Juz Another Normal Saturday...

todae, i spent the whole dae wif dear... slacked at home and then went out for dinner at TM coz i got a lot of stuffs to buy. dear seemed to wander off at the later part of the dae. dunno why.. maybe he's tired? i dunno, i asked him he say nothing. that's wad i dun like.. he's so MCP.. i guess he's tired, he juz wun tell me... haiz... little things lidat oso can't tell me... i oso dunno wad to do... aniwae, glad that he's home..

i'm kinda sian. tmr is the last dae.. then sch is gonna start liao.. then i'm gonna be busy again. haiz...

blog tmr bah.. ta-ta...

Friday Is Here Again!

phew.. added some stuffs to my blog... pictures to be exact.. heehee.. think my blog looks so nice now... haahaa.. thick skin hor?? heehee...

todae went back to sch to do my ops management project.. sianz man... haiz.. monday start sch le. how time flies. i didn't even managed to enjoy my holiday..

managed to buy Nishi's birthdae present with Grace todae.. finally... so hard to get for someone a present.. haahaa...

hope dear's work is fine todae.. he's under alot of pressure from his boss.. and though i can't help much, but i'll always be standing by and be here whenever u need me.. i knoe its tough, i know it is not easy.. but no matter what, juz remember that you have to control ur temper ok?? flaring ur temper would not get u anywhere... juz control.. at nite when u call me, u can juz tell me, tok to me or vent it out on me : ) okie?? most importantly, i want u to stay happie.... tomorrow's saturdae.. hope to see u soon... meanwhile, tk care... miss you..

ta-ta...

Happie 45th Month!!

dear dear, happie 45th month! its been 3 years and 9 months since we went steady.. wow how time flies... aniwae, i am very glad to be able to spend this part of my life with you and thank god i haf u by my side... heehee.. having you in my life makes me the luckiest girl in the world, coz i was loved by you! heehee...

todae haiz... was sleeping and then jan called me and said there was a finance lecture, i was so shocked! then bo pian.. missed it liao.. so in the end went to sch to do project..

went to city hall wif liang and velly and bought a Red Swatch.. haahaa.. so happie.. heehee.. then after that meet grace to get nishi's brithdae present. wad a tiring dae..

toked to dear juz now.. dear so poor thing.. his superior is so demanding. so stressful.. to think that he going O.R.D soon.. poor dear dear..

dear dear, i miss u..

ta-ta...

Juz Me, Myself & I

i'm so bored at home todae.. haiz... liang has gone to sch to do project, and will be meeting his sister later, jan's friends are going over to her place to watch video,velly is going jogging wif her sis, ali is in police academy, gladys is too lazy to come out and grace is helping a friend in need.. haiz.. so many friends, but all so busy..

i'm all left alone at home todae! faced nothing but the computer the whole day... thank god there is still blogger to help me waste a little of my time.. i miss dear dear.. msged him like 3 times but he didn't reply.. so unlike of him.. maybe he went to play soccer wif his army buddies.. didn't take hp wif him.. dear dear, where on earth are you? i'm so bored.. can't wait for you to take leave. but i know, by the time u are clearing your leave, jul jul will be busy doing projects and having exams... haiz.. our schedule has never ever fitted.. its either u not free, or i not free...

but there is always something to look forward to! tomorrow jul's going out wif gladys and grace. we have to get nishi's birthdae present... and me? i feel like getting a watch! yay! hehee..

by the way, tomorrow's the 12th.. its QinJul's 45th month.. which means that, its been 3 years and 9 months since we went steady.. can't believe it man.. so fast... love ya dear..

last nite, dear made me so happie.. heehee.. i smsed him "Mr Eng, gd nite.." guess wad he replied? haahaa.. "Gd nite too Mrs Eng.. love ya.." i was so shocked.. so sweet! i had a very sweet sleep last nite.. yeah.. i admit.. i can't wait to be Mrs Eng.. i wanna spend and have a life with dear, but not until he and i finishes our studies and both our careers are establised and definately not until he asks.. in the right moment, right time, right place, with the right stuffs... i won't say yes so easily! haahaa.. its gonna be tough.. wow~~~ haaaa.. i'm actually talking about all these.. yeah.. i'm gonna be 21 this yr, wad u expect rite? there's no more puppy love btwn dear and me, both of us have matured and grown up.. we think differently.. many things to consider.. like our future... we are not the 17, 18 year olds anymore.. in this relationship, we have learnt to compromise, and give up some of the things we like and accept some things that we hate too.. compromise is a big word.. u might know how to say it, but when u really wanna do it, its not going to be easy.. love was never easy.. not for the both of us... we had many tough times, sleepless nites, countless fights, teary moments.. but through it all.. we stuck together, only for one reason... bcoz we love each other... and we know it deep in our hearts... we might say hurtful words when we are angry, but we dun actually mean it... the power of love is juz so great....

lastly.. dear, i love you.. from the bottom of my heart..

ta-ta..

Nice Teeth!

went to breakfast wif mummy todae.. then went to make my teeth.. now got nice nice teeth le. heehee...

now feeling very very tired.. dunno why, but juz damn sleepy.. miss dear dear alot.. dear dear having outfield. dunno wad time then he come back. can't wait to tok to him...

miss you dear :)

ta-ta..

happy, happy, happy

was so happie todae... juz spent the whole dae wif dear dear, from morning till nite... went down to dear's house to mit him in the morning coz he's tired.. and then we went to have breakfast together.. then bought junk (oh my god, its making me fat!) and dear dear bought live crabs for his mum to cook chilli crabs.. back at home, he finally admitted that he bought the crabs bcoz of me coz i have been craving to eat chilli crabs for the longest time. dear was so sweet.. he juz dote on me so much. i think i'm falling more and more in love with him. he din even tell me that it was for me. he juz told me that he wants to eat.

then back at home we watched tv together and ate n ate junkies.. hahaha... 2 piggies.. then slept halfway while watching tv.. coz dear dear watched a show which i dun understand. haha. the gong li and lin ching hsia one. the olden day sword-fighting type. haahaa. the best part is.. gong li is a lesbian in the show or wadsoever. haaahaa.. then me so sian, i fell asleep while they were fighting (can't blame me rite?) heehee.. and the thing is, i actually fell asleep twice..

finally dinner came and we ate the chilli crabs! hmmm.. yummilicious.. plus, Qin mama cooked curry too.. wow.. fabulous.. really nice.. hehe. wad a marvellous dinner! then as usual, we spent our National day together watching the parade.. i asked dear many questions about the silly marching that the SAF is doing (dear's favourite part of the NDP is the march)
i asked dear why the ppl in the first row nvr turn their heads?
why the others must turn?
why got military police?
how do they know the commands in malay?
the commander shout so loud?
they all can hear ma?
the bullets in the guns are real?
wad are they shooting?
wad if the commander with the sword slashed the president by mistake?
wad is the sword thingy in front of the president for?
haahaa.. u can by now imagine the look on dear dear's face! haha.. dear dear was shaking his head. this gf of his is asking and asking like an inquisitive mouse.. heehee.. naughty me again..

right after the parade, we watched singapore idol.. haha.. so damn funny. especially the lemon tree guy.. its really interesting to watch singaporeans lidat.. dear and me enjoyed the show! thank u singapore idol!

after that i took a cab home as it was so late oredi.. then dear and me toked on the phone again when he was in camp and me at home... so sweet.. thank god i haf dear dear..

msg for dear: "thank u for being that wonderful guy who is always by my side. i need u when i'm happie, i need u when i'm sad, i need u when things go wrong, and i need u to guide me, hold my hand, and walk through this winding and rocky road wif me. i love u.. jul"

The Notebook

todae, i spent the whole dae with dear dear.. we went to watch The Notebook. it was a fabulous show i must say. i juz love it. so romantic and sweet. if my husband is like that the nxt time, i would be so touched.. wad a wonderful show. i love it!

after the movie, dear n me went to eat long john! hahaha. my long craving fish and clam chowder. i juz simply can't resist it!! so nice! hahaha.. satisfied my cravings. then after which went back to dear's house to slack. hehehe. its been a long time..

then at 7pm, watched the happy fish show. so stoopid show.waste my time watching. oso got no ending one. sianz...

dear sent me home afterwhich.. but there is one thing on my mind. dear rejected a mahjong session wif his friends todae. izzit becoz of me? is he really changing? aniwae, if it was really bcoz of me, thank u dear.. i'm aware of the sacrifices u made for me and i appreciate wad u are doing... juz 4 more months and we'll be going steady for 4 whole years! through all the fights and unhappiness, i still love u all the same, and it has never changed..

lastly, thanks for spending the day with me. i am very happy todae, coz i'm with you....

ta-ta..

It's Finally Over and Done With!!!!

whoa, i haven't been blogging for the past week.. so busy with my exams.. busy studying...

yay! yay! yay! i am over and done with my exams. so happie. the best thing is, i finally get to see dear dear after 1/2 a month. didn't meet dear dear for 1/2 a month due to my exams. hehe... so happie.. todae dear dear coming to my house coz its my grandpa's birthdae. hehe... can't wait to pig on the food man! hahaha.. sure got a lot of things to makan.

aiyo this liang ar.. tag me so many times... he damn sian then will come and li siao my blog. haiz.. haha..

aniwae, i heard a sad news this week. my secondary school teacher passed away.. was supposed to attend the wake, but due to my heavy exam schedule, i couldn't make it. haiz..

aniwae, gtg... blog later or tmr bah.. hee.. ta-ta..

Something Happened To My Teeth!

i dunno wad happened but something has happened to my teeth. i wun say wad izzit, coz its too gross! and the worst thing is, all the dentists are closed around my area.. shucks!!!

damn, i haf to go to the dentist tomorrow. cannot go sch le. haiz.. think i haf to mit the rest later in school. haiz...

wad a bad omen!

ta-ta...

Down With Flu and Sore Throat... Eeeeksss..

heaven really hasn't been kind to me. i had a big blow of my life todae. i wun say wad izzit. but i'm very upset wif myself todae. and i'm so sick now, its so hard to study. my nose is reddened and pain from the constant sneezing and rubbing. and my mind is constanly worried about my mid semester tests. i'm so worried that i can't study finish.. haiz..

dear dear has gone for his shooting range. this time it will be 3 days long, but it is also his LAST shooting range. yay! finally... can't wait for dear dear to O.R.D.. heehee.. since dear is at his shooting range, he will be calling me late tonite.. gd oso.. then i can study and wait up for his call :)

dear dear finally agreed to bring jul jul to sentosa on the 8th august.. yay! so happie..

meanwhile, i'm gonna study real hard.. can't wait for the semester tests to be over soon.. haiz.

ta-ta..

