot.. so nice! and i placed a media player and oso a tagboard. the only thing that i am scared of is that liang will go and put some silly msgs at my tagboard. heehee. but its ok. he's still one of my very good friends..

gosh. came back from school todae.. tired.. hee.. i everydae oso tired one. hee.. hmm.. todae managed to get our business interest group polo tee. not that bad. hee.. i quite like it. and aniwae, ops mgmt tutorial wasn't that bad la. i think i juz not used to it only. hopefully as the time goes by, i can learn to adjust.. hee..

yay.. liang say tuesday goin mushroom pot to makan dinner wif velly n jan too.. so happie.. me always very happie to mit them..

whoa. my diet dunno working or not. hmm.. but me cutting down alot le. wif tips from jan, velly n liang, plus my determination, i hope i can make it!

oh ya. forget to update, todae after school, i went to my house nearby pet shop. bought 2 more fishes to accompany starbright (i have decided to rename him as grumpy coz he's so fierce) but grumpy doesn't knoe how to appreciate it! the moment the 2 new orangey fishes go down into the tank, he follows them so closely and bites them! argghh! so grumpy n selfish! so i had to take grumpy out and place him in a seperate tank.. serves him right for being naughty..

aniwae, as for the 2 new fishes, i have named them blacktail and happy.. blacktail got his name coz he has an obvious blackspot on his tail and happy is very active.. he swims so fast, as if he's so happy.. that's how they got their names..

hmm.. as for the most impt person.. dear.. he din msg me the whole dae.. guess he's busy. besides, he got 10km run todae. he muz be feeling tired.. poor thing.. aniwae, he can rest the whole dae at home tmr.. dear should be calling me at 10 bah.. hmm.. aniwae.. hope to hear from him soon..

okie. i think i gotta go back to my tutorials le. todae i blog 3 times le.. heehee... if i later not sleeping, i might come back for a 4th one! heehee..

ta-ta!

hee.. now in school.. having my library portal workshop. whoa. so damn sian lo. can't believe that the school make us do this stoopid thingy..

liang is at it again.. playing wif someone's msn which he or she did not sign out. he so naughty. always li siao ppl..

hmm, we are thinking where to go later.. dunno wad time this thing wil end sia, haiz.. so damn sian..

later come back and blog bah. gtg.. ta-ta..

now i am waiting to go to school.. gosh, actually i dread goin to sch todae. i juz dunno how ops management tutorial would be like. wif my new class mates. omg. this is the only tutorial which i dread going.. juz so sian.. and i wonder who is kim hock.. my tutor. dunno who oso.

tmr is saturdae, i am not meeting dear coz of my photo shoot.. got mixed feelings.. in a way, glad that i haf the time to study and we haf some space and time apart, but oso miss him. its so contradictary.. hmm but looking forward to sundae though..

dear told me last nite that he can't mit me on nxt saturdae. he gotta attend his friend's brithdae.. he say he mit me in the afternoon then he go in the evening.. i guess god is creating chances and spaces to let the both of us cool down.. it might be a good thing though. i dunno.. but dear has been quite sweet lately.. yesterdae nite juz b4 we hang, he told me "juz to let u knoe, i love you" whoa. i melted.. was thinking how can anyone love me like that? like a person like me? so fat n toopid.. hee.. well aniwae, thanks alot dear...

i will come back and blog later.. gotta go sch le.. ta-ta..

todae, i'm a happy girl.. guess what? dear msged me at 4.42 todae when i was in school.. it was such a pleasant surprise. i think i got the shock of my life. i thot i read the name wrongly or wad.. he said it was to brighten my day.. u can't imagine how happy i was in my heart. it really made me happie. the feeling is juz so different. i can't explain it. but i'm juz so happy that he msged me..

though i'm not that cheerful lately, but i'm glad that he is taking the initiative to coax me (at least for todae), the feeling of being loved is juz so nice..

i juz realised that alot of girls like to be told and reassured their bf's love them. maybe its a kind of security that makes a girl feel safe.. safe that he still likes her and is still fond of her.. hmm.. love is such a complicated thing..

hmm.. schoolwork is getting tougher and tougher. muz work hard lo. this saturdae not meeting dear, coz gotta take my sister's convocation family potrait. so i guess i haf to finish putting the japan photos in the albums and oso my tutorials and i oso haf to prepare for my PSQ individual journal due on thursday.. gosh.. so much things to do.. haiz..

gotta go.. ta-ta..