Busy Studying...

Whoa. this week is a critical week for me.. got 5 subjects to study.. but so little time. oh no.. i'm on a verge of a breakdown.. haiz...

todae went to library to study wif liang and velly.. then went home at about 5plus...

i'm so tired now. think gonna study only later at nite.. ta-ta...

Stressed All Over Again...

i'm in the school lab now, with liang beside me, rushing for time for his project due.. hehe...

aniwae, arrgghh.. i haven't been blogging for the past 2 days.  was extremely busy, i didn't even have time for dear on saturday. we went to singapore river to sit and chat. and then headed to lau pa sat and had a simple dinner and then we headed home. dear went to my house on saturdae and my parent's were delighted to see him. hahahaha. coz he so long never go my house oredi. then dear watched tv wif my dad, while i was busy rushing out my HRM report and mindmap. i juz left dear on the sofa. hehe. but then again, he had my dad for company.. dear left my house around 10 but headed to meet his friends for supper. as for me, i continued with my never-ending project (i'm so glad it's over!) and slept only at 3.30am. aren't i poor thing?!

met dear again on sundae. we practically did nothing. dear came down all the way to tampines to fetch me! so sweet rite? heehee.. then we went for breakfast and proceeded back to dear's home for tv... and we went downstairs to play badminton! then we had a wonderful steamboat dinner and i had my udon! yay! so happie.. and then i went home in a cab.. so tiring. and i can't sleep till i finish my project finalization. i'm so glad i handed it in oredi!

todae.. i'm so exhausted.. slept late and woke up early todae. i tink i'm going home to have a nice bath and have a nap before i start studying tonite for my mid-semester tests..

gotta leave the lab soon.. might be back home to blog again! ta-ta..

Exhausted...

phew! i had a long dae todae.. after ops management tutorial then mit liang for lunch at mensar.. then we went to library to study finance until 7pm.. so tiring.. me so scared of tmr's finance test though its 20 MCQ, but i knoe its not easy.. haiz..

dear muz be having "happy hour" now.. coz he told me juz now. he muz be happy lo.. heehee.. good lo, dun need to work so much like me. aniwae, sorry dear, i'm so busy these days.. but i will make time for u tmr.. we go makan dinner together ok?

aniwae, i gotta go study liao.. ta-ta..

Stressed...

haiz.. dunno why got so much things to do. so squeezed up. gotta complete my HRM project due on mondae and gotta study for finance test this wk... and plus mid semester tests starts on the 02 of august and i got 2 exam based CDS's.. haiz..

but one good news, i got an A for my PSQ individual journal! yay! yay! yay! heehee.. so happie.

as for dear, me so busy this saturdae, got finance test and then gotta attend lecture after that. then after lecture still gotta finish up my HRM in school. haiz.. guess i can only meet dear dear for dinner bah.. aniwae, dear told me that nxt wk saturdae he can't meet me. he got shooting range. so i guess, i would also be a good time to study and prepare for my mid semester tests. juz nice the timing. we both are busy.. aniwae, i miss u dear..

gotta go n do my HRM oredi.. ta-ta..

I Washed My Hair!!

yay! i washed my hair finally. couldn't stand it after a dae. the hairdresser told me not to wash it after 3 days.. haahaa. i can't be bothered le. dun expect me to go to sch wif oily hair rite? feeling so fresh and happy after my bath. heehee.. but still, i hope my hair would grow longer abit. heehee. its kinda short now. but one consolation, hair do grow! : )

aniwae, my PSQ quiz was okay.. heehee. but i got a bigger surprise! i received a msg from dear after i came out of the lecture theatre. he wished my good luck for my paper.. wow~ i was so happie and surprised. heehee.. dear really changed alot. i dunno wad caused the change in him. after wad happened last saturdae at 2am. he changed completely. he changed for the better, and it makes me very glad.. now, he's giving me surprises here n there. hee.. i muz say, i'm happie... thanks dear : ) though its juz a simple sms, but i knoe it means alot, to u and me..

haiz. later haf to get back to my HRM peer teaching notes oredi. sianz man. hmm.. aniwae, gotta go soon.. blog tmr..

ta-ta..

New Look!

i rebonded my hair! but had to cut it short, coz my hair was spoiling and it wouldn't be nice if i didn't cut and rebonded it. i feel a little silly though. haha. my hair is so straight. can't wait to let dear dear see it.
 
aniwae, i still haven't learn my PSQ quiz tomorrow. arrgghh.. i gtg oredi. think i'll blog tomorrow.
 
msg for dear: i miss you..
 
ta-ta..

Extremely Exhausted

i think i've been bitten.. by the tired bug. my whole body is aching, my legs are wobbly, my tummy is aching too and i feel unwell. i can't afford to be sick. not at this moment. i have tons of project waiting for me to complete. a PSQ test and finance test.. i juz can't get myself to function. not at this moment.
 
i'm missing dear now. wanna sms him. but i dunno wad to put in the sms. hmm.. came home at 5.30 todae. sianz.. very exhausted. think i'll blog tomorrow..
 
ta-ta..

Juz Dear & Me...

todae meet dear at great world city.. we went to haf breakfast at coffee bean plus a brownie! dear loved it. he eat n eat n eat i see him eat n eat i very happie.. then we went to watch mean girls in the afternoon.. not a bad show. quite nice. we then proceeded back to dear's house.. watched tv, then had a nap, i helped dear dear pack his bag.. and then we ate dinner. then go home le..

though we did nothing special. i was glad that i'm wif dear. we spent quality time together and i'm glad that i was wif him..

msg for dear:
"thank u for spending time wif me. they are special moments kept in my heart."

ta-ta..

Prawn Fishing

its saturdae! aniwae, i was woken up by dear's sms.. he sent me something so sweet.. at 2am! i was moved. he can't sleep. juz thinking about me.. can't believe it man.. dear has changed.. but i dowan him to make changes for me. i juz feel that he should find someone who suits him instead of making changes for me.
 
aniwae, wahhhh.. todae i went prawn fishing.. opposite the jurong bird park. so fun! but expensive lo. one rod costs $25 for 3 hrs. and me n dear only caught 3 prawns after 3 hours. haahaa. so funny rite? but i did enjoy myself. we went wif dear's buddy n his gf.. had a fun but tiring dae. after that we proceeded to crystal jade at suntec. the new one. crystal jade la mian xiao long bao. haha. so cute the name. not bad.. heehee... was really happie todae.. thank u dear..
 
now, i'm tired, but happie. coz i gotta spend the whole dae wif dear. hmm.. so nice...
 
ta-ta...

Fridae's Here At Last...

wow.. blogger has improved! now got colours and fonts to choose.. hee.. cool.. aniwae, had a busy fridae.. but so glad that i'm home. so damn tired! went to school at 10am todae.. and did my HRM project.. and at 12pm, went for ops management tutorial.. then finished at 2pm. met liang for lunch at mensar.. then proceeded back to the library to do my project till 6pm.. whoa.. so tired lo.. run here and there..
 
so glad that tomorrow is saturdae.. then i can get to see dear dear.. (poor me rite? i only see him twice a week. but i think its good enuff... see too much oso dunno do wad.. haahaa... dunno wad we are gonna do after dear dear ORD... ) so contented... then can be in his strong arms... wif dear dear around, i fear nothing... heehee... think we might be going prawn fishing tomorrow wif his buddy.. can't wait man. i have not tried it before!
 
dear going to clear leave next month.. yay yay.. then will ORD soon.. at long last.. i waited near to 2 & 1/2 years for him! its not easy sia. it takes so much patience, understanding, trust and care... after october, yay! no more army, no more book in timing, no more book out timing, no more IPPT,  no more SOC, no more outfield, no more shooting range, no more track & field, no more clearing arms, no more late phone calls at nite! haahaahaa.. i'm so happie! dear, we are gonna do it, we are gonna pass another obstacle test to our love... : ) thank god i haf u... u mean so much to me... u are the one that keeps me going, holds me when i fall, and pick me up at my lowest moments... thank u dear dear..
 
arrgghh.. i'm so exhausted. still got tutorial haven't do leh. aiyo. i think this week dun do tutorial le. better put all my time and energy on my finance test on saturdae..
 
ta-ta...

 

Relieved...

wahahaha.. i found dear dear le.. haha.. he went to play soccer.. nvr bring handphone.. no wonder la.. so relieved to hear his voice..

arrgghh.. tomorrow got project to do again. haiz.. project project n more projects..

now i'm stuck with finance. i dunno how am i gonna go thru the test. but the main thing is i muz do well for my HRM if not i dun need get my specialization le. haiz...

so tired. now waiting for mummy to come back n eat dinner wif jul jul..

aniwae, i'm so glad i found dear dear back. haha. seems a little silly, but who cares aniwae.. heehee..

ta-ta..

Worried....

oh- oh dear dear is missing. can't get him on his mobile.. he asked me to sms him if i'm going for the dinner wif my friends tonite. but he nvr reply. i dunno wad he is doing. called a number of times but juz can't get him.. oh man.. its been like 2 hrs oredi? haizz..

ta-ta..

Rainy Evening...

Phew! luckily i made it home before the rain came down. the sky is grey and the rain can come down anytime soon..

todae was such a hectic dae. got 7 hr lectures all the way. no break, nothing.. sianzz man. later after dinner still haf to do my finance tutorial haiz..

tired sia.. aniwae, i miss dear dear.. glad that he is back! can't wait to tok to him.. :) yay! yay! yay!

ta-ta..

Specially For Dear

I miss you dear.. Dunno why i suddenly feel like this.. but i juz miss u... hope u tmr come back quickly from outfield...

:)

Forever - Mariah Carey

Those days of love are gone
Our time is through
Still I burn on and on
All of my life
Only for you
From now until

Forever and ever my darling
Forever
You will always be the only one...
You will always be the only one...

As long as I shall live
I'll hold you dear
And I will reminisce
Of our love
All through the years
From now until

If you should ever need me
Unfailingly I will return to your arms
And unburden your heart
And if you should remember
That we belong together
Never be ashamed
Call my name
Tell me I'm the one you treasure

Miss My Dear...

todae dunno why missing dear dear... miss him alot lo.. but he outfield.. so impossible to tok tonite. and it was raining heavily somemore. wonder how his outfield is. hmm... dear, jul jul miss u...

aniwae, todae went to TM wif jiayi. haha. had a wonderful time. and i bought a nike tee and a levi's top. heehee.. so happie, but my bank go down le. haiz..

todae not much to blog. juz miss dear dear alot.. can't wait for tomorrow, coz he coming back tomorrow.. hope time passes faster!

ta-ta

Happie 44th Month!

dearrrrr dearrr.. Happie 44th Month of our everlasting love n relationship. whoa. time passes so fast. its been 3 years and 8 months that we are together.. hmm.. my feelings? hahaha.. i've been thru the ups and the downs wif u. we've got fights, quarrels, love.. everything... juz want u 2 noe that i've never regretted knowing you... coz i knoe i can never find someone as good as u anymore. thanks for standing by me all this while. though u make me angry at times, but i still love u all the same n nothing can change that.. love u...

todae went to sch for HRM. and then was supposed to attend marketing lecture, but the lecturer was sick. so me and my project mates stayed back at the TP library to do our HRM project.

next week got finance test le. so scared leh. finance so chimology one. haha. hope i can pull through. or else, i sure very sad one!

the rain is so heavy.. makes me wanna slp. might meet jiayi later to go TM. but it all depends on the rain..

ta-ta..

Boring Saturdae Again...

todae, din meet dear, he went to his army buddy's 21st birthdae. so me stayed home to do tutorial. and later in the afternoon, went wif jie jie to TM. me didn't buy anything, except a pair of earrings from perlini's hee...

haiz. todae nothing much to blog oso. juz hope that dear come home faster, then i can tok to dear dear..

i'm looking forward to tomorrow..

ta-ta..

My Thoughts...

juz happen to see my tagboard. and someone called wisdom juz gave me some advice. whoever u are. thanks. i think u are right. do i wanna spend the rest of my life wif him? yah, i want! i knoe he's the one. its juz one of those days where we are not in the right state of mind coz of our environment, stress and workloads. nevertheless, it is not going to break us apart. friends of mine should know rite? heeheehee.. i'm fine wif dear dear oredi.. we're a happy couple now and i'm glad that i'm still his girl. which relationship got no quarrel one rite? :)

heee..

msg for dear:
"this wk was not a good one for us, but i'm glad we toked things out and we finally can see a rainbow after the storm. i knoe we were meant for each other.. coz its moomoo n tortoise forever.. heehee.. love ya. muacks"

Everytime - Britney Spears

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...

Weekend's here!

firdae is finally here. i got lotsa things to do.. hmm.. aniwae, todaei went out wif liang n jan. we went to bugis coz jan needed to get sumthing for her friend.. and guess wad? adidas outlet in bugis opened oredi! we went there.. and i saw a bag, and i fell in love, all over again.. haiz.. i was thinking whether to get it or not. and guess wad? haiz. ppl who knoe me well would knoe the ending oredi. i got the bag. the price, i won't reveal.. heehee..

yesterdae, kor kor smsed me, asked me out for dinner on thursdae. yay! he finally have time for me. i so long never see him since i left ITE and he, NS.. hehe.. so happie..

as for dear, we din quarrel yesterdae, juz had an hour conversation. nothing much happened :) he msged me todae in the evening too. i was surprised! (coz he usually dun msg me) he juz ask me "how u doing girl?" well, i was happy to receive the sms, but somehow, that happiness in me is different, it is mixed with a lot of doubts.. i was wondering, if he was doing it for me? or was he doing it, becoz he really missed me? he said that he missed me, that's y he smsed me.. nevertheless, i am still feeling weird.. and i guess.. i shouldn't think too much about it..

as for schoolwork (which is still the number 1 thing in my life) getting more and more. gotta list of things to do tonite and tomorrow..

1) Marketing tutorial
2) HRM peer tutoring notes
3) Operations management tutorial
4) Finance tutorial

wif so much things to do. i guess, love would be put aside for now. piorities first.. gotta go..

ta-ta..

In The Middle of My Tutorial...

i'm in the middle of my ops mgmt tutorial, i dunno why i juz gotta urge to blog. i juz got hit by an arrow.. to be specific, its dear's arrow.. here i am, wounded badly.. what happened was this:

my little sister asked me a question on chinese which i was unable to solve. i knoe dear would be able to solve it, so i msged him, ask whether he is working or not. then when he said no, i called him, asked him wad he was doin. he was playing a game. i dunno wad the heck was it. and he asked me why, i juz suddenly felt like i was intruding.. his army buddies were at the background, "wah lan eh" this and that. i felt irritated and sad.. so i told him, its ok. nothing oredi. he said why, tell me, i said its ok, tok later.. he said ok. i said bye.. and hung up. so weird that this actually made me sad. haiz. wadever.. i think the sad part was that i was thinking if i had met wif an accident, and died this very moment, would he be lidat too? he can juz "fang xin" to say bye without even knowing what i called him for..

it juz makes me wonder why i fell for him. and it really makes me think twice.....

Crazy - K-ci & Jojo

This song is specially for dear...

I don't know why, what I'm doing what I'm doing
See, baby I, apologize
For all the things that I've done that I've done
See I've known that I've been a fool for far too long
And baby you have it, I go around to wait, just come back
Please baby, baby won't you stay
If you really love me then why are you leavin me

I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, when I can touch you
Crazy, crazy when I can hold you
Crazy, crazy,when I can see you again

I've finally realized, that you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all I seem to keep thinking,
To keep thinkin of, yeah
And now I know I need you each and every day
I can't live without you, so don't run away
Baby you say that you love me, so why'd you leave me, why?
I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, but I can't touch you
Crazy, crazy, when I can hold you
Crazy, crazy, when I can see again
If I can see you, if I can see you again
Then I would go, if I could see you again
I'd go crazy

Cold, Rainy Dae...

it rained the whole dae todae, and i haf to go to school! its such a good weather for napping. aniwae, for those who get updated about my life through my blog, i'm fine wif my dear oredi. not in the sense that we managed to solve our problems or promise that things like that won't be happening anymore, but we juz sort of dun tok about it. and tok about other things. he msged me and i'm happie.. and glad.. juz hope that i dun screw things up oso.. hee..

how time flies, and tomorrow is fridae. i am not meeting dear on saturdae, he got his friend's 21st birthdae. heehee.. he can catch some chicks there too! at least, he will be able to know that i'm not the only woman on earth. i always tell him that there are good n pretty girls out there. he juz dunno, coz he haven't came across one before. haha.

haiz. later muz do tutorial for ops mgmt. i can't stand that tutorial. i dun like it. seems so weird in a logistics class.. eeks. i hate fridaes now.

aniwae, juz wanna say "thank u 2 my friends for standing by me, consoling me, supporting me, lending me your shoulder n ears, laughing wif me and most importantly for accepting me as who i am... u never know how much u mean to me.. thank god i found all of u.."

this msg is specially for grace, alicia, gladys, liang, jan and velly..

Tell Me It's Real - K-ci & Jojo

This song is specially dedicated to dear...

Tell me it's real
The feeling that we feel
Tell me that it's real
Don't let love come
Just to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
It's up to me and you
To make this special love
Last forever more

Baby you told me that you love me and you'd never leave my side
Through the bitter end through the thick and thin
You promised me baby that you wasn't going anywhere, yes you did
Baby keep it real let me know just how you feel

I can't explain the way you make me feel
Everytime you tell me that you love me
And you know you did so many times
Just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
That's when you came along
And showed me happiness
Baby you are the best
I think you're different from the rest
I really love you

Tell me it's real
This feeling that I fell
Tell me it's real
For your love
I will do anything

My Tiring Dae...

whoa. todae from 10am to 5pm. really had me longing for my bed. i was so tired by 5pm. aniwae, i haf to update u all on the dinner at mushroom pot yesterdae. i had a wonderful dinner wif JJVL last nite. it was my first time at mushroom pot and i enjoyed the ambience. very romantic. and after dinner we went to the back of mushroom pot. the bridge was beautiful, if u knoe wad i am toking about.. such a romantic place. and the weather was fabulous. but i had heavy thoughts on my mind. coz me n dear sort of argued, and haiz. here i am, at the fighting peroid of my relationship again. aniwae, we toked things out last nite. and i hope it would be fine from now on.

tmr would be another hectic dae for me. and for now, i got lotsa things on my mind..
1)HRM FILA dur tomorrow
2)Finance tutorial due tomorrow
3)PSQ individual journal due tomorrow (though it is meant to be done in class, but i still haf to prepare for it)

haiz. these are the most impt things on my mind now! arrrggghhh... but something to make me feel glad, i gotta hair trim, a wash, blow and treatment juz now. feeling good now.. heeeheee...

aniwae, gotta msg for dear:
"hope u are doin fine, our differences in life, and the environment we are in makes our relationship harder. though we haf been through 3 & 1/2 years together, i know that more obstacles and hardship are ahead of us. nevertheless, i'm glad that u are beside me, goin thru all the obstacles together. we never said we wanna part before, and with that, i'm sure the both of us wanna be together, so i hope things get better now, and we'll be happy together."

gotta go my schoolwork.. they are waiting for my attention..
ta-ta..

My Bad Nite

yesterdae nite, i had a fight wif dear, i think that we have come to a point that quarrels and arguments seems to be a part our relationship.. i think maybe our relationship has strained becoz of the fact that we are goin on steady for too long.. haiz.. wad a bad nite. i cried and slpt at 1 plus. things juz dun go the way it was supposed to turn out. aniwae, i guess i was at fault too. so here i am "sorrie dear, i dunno wad is goin on in our lives rite now. i juz know that there was sumthing u said last nite still hangs in my mind clearly. i juz feel sad when i think about it. its not ur fault, and i guess, i would make some changes in our relationship.."

todae went to school at 9 to do HRM project. glad that me n my grp members managed to finish the FILA. heee.. aniwae, i had a wonderful tutorial todae. and thank god i haf wonderful friends to keep me off my mind that i quarrelled wif dear. my friends are the ones who make me laugh and tickle.. i guess.. i can't live without my friends..

now in sch at Lab waiting for jan to finish school and then liang, me n velly would go MP for our dinner together.. can't wait man. i juz can't go home and think about dear all dae. that's not how a girl should be. a girl should be strong. and i dun wanna depend my life on dear either.. if everything around me is only about him, then i see no point..

i promise as of todae, i would learn to be stronger. i'm a scorpio.. i can do it..

ta-ta..

How Does It Feel - Westlife

True lovers never take it slowly
when they've found the one and only
nothing can replace this feeling
knowing someone loves you

It's painted with the pain and glory
taking from a known sad story
laying out my life before me
fearing the unknown

Sharing never showed me much appeal
and now I'm only praying it's for real

So how does it feel
when I hold you in my arms
and you're lying next to me
never wanting you to leave
until I'll tell you how it feels
to be cradled like my dreams
and to know that you love me
no more wasting time in asking other people
How does it feel

Forever taken you for granted
you give me everything I wanted
I'm so afraid that I might lose you
but time will let us see
If everything is real I'm feeling
well maybe we've been only dreaming
and if it's gonna die to save it
coz baby I believe
Nothing in the world could make it right
Coz baby loving you brings me to life

Nothing in the world could feel this right
Coz baby you're the best thing in my life

Monday Blues....

arrrggghhh!! its mondae again. sch ended at 1, but gotta stay back to do HRM project. so tired now... and its 5pm le..haiz.. and to make things worse, my tutor is so damn naggy and long winded.. and plus, her information doesn't help us at all.. tmr morning still gotta be at school at 9am to finish up this project. todae we all tired le. so went home lo. i guess, alot of hard work need to be put in this sem..

i'm so glad that mondae is over.. haiz.. really dragged myself to get out of bed this morning..

yay! tmr going wif liang, jan n velly to mushroom pot to haf dinner. i can't wait man! so excited. dunno how the food would be like. heehee..

as for my fishes, they are doing fine. still alive and kicking. heee..

haiz.. the football hor.. aiyo that portugal, dunno why will lose la. me oso nvr watch, but dear dear betted on them. haiz. me heartpain sia. though its only $20. if greece didn't win, dear would haf $70.. oh well, that's the price to pay for gambling rite? dear said, aiya. got win got lose ma. hee...

dunno wad dear doing now. probably still working bah? hmm.. tk care dear..

think me going to nap and be pig now. i'm so damn tired..

ta-ta!

Happie Sundae...

for a start, i was quite upset wif dear yesterdae nite.. he did something which made me really furious and i guess i shall not say wad happened.. aniwae, its between me and dear.. but we're okay now.. i forgave him in the end. he was really upset last nite..

todae, i spent the whole dae wif dear dear.. he came all the way down to tampines to fetch me.. which is very sweet to me! and then we had breakfast at BK and after that we went to catch Spiderman 2 at TM.. Spidey was a good show. really nice.. i love it.. juz like a romantic love story. and i liked a quote which says something like "sometimes we haf to give up the things we like, even our dreams.."

afterwhich i headed back to dear's home to "nua" haha... so damn sian. tmr got school.. so we watched tv, cooked together (maggi mee) haha..

dear dear.. thanks for the wonderful time together... its good to haf u in my life..

gtg now.. so tired.. ta-ta..

Boring Blue Saturdae....

juz managed to finish my marketing tutorial and oso my HRM.. but HRM i dunno correct or not. did a little mind map too..

dear is home oredi. juz hanged up the phone wif him like half an hour ago.. he's tired.. so haf to go napping.. we din tok much either.. coz we dunno wad to tok about.. only tok about the recent 4 years juz passed us by like that. and 4 years! unbelievable.. but he thinks that its still moving too slowly.. how fast do u want dear? i still haf loads of projects to do, of course i dowan time to pass so quickly..

haf to go for photo shoot later. damn sian lo.. haiz. wonder how it would turn out. it would be hung up in my living room. hee.. can u believe it? haa.. my sister is a graduate!

oh ya.. time to update u guys on those little orangey fishes of mine. they are so extremely naughty. happy keeps on biting blacktail.. and the only thing i could do was is to add more members to the tank so that he wun haf only one target. haiz. y are all fishes so naughty? or izzit only mine? aniwae, i went back to the pet shop and bought 2 more. and the uncle recognized me.. haha. he asked me 2 enuff or not.. hahahaha... and i came home, placed all of them together, and its better la.. but dat happy still keep on li siao the blacktail.. well, i did my best.. as for grumpy, he's in another tank, all alone. i think he likes to be alone.. wad a loner..

can't wait for sundae to come. then i can see dear dear. hee.. i wonder how some ppl can be in the same class as their bf, and then, same school, and then mit everydae, and even on weekends.. omg, i dun think i like my relationship to be lidat.. like cannot live without each other until so jia lat. aiyo.. but aniwae, the girls and boys in sch are all younger than me, so i dun blame them.. still puppy love ma.. me old woman le.. haahaahaa..

hmm.. ok. that's all i guess...

aniwae gotta msg for dear:
"happie sleeping... sweet dreams... muacks.."

ta-ta..

Happie 47th Month!

hey dear, todae is our 47th month of friendship. juz one more month and i will knoe u for 4 years le.. haha. time flies so fast.. thanks for always being that soulmate, best friend, lover, adviser, teacher and the best boyfriend!

todae is so damn sian. why? coz i am not meeting dear dear. and since i am not meeting him, i might juz as well stay home to do my tutorials..

woke up at 9am todae, i slept at 12.45am yesterdae nite. dunno why wake up so early.. but aniwae, i got up since i dun wanna be a fat ass. heee... hope i am sliming down. me not having breakfast todae, will have brunch later..

yesterdae nite, i got hurt.. while toking to dear, he fell asleep again. i know it wasn't intentionally coz he's really tired after his 10km run. he needs sleep. i juz dunno wad to do when i didn't hear anymore sound on the other end of the line.. hmm.. maybe i shouldn't mind so much.. oh well.. wadever it is, its all over. dear was wondering wad happened to me, since i was so moody for the whole week. he told me that he juz can't seem to make me smile. i told him to try harder. heehee.. aniwae, hope dear is doing fine todae.. i wish he could see my new blogskin, and my new tagboard and my new mediaplayer. and of course, my feelings..

siao liao.. HRM PBL is so damn difficult.. hmm.. muz work really hard le. haiz. so sian man. muz do so many things...

jul jul is looking forward to sunday..

might be back to blog later.. ta-ta..

My New Blogskin!

wow wow wow... i got my new blogskin. and i love it alot.. so nice! and i placed a media player and oso a tagboard. the only thing that i am scared of is that liang will go and put some silly msgs at my tagboard. heehee. but its ok. he's still one of my very good friends..

gosh. came back from school todae.. tired.. hee.. i everydae oso tired one. hee.. hmm.. todae managed to get our business interest group polo tee. not that bad. hee.. i quite like it. and aniwae, ops mgmt tutorial wasn't that bad la. i think i juz not used to it only. hopefully as the time goes by, i can learn to adjust.. hee..

yay.. liang say tuesday goin mushroom pot to makan dinner wif velly n jan too.. so happie.. me always very happie to mit them..

whoa. my diet dunno working or not. hmm.. but me cutting down alot le. wif tips from jan, velly n liang, plus my determination, i hope i can make it!

oh ya. forget to update, todae after school, i went to my house nearby pet shop. bought 2 more fishes to accompany starbright (i have decided to rename him as grumpy coz he's so fierce) but grumpy doesn't knoe how to appreciate it! the moment the 2 new orangey fishes go down into the tank, he follows them so closely and bites them! argghh! so grumpy n selfish! so i had to take grumpy out and place him in a seperate tank.. serves him right for being naughty..

aniwae, as for the 2 new fishes, i have named them blacktail and happy.. blacktail got his name coz he has an obvious blackspot on his tail and happy is very active.. he swims so fast, as if he's so happy.. that's how they got their names..

hmm.. as for the most impt person.. dear.. he din msg me the whole dae.. guess he's busy. besides, he got 10km run todae. he muz be feeling tired.. poor thing.. aniwae, he can rest the whole dae at home tmr.. dear should be calling me at 10 bah.. hmm.. aniwae.. hope to hear from him soon..

okie. i think i gotta go back to my tutorials le. todae i blog 3 times le.. heehee... if i later not sleeping, i might come back for a 4th one! heehee..

ta-ta!

hee.. now in school.. having my library portal workshop. whoa. so damn sian lo. can't believe that the school make us do this stoopid thingy..

liang is at it again.. playing wif someone's msn which he or she did not sign out. he so naughty. always li siao ppl..

hmm, we are thinking where to go later.. dunno wad time this thing wil end sia, haiz.. so damn sian..

later come back and blog bah. gtg.. ta-ta..

now i am waiting to go to school.. gosh, actually i dread goin to sch todae. i juz dunno how ops management tutorial would be like. wif my new class mates. omg. this is the only tutorial which i dread going.. juz so sian.. and i wonder who is kim hock.. my tutor. dunno who oso.

tmr is saturdae, i am not meeting dear coz of my photo shoot.. got mixed feelings.. in a way, glad that i haf the time to study and we haf some space and time apart, but oso miss him. its so contradictary.. hmm but looking forward to sundae though..

dear told me last nite that he can't mit me on nxt saturdae. he gotta attend his friend's brithdae.. he say he mit me in the afternoon then he go in the evening.. i guess god is creating chances and spaces to let the both of us cool down.. it might be a good thing though. i dunno.. but dear has been quite sweet lately.. yesterdae nite juz b4 we hang, he told me "juz to let u knoe, i love you" whoa. i melted.. was thinking how can anyone love me like that? like a person like me? so fat n toopid.. hee.. well aniwae, thanks alot dear...

i will come back and blog later.. gotta go sch le.. ta-ta..

todae, i'm a happy girl.. guess what? dear msged me at 4.42 todae when i was in school.. it was such a pleasant surprise. i think i got the shock of my life. i thot i read the name wrongly or wad.. he said it was to brighten my day.. u can't imagine how happy i was in my heart. it really made me happie. the feeling is juz so different. i can't explain it. but i'm juz so happy that he msged me..

though i'm not that cheerful lately, but i'm glad that he is taking the initiative to coax me (at least for todae), the feeling of being loved is juz so nice..

i juz realised that alot of girls like to be told and reassured their bf's love them. maybe its a kind of security that makes a girl feel safe.. safe that he still likes her and is still fond of her.. hmm.. love is such a complicated thing..

hmm.. schoolwork is getting tougher and tougher. muz work hard lo. this saturdae not meeting dear, coz gotta take my sister's convocation family potrait. so i guess i haf to finish putting the japan photos in the albums and oso my tutorials and i oso haf to prepare for my PSQ individual journal due on thursday.. gosh.. so much things to do.. haiz..

gotta go.. ta-ta..

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed
Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change


Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
Why do we hurt each other?
Why do we push love away?

Water Runs Dry-Boyz II Men

what if...

what if i left you one day?
would u be happier?
would u miss me?
would u ask me to stay?
would u ask me to come back?
would u even think about me?
would u knoe what was the reason?
would u even care?

why did things haf to turn out this way?
its so hard for me to continue..
dun take me for granted..
dun think i'll always be there..
i might leave,
and never come back..
dun juz assume i would..

jul

todae i had a busy dae at school.. school ended at 5pm. gosh, so damn tired. now listening to "for the first time" remembering the times when me and dear juz went steady. everything was the first time for us.. first time we kissed, first time we held hands, first time someone hugged me like i was the world to him, first time someone cared so much about me..

now, 3 & 1/2 years down the road... many things haf changed.. our responsibilities haf changed, the environment has changed.. we grew up.. and there is no more teenage lovers or puppy love anymore.. we're both adults now.. and things aren't as easy as we thot. our relationship is rocky.. and well.. no relationship is without fights or quarrels.. i suppose..

now he has to be responsible to the army and me to be responsible to my studies.. he told me yesterdae "someone told me that if u become an officer your relationship would be shaky and many of my seniors lost their girlfriends." i guess its true to a certain extent. and what dear told me was true, after he got into army, he juz so sian wif everything.. juz dun feel like doing anything. i dunno what to reply or how i can help him. i juz feel lost. someone i love a lot has a major change in his life and this someone that i love would also make an impact in my life. i dun wanna lost this relationship, but sometimes, its so hard for me. i dunno how. maybe we dun understand each other well enuff, maybe we need a break, maybe we are tired, maybe, we juz lost love.

whatever it is.. i'm glad to haf happie moments before he was enlisted. at the very least, i was really happie to be in love then, but now, love is juz taking a toll on me. if i could turn back time, i wouldn't wanna fall in love again, because, its too much a price to pay.. and like i always believe "if you have the courage to love, you haf the courage to suffer"

at this very moment, i still love my dear. i hope we can go thru all obstacles hand in hand.. i hope our relationship is strong enuff to carry on and weather all storms.. lastly, thanks for still being around in my life..

for now.. i guess i haf tons of projects to do le. haiz. i juz can't stand it. so much to do, so little time. individual journal will be due in about 2 wks time.. me still adjusting to school life.. but glad i haf wonderful friends.. and they are always the ones, who would listen to my woes.. jan, liang and velly.. i'm glad, for at the very least, i know that they would always be there for me too..

hmm.. gotta end here i think.. todae blog quite huge.. hee..

ta-ta..

whoa. todae can't wait to blog. maybe bcoz i quarrelled wif dear bah? we had a little fight last nite. i guess its called lover's tiff rite? oh well, wadeva it is, i juz dun understand him, i really don't. but then again, i still love him.. haa.. contradicting rite? oh well, we made up in the end, as usual, but i juz feel that things would still surface somedae, we juz dunno when. haizz.. we are both not perfect anyway. in a relationship, its so hard to satisfy the other party. i guess, he's having a hard time. me too okay! hmm.. he oso dunno how i feel la. haiz. he's not the romantic kinda guy, maybe romantic is not the word, i guess he juz dunno how to make his girlfriend feel loved bah? i dowan anything, i juz wanna be loved and cared..

oh well, aniwae, todae had my first marketing tutorial. it wasn't dat bad, except that my tutor, dat heng chye, keep on calling me. aiyo. i guess he will sure call me alot this semester. haiz. shit man. and the other thing is, i'll be doin projects wif 2 design guys who are taking marketing as CDS (cross diploma subjects) one seems nice, the other is a rich man's son, seems a bit dao, but okay la. maybe coz we dunno each other bah? hehe..

hmm.. that's about it todae. me so sian. coz i'm so tired.

ta-ta..

todae came back quite late. went out wif velly and liang after school.. hmm.. bought new charles and keith shoes.. hehe..

tomorrow got only a 2 hour marketing lecture. so its not that bad, think i am getting used to school life. at the very least, i think i haf 4 wonderful close friends and i think i haf nice classmates too..

wonder what is dear doing now... hope he is not too busy todae, he always like no time to rest.. hope he had enuff rest last nite..

aniwae, dear, hope u are happie playing mahjong wif ur friends, though i dun really think its a kinda good activity, but so long as u are happie, i think, its more than worth it.. to be able to see u smile.. i've decided to go easy on u.. heehee. make things easier for me oso.. aniwae, thanks for being in my life.. love u lots..

gosh.. later got 2pm lecture.. that's it for the whole day.. i'm kinda tired.. woke up wif a headache. i dunno why, i slept quite early last nite wad. and i woke up at 10 todae..

aniwae, something to keep me excited, liang changed into the same class as me n velly n jason for PSQ.. so happie. now we can really get to do project together.. hee... i guess we would make the best out of everything.. so happie..

later muz find article for PSQ individual project that is due in 2 weeks. can u believe it? haha. school is so rushy again.. its back to those good old rushy daes..

ate bread todae for breakfast, think i'm gonna skip my lunch.. be thin be thin.. that's wad i wanna be.. ooo.. if i'm thin, i would feel so happie.. heehee..

dear was so busy yesterdae, he was working and toking to me at the same time. i felt bad, but he didn't wanna hang up, he kept on saying that it was okay. so i din say much either.. i know he's so damn busy. he told me before, if he was a "man" and not an "officer" maybe i would be happier.. maybe.. but right now, i guess we haf to get thru this together. army is so demanding. he was on duty and had to finish his duty report and then wake up at 4am to draw arms and then after that got track & field for the whole dae. i guess, he muz be really glad that its fridae.. though we, or rather he din tok much, i knoe that the thing that he really needs now is my support and understanding... he hates being busy too.. "dear, i guess standing by u, is the only thing that i can do for you now, i can't help u much in your work, i can't be there wif u, but i'll always be right here waiting for you"

ta-ta..

oh my god.. its only 5pm, and i'm starving. didn't eat much for lunch, juz a few spoonfuls of noodles. i can't bring myself to eat alot. i wanna slim down.. besides, being in a poly doesn't help much either, with me seeing slim girls everdae, i juz can't wait to be slim. i'm eating jackfruits now. stuffing myself wif fruits whenever i'm hungry, like dat i wun gain the carbohydrates.

todae school was fine.. had my PSQ (productivity and service quality) tutorial for the first time. not too bad. i think its quite fun and its easy to score. and besides, its only 3cus, wad do u expect rite? but my tutor is really nice and i guess i'm falling in love with this subject in no time.

bought my operations management textbook todae, whoa cost me like $40.. haiz.. so ex sia. but wad to do? no choice rite?

todae saw alot of army kor kor at school when i was about to go home. i think they are here to check out the place. coz they having SAF dae at TP.. hmm.. gives me a little moment to think about dear dear.. aniwae, i'm glad that school started, i feel like an independent woman again, someone wif a life, and not always missing him.. heehee..

dear dear is on duty todae, aniwae, he made me so scared.. coz he told me "hey, i got something to tell u." i then proceeded to ask him, wad izzit? he said, "its something very serious one.." i asked him wad izzit about? izzit good or bad? dear replied "its about you" he sounded so serious i nearly died.. i was thinking he was gonna say something terrible about me that he couldn't stand anymore.. i was so afraid, but curious at the same time.. then i asked him "so wad izzit?" he said "I LOVE YOU" Oh My God! i nearly went out of breath! scare me for the moment, and i didn't know what to say for that few seconds.. but i haf to admit, i did haf a very good sleep yesterdae nite, coz of this. he juz made me so happie and brightened up my dae.. i was really happie coz dear dun normally say this and wow! its juz so sweet.. he juz makes living life so much more worthwhile.. thanks dear..

ta-ta..

todae had a busy dae.. went for 4 lectures all in a row. had a taste of the busy school life again.. but now, still not yet used to the school life, still a bit slacky, muz be on track soon..

yesterdae nite did not have a nice conversation wif dear. did not manage to tok much.. he was too tired to listen to me.. its so hard.. i know i'm not a very good girlfriend, but i juz dun see the point of being on the phone if u are so tired.. sorrie, though i know u are tired. i guess we were juz on a different frequency lately. i din msg u or tok to u todae yet. its nothing ordinary, but sometimes i do feel and want to be loved. i know its not your style at all. the way u care for me is different from other guys. you dun show how much u care, u juz do it your way. hmm.. i oso dunno wad to say le..

i think i'll concentrate more on my studies this sem. i dun wanna be affected my matters of the heart. they juz take up too much of my energy.. and it would also affect my studies. i dun wanna always feel horrid. i wanna be loved when i'm in love.

ta-ta..

todae no tutorial.. so stayed at home. whoa.. lucky i got the dae off.. i am having such terrible menses cramps.. so painful. its killing me.. haiz.. tmr got a very long dae. haf to attend 4 lectures. sianzz man..

miss dear dear todae. dunno wad he doing now sia.. hmm..

dear.. i miss u, u know ma?

ta-ta..

todae is the start of a new year, another new semester.. so fast i am yr 2 oredi.. can't believe it man.. time really flies. and i am so tired after school todae, had lecture at 11.. but then reached school at 9, to appeal for cds. and then skipped my first marketing lecture juz becoz of the cds. took me the whole dae to appeal.. aiyo.. so damn tired and hungry.. then reached home about 4. whoa lau.. but then ok lo, at least i settled my cds.. got operations management.. like not bad sia.. heehee.. happie lo.. at least i haf operations management and productivity and service quality.. quite happie le..

hope i can get good class mates this semester.. my yr 1 was not that bad.. i'm still happie in poly.. whoa.. todae morning met liang, jan n velly.. the bridge so many ppl. so scary sia.. the freshmen are so... haha.. dunno how to describe..

todae weather is so warm.. i'm feeling under the sun.. wonder how is dear dear todae.. getting more n more excited that he is going to ORD earlier than expected.. heeheehee...

ok.. think i haf to go do my timetable le.. ta-ta!

todae is saturdae, meeting dear later.. yay! so long never see him le.. he oso said so last nite. hee.. but dunno what time he off.. he is at paya lebar, so he's gonna come tampines to fetch me.. and then we'll go makan and then go back to his place there to make specs.. poor boy, specs spoil le. he muz be feeling horrid without specs.. then maybe later in the evening we can go for dinner..

aniwae, hope todae would be a great dae! ta-ta!

i am back from japan. refreshed! hehe. the trip was okay only, coz i was sick for the whole trip. even until now. haiz. hehe. but aniwae, i think it was ok.. at least i got to go to the sand bath, where they bury you under hot black sand and after which you can go to the hot spring where everyone would be naked. coz no clothings is allowed.. of course, its men and women seperate. hehe... but the hot spring is nice and it helps the blood circulation. now, i am wondering who is in the same class as me. hehee.. hmm..

yesterdae nite managed to tok to dear for a little while, glad that he is not so busy these daes, and glad that he would be finishing army earlier than expected.. hmm.. aniwae, hope things go smoothly for us..

hmm.. still abit tired after the plane ride yesterdae, think i gonna pig again.. haiz.. hehe..

ta-ta!

todae is my last dae to blog oredi. after that i would be off to the world of japan! haha.. hmm.. now got no one online leh. all muz be still pigging..

dunno todae dear will call me or not. he say he will, but i think his work hor, haiz. dunno can or not, but cannot oso nvm..

hmm.. dunno wad to write oredi. haven't had breakfast, can't think. maybe will come and blog later bah?

ta-ta!

todae is my last dae to blog oredi. after that i would be off to the world of japan! haha.. hmm.. now got no one online leh. all muz be still pigging..

dunno todae dear will call me or not. he say he will, but i think his work hor, haiz. dunno can or not, but cannot oso nvm..

hmm.. dunno wad to write oredi. haven't had breakfast, can't think. maybe will come and blog later bah?

ta-ta!

woo.. think this is going to be the last blog till i return from japan.. hmm.. no la.. maybe i will blog tmr, b4 i leave..

aniwae, todae went to watch harry potter - the prisoner of azkaban.. ok show only, i think the first 2 ones are much better..

todae liang msged me, ask me how am i.. it really touched my heart.. it seems like there is someone who cares for me... so happie.. but i thot it was dear..

guess dear is busy todae again.. he msg me.. say gonna call me late.. the track and field seems never ending.. i juz hope that his work is fine.. i prayed for him.. and i hope things would turn out for the better. he's been keeping late nights. i guess i wun be able to tok to him tmr.. aniwae, hope dear take care and hope that this time apart would bring us closer.. i knoe he got no time for me. its been running in my head for such a long time.. i wonder when all this would end, i wonder how long more his army would take. sometimes it seems like its forever.. but i'm not gonna be easily be defeated, i'm gonna fight till the end, till i get my happiness..

ta-ta!

todae is mondae.. juz 02 days and i will be leaving for japan.. these days not so good. keep on quarrelling wif dear. its nothing serious but who wishes to quarrel rite? somemore when we will be apart then lidat. yesterdae i really felt like leaving this place.. hmm..

can't wait to come back and then wait for school to reopen. so that i won't have that much time to quarrel wif dear.. can't wait to get busy wif the books again..

dear has changed alot.. i have changed alot too.. i used to be very tolerant and patient. but now, i haf become very short tempered and demand alot. these i all know. coz of one reason. dear has changed, and i think its because of the heavy workload. the change in him has caused the change in me.. i dun used to demand alot, coz he cares alot about me. even the slightest thing, we would be worried about me. but then again, going steady for 3 & 1/2 years, wat can one expect? i dun expect much, juz a little care and concern. i dun need expensive gifts or treats.. juz a little attention.. i knoe work had not been easy for you dear. i know its tough. and i also know that i can't even help u. i would if i could. i guess this is juz a test of our love bah? yesterdae u told me to give u some time to change back. i wouldn't wanna expect anything from u.. i knoe it is impossible for you to do that oredi. so i guess, i should learn to accept the new u and u need to gimmie time too. i oso muz learn to be more patient wif u.. haizz.. love is such a complicated thing.. and it doesn't help when i knoe u would get angry easily..

i was thinking whether i should inform u on the dae that i am leaving. coz u would be having your outfield. maybe i should leave quietly. these days when i'm away, u know in your heart whether u really need me in your life or not..

aniwae, thanks for the love all these years, thanks for the patience you have given me, thanks for always being there, thru my ups and downs. thanks for giving me a chance to love you and to know the feeling of being loved, to know the complications of being in love and to knoe the happiness that i can receive from being in a relationship.. lastly, thanks for staying faithful to me.. through all the bad times when we quarrelled, at the end of the dae, i still love you dear.

take care..

ta-ta..

todae is fridae.. how time passes man.. so fast.. left 05 daes to japan.. heeeheeehee... tomorrow is saturdae. hopefully can see dear. his work commitments, dunno will be able to meet or not. but this type of thing bo pian la. haha.. its not up to us to decide.

i got my menu for my birthdae chalet buffet.. so, if ali and grace is reading my blog, pls contact me, so that we can decide what dishes to choose! hehe.. aniwae, i oso dunno the number of ppl goin leh. haiz. so leh chey.

todae i stay at home got nothing to do. watch tv, slack.. haiz. juz like a potato.. speaking of potatoes.. whoa lau, feel like eating leh. haiz.. eat again.. hmm.. ok la. i think that's all for todae..

lastly, i miss you dear.. hope to see u soon!

ta-ta!

yesterdae was vesak dae. went to the temple, them met dear after that.. did nothing much, juz slacked at his house. i'm wondering these daes, wad should we do when we mit? we got nothing to do leh. juz run out of things to do.. haha. maybe that's wad ppl say.. steady long le.. haha..

aniwae todae is my 46th month of friendship wif dear.. we became friends 3 years and 10 months ago. wow. haha.. come to think of it, it is si fast. time passes so quickly. and i was thinking. juz 2 more years and i would be out in the working force. whoa lau, becoming an adult is not easy at all.. money is the worst thing to think about..

i haf to pack my luggage soon. 06 days to japan, but i'm not the least excited. maybe bcoz i've grown up le bah? haha. i haven't even pack anything in!

hope dear todae shooting range is fine.. he would be working late again.. and when i'm away in japan, he's gonna haf a 5 dae outfield. so i hope things would go smoothly for him.. hmm...

lastly, before i end.. happie 46th month dear..
ta-ta!

todae i was a happy girl.. dear called me last minute in the afternoon saying that he would be booking out.. ask me wanna mit or not! of course i was delighted! hehehe.. went to haf lunch together, and then, catch a movie and then we went for a long bus ride to my house and slept in each other's arms... so sweet! and then we went to haf dinner together.. and he came over to my house to sit sit.. hehe..

basically, i had a great dae.. though nothing special happened, but moments spent wif u are juz so special..

whoa.. yesterdae was so tired to blog.. went out to catch a movie wif my sisters and maribel.. we went to watch shrek 2.. hahaha. it was so funny. and then accompany my sister to buy her working clothes.. damn sian lo.

met liang, jan and velly in the evening at bugis. so tired by that time. went to buy jan's birthdae present. we bought her a levi's top. and then we had dinner together. velly is goin back to indonesia todae, so i guess it's the last time JJVL is meeting. hehe.. by the time i reach home is oredi 9.45 goin 10pm le. then so tired. got muscle ache somemore.

aniwae, yesterdae dear dear made me so happy. coz when i tok to him, then he ask me over the phone "u got miss me?" whoa.. i was over the moon! i ask him "u leh?" he said "got.." hehehe.. then after that before sleep he send me an sms.. short but sweet "gd nite. i miss u." hehehe.. me so happy sia. yay!

todae dear booking out coz tomorrow is vesak dae. hope his shooting practice is fine todae.

my fishes are still doing fine. hehehe.. so happie..

that's it! ta-ta!

hey blogger, i'm back. whoa had a really hectic weekend. went shopping wif my mummy, bought a lot of things.. hehe.. oh yah, alicia & grace, if u are reading my blog, i bought the giordano pants le.. hehehe.. yay! i brought my mum there and she paid for it! hehehe.. then dat dae i oso bought my giordano junior hot pink tee shirt. whoa, damn happie lo. hehehe..

saturdae met dear and he work until 4 plus int he evening. so poor thing. his boss gif him a lot of work. then he has to work n work. tomorrow is supposed to be his off, but then he got to go back camp coz of the heavy workload. so poor thing. but nevertheless, i was glad to see him..

todae, i went to Qian Hu Fish Farm wif dear dear, went to see the fishes there and the Arrowana. whoa. the arrowana there so beautiful but so huge and scary to me. hehehe. and they cost at least 3 to 4 digits. wanted to buy a fish home to add on to my fish tank but then i didn't see any fish that was calling out to me. eneded up buying a plastic plant to beautify my tank. hahaha.

at Qian Hu got the longkang fish. paid $5 to catch as many fish as i can. caught quite a lot wif dear within 20 minutes. hehehe. so happy, but then on they way home they juz died one by one. i see liao oso damn sian liao. so i ended up giving them to my neighbour - uncle. hehehe..

then i went home and got a surprise. Maribel bought fishes and added them to my tank. hahaha. she bought an angel fish, 3 guppies (one of which was killed by my 2 yellow ones and the other 2 guppies lives in seperate tanks now) and 2 more i dunno wad breed is dat. hehehe. so now i got 7 fishes in all. 5 in the main tank and 2 in the other tank.. hehehe.. me n my fishes!

tomorrow going to bring my little sister to watch Shrek 2. then after that mit liang and company. heheehe.. so long never mit them le. sure got a lot of things to tok abt. hehehe.. can't wait man..

whoa. todae i blog alot.. aniwae before i end my blog, i got something to tell dear..

u asked me juz now if i was happy being wif u..
my answer is a "yes". and it will always be. till the dae that u stop lovving me, i will love u always and will always be there for u, no matter wad the situation, coz i know one thing... u are worth every bit of my love..

"I Promise I Will" - Stacie Orrico

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise I promise
I will be there when you call me
I promise
I promise I will

whoa. todae sure got alot of things to write. all about yesterdae and todae.

yesterdae was cecilia's 21st birthdae party. a pity only the few of us turned up. from SAC only got gladys, jul, ali, grace, sinting and maywati. so sad sia. i thot it would be a big reunion. hehehe.. but it was okay on the whole. the cake was delicious! and aniwae, my dad sent all of us home. so we didn't haf any worries.

then todae, met ali and grace in the morning for mcdonald's breakfast. and then we proceeded to go to NUTC to buy stuff for our "little party" hehehe... guess wad we cooked? or rather wad me and grace cooked.. hahaha.. ali managed to cook white rice wif the help of me n grace. we ate cheese rice and i cooked sambal sotong (which was hot and delicious! it was my first attempt!) and onion eggs. grace cooked the cocktail sausages and also the poppy chicken or wadsoever. and then we also had campbell's soup.. hehehe.. ali only sit down there and eat. hahaha.. okay, gif her some credit, she did all the dishes and mopped the floor. hehehe..

and guess wad? i bought home my little darlings! bought 2 new yellow fishes.. one of them is of a lighter shade of yellow and the other is obviously the darker shade of yellow! and i have decided to name them,
starlight - for the lighter one.
and starbright - for the darker one.
hehehe.. cool huh? me love them so much, i hope they can survive long long. they are so active, but only in one part of the tank. so cartoon sia. haha. they like the right side of the tank, and then would swim up and down and up and down. i spent a total of $35 on them plus tank and air pump and everything. hehe.. cheap sia that store. hehehe.. can't wait to tell dear dear about my fishes. hahaha...

ok.. i guess that is all for todae, wanted to post photos from the bbq, but then sinting haven't send them to me yet, so i guess i juz haf to wait bah. hehehe..

that's all for todae, ta-ta!

haiz.. wonder wad alicia is doin.. she told me meet online, but she until now still haven't online yet. call her house she still never pick up. aiyo..

whoa. the weather todae.. like not gd sia.. like goin to rain. wonder how to go to bbq later. haizz.. damn sian man.

aniwae, my jie jie has returned from japan.. hehe. she bought me a mickey mouse keychain cum can opener from tokyo disneyland. hehehe.. very cute. very nice. still bought melon pocky and kitkat from hokkaido and bought me a metal Qoo bottle from japan. so cute sia.. hehe.. other than that she oso bought alot of chewing gum, chocolates, snacks.. whoa. the things there all very nicely wrapped. heehee..

13 more days then its my turn to go to japan.. yay!! hahaha..

aniwae, wonder how is dear dear todae. dunno his flu still around or not. haiz.. dear dear, u better tk good care of urself.. u huh. forever sick one leh. aiyo. how to depend on u? hehehehehehehehe.....

okie.. that's it.. ta-ta!

todae i went to see my female doctor about my never-ending mens.. haf to eat hormone pills again..

aniwae, i met dear todae, didn't do much, but was okay. went to catch "the day after tomorrow".. whoa so exciting. hehe. i was an okay show. quite nice.

todae dear made me quite happy, i was at the doctor's and then he ask me where i am, then i told him i was waiting for my turn and i ask him y so early wake up? since it's his off dae, slp more la. then he told me that he's missing me, that's y he woke up so early. hahaha.. i really over the moon sia.. heeheheeehee..

tomorrow is cecilia's birthdae. so haf to go chalet again.. haiz..

aniwae i will be gone 2wks from now. gone far away to japan.. hmm.. can't wait.

i guess that's all for todae.. ta-ta!

glad that i am able to access my blog. todae i went out wif alicia. whoa lau. spend so much money on food. can't stand her man. alicia has been eating and eating like there is no tomorrow. first she was thirsty, so we went to orange julius to haf a drink. then went to old chang kee to eat carrot cake, then went to parkway to eat auntie anne's pretzels and went to coffee bean to drink black forest and eat the triple decker cake. whoa lau. spend so much $ sia. alicia is forever hungry these days. so crazy. hungry hungry hungry..

but todae i was quite happy. managed to buy my giordano blue jeans. so nice! and then i bought a white belt to go wif it. yay! hehehe.. so happie. and the bracelet that i am wearing now, i bought it wif alicia.. hehe.. and i think its nice. and its the last piece! hehehe..

wanted to buy 2 fishes as pets todae, but think that it costs quite alot. and i dun really haf the interest. i love doggies more. so i guess i shouldn't risk the fish life and be an irresponsible owner. i guess i'll juz leave them wif the pet shop bah. i believe that there would be a day when i would buy my very own jack russell. (*_*)

dear told me that he is on his way home now. told me that he would explain to me why later. hmm. wonder wad happened. maybe its work bah? he say not MC leh. dunno wad sia. hmm.. aniwae, i will know later.

i still can't access to alicia's blog. aniwae, guess i will blog again tomorrow.. hehe.. ta-ta!

later goin out wif alicia. think grace and ali got some misunderstanding. both can't stand each other now. haiz. me in the middle stuck again. aniwae, i'll save the details.

liang wrote me a testimonial in friendster. haha. was so surprised to see it. aniwae, thanks bro, though i knoe u fdun read my testimonial.

aniwae, i went to catch TROY wif my dear over the weekend. not a bad show. quite interesting. hehe.. basically enjoyed myself for the whole dae.. except that he made me quite furious but it was okay in the end.

aniwae dear, i knoe u busy these daes, so jul jul be good girl dun disturb u le. aniwae, i am leaving singapore in 2 weeks time. so u can haf some peace. hmm.. i promise i would bring back japanese mei mei for u.. hahaha... ok la.. hope u get well soon (*_*)
miss you..

ta-ta!

todae is not a very good dae for me.. but glad that the time is passing quite fast. dear made me quite sad todae, or rather yesterdae, i'll save the details. though things are alrite now, but i still feel lost and sad. or rather, i feel neglected. i know he is busy and has loads of work, but i juz can't help feeling horrid. i juz can't hold out for long. haiz..

aniwae, todae is liling's 21st birthdae.. so happie birthdae liling.. later goin to attend her chalet. kinda glad that i'm able to meet up wif my old frens and not stay at home n think so much abt dear. it's juz driving me nuts.. so i hope the time passes faster so that i can go meet ali at 6.30.

juz now msg dear. msg him at the wrong time again. he having meeting. haiz. me always find him at the wrong time. kns man. i damn damn really dunno wad to do.. haiz.. hope things would be better tmr..

i think i'll stop here todae.. can't wait to go japan and leave this place that is not for me at all.. this place doesn't appreciate my presence. i hope got plane crash n i die.. and then i'll juz leave this sad place. and never ever come back again..

todae had quite a good dae.. went out wif grace to bugis.. though we meet only for a while, but we did many things. mainly, went to buy a present for maribel coz its her birthdae, then i went to buy a cake from four leaves for her. then bought letter pads for her as her birthdae present..

hmm.. todae is basically lidat lo. me abit tired, but so far so good.. heehee..

ok.. blog tmr bah.. ta-ta..

whoa.. yesterdae never even on the comp.. so tired.. firstly, i went to cut my hair. and i'm feeling good! hehehe. cut my fringe.. i think i look nicer bah? hahaha.. and then i highlighted my hair too! then faterwhich i went to meet grace and ali.. and then we went shpooing for liling's and cecilia's present. end up only managet to get one. haha..

we were so tired walk and walk and walk. so glad that todae can stay at home.. everytime i go out, then the time sure pass very fast. hahaha.. seems like its another dae nearer to see my dear dear.. this few days we always haf a good chat at night, and i'm glad.. hehe.. juz the both of us.. in our own world..

fridae is liling's brithdae, so gotta attend chalet. haiz.. actually kinda sian. the meeting up wif old frens again. hahaha.. but it might be a good thing.. hehe..

todae not much to blog.. juz dat.. i'm feeling good.. but hope that sch starts soon..


ta-ta!

so long nvr blog oredi. but ali is even worst. she nvr blog since may 09. think she is blinded by love rite now..

aniwae, thinks between me & my dear is ok. though we did have a mini fight on saturdae, but which couple dun fight rite? hahaha. ok aniwae, i hope things will go smoothly for us from now on.

todae me stay at home again. got nothing to do. maybe later will go n pack my room. clear all the yr 1 notes and prepare for yr 2. can't wait to go japan. i can't stand it anymore, so sian at home. and in singapore got nothing to do.

haiz.. faster start sch oso good. me so sian. nothing to do. dear is always so busy. army this army that, he oso got no time for me. so i bo pian, muz find things n do myself. haizz.. getting sianer and sianner.. hahaha..

call grace todae, but she nvr pick up the phone as usual. oh yah, ali muz be working todae. hahaha. think she should be working rite now. but i see her now, haiz. can't get a job, i hope that when i graduate, the economy wun be dat bad, if not very hard to find job. but luckily i got ITE cert. hehehe..

i guess dat's all for now. blog when i'm free again! ta-ta..

jul todae not in a very good mood. ask me why? i oso dunno.. juz dun feel happy.. i think the main reason is probably dear. me in a dilemma now.. juz dunno how i should feel or react.. sometimes, i juz feel neglected.. like he dun seem to care, and on the other hand, i muz be a wonderful gf who understands his job and cares. i juz can't take it.. i dunno how to handle the way i should feel. i knoe i shouldn't expect too much, and i shouldn't blame him coz its his work.. but i juz dunno lar.. maybe juz disappointed bah? but nvr tell him. i think its also becoz i'm too free these days.. dun need to do anything.. waiting for my term to start..

i need to do something.. haiz. i need so much, that he dun understand, and sometimes, i juz need some attention.

todae no mood to blog, juz dun feel good at all.. and there's nothing on tv.. vcd all watch finish le. maybe later go pack my room bah. haizzzz... i juz dunno wad i should do.. yesterdae liang told me, love can hurt and make u so happy too.. haiz.. he said, love is dangerous.. but told me i was a lucky girl.. hmm..

will blog tomorrow.. ta-ta..

todae, went out wif jan, liang, and velly.. had a wonderful time, eating and eating n eating.. and laughed alot.. so long never go out le..

aniwae, liang juz sent me a song by Carole King - You've Got A Friend" he says it has a message inside along wif it for me.. i listen to it le.. so sweet.. really sweet.. glad that i haf him as a fren... heehee...

dear say he would call me later, then i reply him back, he got no reply, i guess he is busy or wad bah.. hmm juz haf to wait for his call..

aniwae, thanks for the wonderful time JJVL... so happie and glad to haf u all in my life..

will blog tmr.. ta-ta!

todae went to the money changer to change japanese yen wif my mummy, then came home, as usual, went to find ringtones for my hp.. haha.. i think i'm addicted.. i juz love my hp so much, and the best thing is, it is a present from dear, i will treasure it alot.. the weird thing is, at first i dun like this hp at all. but as time passes, i think i am more and more in love with the hp.. dear was rite, i think if i bought nokia 7250i i would regret it. hehe.. thanks dear, dunno y wadever u say is always rite one..

haiz.. so sian man.. liang and jan is working, velly is playing gunbound i think and here i am blogging.. i dunno where has ali disappeared to.. haiz.. the only thing i can do is watch vcd.. juz watched the "Elixir of Love" it was an okay show only.. borrowed it from dear..

oh yah, by the way, todae is QinJul 3 & 1/2 years steady le.. whoa.. so fast man.. its oredi our 42nd month together dear.. hehe.. goin 4 yrs le.. hmm.. aniwae how is your outfield todae? hope ur work is fine.. i'm so bored until i miss u so much.. hehe.. hope to see u soon..

tmr miting liang, jan and velly go swimming, but i dun feel like swimming leh.. dunno y.. damn sian lo.. haiz.. hmm...

can't wait for the weekend, mit dear, then we go watch van helsing.. think it is a good show bah? everyone wants to watch it.. hehe..

ok la.. i think that's all for todae, maybe i will be back to blog tmr.. ta-ta!

wow.. didn't blog for a few days and then juz realised that the blogger has changed.. wow wow! cool.. heehee..

haizz.. been so busy these days got no time to blog, keep goin out.. so i guess todae i will have alot of things to blog about..

dear bought me a Nokia 6230.. whoa.. i love it so much.. he spent a bomb on it.. as for the details of the cost and everything, i shall not reveal.. only my close frens knoe.. aniwae, i am very happy with my new phone.. haha.. no more stoopid insensitive keypads, and wow.. the 6230 is so cool, it has everything in 1.. camera (which resolution is so damn good!), radio, media player, recordings, bluetooth.. and so much more.. most importantly, it has a memory card to store all stuffs when the phone runs out of space and the phone has NO LAG.. which means, it moves as fast as the 8210 or 8250.. whoa lau.. i really very happy wif my new hp, and most importantly, dear dear bought it for me.. and i treasure it alot.. and to go wif it, i bought a new projectshop pouch for it, coz the old one can't fit.. and i am so happie.. yay!

and yah, my mum confirmed with me yesterdae that we are goin Japan for holidae, hmm.. was quite happy about it coz i deserved a holidae after my exams.. and i got no supp! will be leaving singapore on the 9th and will be back by the 17th or 18th.. poor ah Qin, i can't call him coz of the network in japan, i need a japanese phone then can call him.. so i guess for these 8 to 9 days we won't be able to sms or tok to each other. but its ok dear, its not the first time we are apart for such a long time.. the longest was a month remember? we didn't get to even see each other.. so, this time only for a few days.. i'll miss you, i know i will..

was reading alicia's blog juz now.. aiyo.. all kel kel kel.. she muz be obsessed with kel.. wat can i say? haizz.. dun be too stuck wif him or he might take u for granted or might even find u irritating.. she didn't call me todae, coz go out wif kel again.. whoa.. nowadays so scary, she will smile to herself one..

whoa.. i'm getting so pissed off wif friendster.. always invalid user! sucks man..

hmm.. ok i wanna go beautify my hp wif ringtones and wallpapers.. maybe will blog tmr.. ta-ta!

todae didn't go dear dear's house, me not feeling well.. had a bad dae yesterdae sneezing.. and then woke up in the middle of the night coz i can't breathe. and then realised that i got headache, so i went to take panadols (again) and then woke up at 11am todae.. haiz.. so damn tired.. now got greeny phelgm (oops! sorrie for the details) and blocked nose, and running nose and sore throat.. haiz.. feeling so terrible.. eeks..

aniwae, later dear dear is coming to my house coz my mommy invite him to haf dinner wif us! Mother's Day ma.. HEHEHE.. so, i'll get to see him aniwae..

okok.. now for the good news! I GOT NO SUPP PAPER! YEAH! i'm so happie leh, though did not do very well la, but only i knoe how hard i haf worked for my studies and only i knoe how much effort i haf put in. so i dun care wad ppl would say about my results, but i know i haf did my best and i am proud of myself..

wonder has alicia told lawrence about the breakup? haizz.. so sad for him. aniwae, it not my problem oso.. me juz an outsider.. hehehe.. so, i'll juz wait up and see..

aniwae think that's about it for todae, hope to see dear dear soon.. dunno why leh, i juz met him on wednesday, but like so long never meet le.. hehe.. (weird weird) maybe miss dear dear bah? hehe..

will blog tmr or maybe tonite.. ta-ta!

halo! i'm back.. todae sure got a lot of things to blog, coz yesterdae nvr blog. me not feeling well yesterdae. got dizzy spells.. stoopid headache.. but I'M OK now.. hehe..

yesterdae mit my dear dear, went out, catch a movie and i wasn't feeling well, so slpt at his place until ard 7. then we went for dinner and i was back at home chatting wif ali, grace n JVL on irc..

yesterdae got some little misunderstandings wif my dear.. so hope that these little quarrels would make the both if us closer and stronger.. think i worry too much about him.. though this morning he made me angry again, but how long can i be angry at u? i love u so much.. (heheehee..) juz hope that next time u got something on your mind juz tell me, not feeling well let me know. dun keep everything in your heart.. i'm here to listen and make u feel better. i'm not your gf for nothing, unless u dun treat me as one. i knoe u love me alot and u dun want me to worry, but lidat, the more i worry about u. ok dear? everything is fine now.. and i still love my dear dear coz at the end of the dae, i know that i can't do without him.. so Qin ar, if u want the best for our relationship and u want things to work out properly, then u better tell me when u got something on ur mind.

so dear dear, hope ur tummy is not feeling weird weird anymore. so funny one, we always fall sick at the same time. my tummy juz recovered and then now its urs.. hmm.. so funny.. maybe we are related in other ways? maybe u are my brother? OMG! hahaha.. jul think too much le.. hahaha.. later i muz call u ah Qin kor kor oso.. heeheeeeheeeeeheeeeheee...

ok, for now, the shocking news.. alicia! told me she gonna break up with her boyfriend. i can't believe my ears man. 5 yrs of relationship.. she says she's moving on and everything. i dunno wad has got into this best fren of mine. insane? mad? i dunno.. wonder how lawrence would react.. if one dae Qin do that to me, i think i would be very sad for a very long time.. so dear, if u are reading my blog.. oh man.. pls dun do this to me. i can't tk the blow.. hehe.. okok.. back to alicia.. dat girl hor, somemore go and meet one guy online, aiyo, and to think that i, her best fren dunno! until todae! haizz.. i dunno wad to say leh, but all i want is the best for alicia.. and if she thinks wad she is doing is right, then i will give her my support lo.. i want the BEST for my BEST friend ma.. haizz.. (ali wad are u thinking?) ok la.. later i mit you then i am goin to tok some sense into u.. haiz.. can't believe that u are actually happy breaking up..

ok.. maybe i would be back to blog later.. ta-ta!

haizzz... yesterdae dunno eat wad wrong thing. whole nite cannot sleep.. stomach so pain.. and then keep on going toilet and diarrhoea.. haiz.. woke up at 3 am and then can't slp... keep on having the runs..

the pain was so unbearable. i went to the doctor straight when it was opened.. slept for the whole day like a pig..

stomach now still a little painful.. like so vulnerable lidat.. so torturing.. dear dear coming to see me later.. so sweet.. didn't expect him to visit me.. miss dear dear sia..

the pain was horrid until i cancelled my outing wif JJVL... so sad.. but they are so caring.. me so touched.. sms me to ask me to tk care.. hehe..

ok. i gtg and rest.. back tmr to blog.. ta-ta!

todae is Qin & Jul 45th month of friendship.. the dae that we met! so happie 45th month!

i'm not actually feeling quite well now.. got gastric.. ate too late and then eat a little bit then full oredi.. todae was a busy dae for me..

went back to TP for business orientation, but ended up going off early, coz its so absurd, so Jan, Jul, Velly & Liang (JJVL) decided to leave early.. and then we went to bugis, ate hungrily at Yoshinoya and then went to catch a movie.. "Beautiful Boxer" interesting interesting movie, not bad.. hmm.. think i enjoyed it..

and guess wad? JJVL took neoprint todae!!! so happie, i think its so beautiful.. yay!!! so happie sia...

me so tired now.. haizz..

aniwae tmr going to meet JJVL to go gym and then go for a swim at velly's house.. wow.. so nice to be able to spend time with my friends.. so long never meet le.. so happie to see my friends.. oh my god.. my gastric is so painful.. i think i better go rest now..

will be back tmr to blog again.. ta-ta!

todae, meet my dear dear.. wanted to go cycling together.. but too bad it rained.. and then we ended up watching "win a date with tad hamilton".. nice show sia.. hmm, then after that we went to simei and went to the pet safari at eastpoint... to see DOGS! so cute sia! hahaha... and then dear dear said want to rear arrowana.. but so ex sia.. one small one costs about $2288.. whoa.. hmm.. than after that we went to Han River to have dinner, then went back to my house again.. after dat dear dear became very tired and then i ask him to take a cab home, so poor thing.. hmm.. aniwae, i'm glad to be able to spend the day with you.. thanks for everything.. luff u...

hmm.. todae sure got alot of things to write.. all about yesterdae and todae..

firstly, yesterdae i went out wif my dear in the end, he called me last minute said that he bookout le.. so in the end we met, and juz when we were about to go our seperate ways, he gave me something.. my surprise! and he hid it in his bag, saying that i can't see but touch.. to i touched, something fury.. and guess wad izzit? omg.. its a hamster, but he kept it in his bag! its DEAD! i shouted! hahaha.. end up, its a toy hamster.. he told me that since i couldn't keep a real one coz my father dislikes it, then he bought me the fake one.. and it looks exactly like the real one.. no kidding! whoa.. then still got the ball to let the hamster run in it.. it sure is cool.. nxt time come my house and i'll show u all.. hmm.. isn't he sweet?

then todae went to watch 50 first dates, and the movie is so romantic.. i wonder who would ever do that for me? hmm.. i dun think such a guy exist on this planet.. for those of you who have not watched it, go watch, its a movie that is so damn sweet and romantic and touching..

hmm.. early morning alicia called me to tell me about the nokia 7250i.. and then i keep thinking about it the whole dae... after which, me and Qin went to bedok later in the night to enquire more about it, and then the person told me that if i get 7250i i would regret it, coz the functions are not so good compared to those new phones.. i agree though.. and in the end i never bought any hp, not becoz of wad the person said, but becoz Qin asked me do i really need the hp? and i am not working, and buy this and that, so i the end, i thot it made some sense, and i decided not to buy it.. i know that if i dun listen to him, something wrong would happen..... as it always does.. so i'm gonna take his advice, wait till this hp the keypad is totally terok oredi then i think about getting another one lo.. he dun seem happy wif me changing hps also.. so i guess not buying would be the best solution, though he said it was up to me to decide.. although now i do feel a little sad, but i'm sure if i'm not reminded of hps, i won't think of buying it, so pls my friends, dun remind me anything about hps.. ok? thank you..

todae went wif my dear and his mom to eat dinner.. to celebrate mother's day.. we went along wif his cousins too.. had a great dinner though it was juz at the coffee shop.. we had mussels wif chilli, fish head curry, scallops wif broccoli, mango prawn salad, chilli squid, yam basket, seafood claypot and oso sea coconut and longan dessert. but the best part was the iced lemon tea! it was home brewed, and it's so damn delicious.. hahaha...

hmm that's about it all for the whole saturdae, filled with many laughers and also a little sadness frm the hp, so pls dun remind me abt it...

will be back to blog again tmr! ta-ta!