Will You Wait For Me?

will you wait for me?

isn't it so sweet? i placed their cages together. and i saw them looking at each other. it was such a beautiful sight. and i felt so bad to seperate them. but i always tell tubby that i'll put him back soon. when his kids open their eyes.

they look as though they are talking. hmm.. aniwae, spot the baby pup in the pic. its on the left side. that tiny little blind cutie.

their fur started to grow and thicken up as well

meanwhile its all pics of tubby....

as for my studies, have been quite productive... heh heh...

slept at 3am last nite again. woke up at 8.30am to go to the toilet. was supposed to go back to sleep. but i found myself repeating the stuff i memorized the night before and i wasn't doing any sleeping.

so, at 8.40am, i decided to crawl out of bed...

and by the way, perlini's silver sent me my birthday gift! 50% off any item. i'm gonna get a charmbracelet! and u2 and g2000 sent me christmas offers too...

getting old liao... friday commiiinnggggg...... friday also marks the 2nd month of tubby and pixie's stay with me.

wanna watch tv le...

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Exams Loh!

juz posted yesterday's entry. there was something wrong with blogger last nite, it kept having errors.

slept in the wee hours of the morning, at 3am. but was happie i did. haha. and i managed to crawl out of bed at 10.30am. accomplishment liao lor!

i know, i keep blogging about my ham hams. but its the only thing that keeps me company while being stuck at home with those boring texts. and i juz lurve my little furballs! imagine having 8 ham hams at home! i can stare at them for a long long time. juz look at them. even if they are juz sleeping. i'm hopeless when it comes to them. i have since bought so much toys and food for them, that i became a privilleged member of pet lovers centre oredi. in juz a short, 1 and 1/2 months.

so many things i wanna do, but i still have to be stuck with the stack of paper, waiting for me to download and store them into my pentium 1, 64MB pea brain.

i feel like:
- going to ikea (pretty up my room)
- new phone? (bleah, i wish!)
- movies?
- shopping!!!! (i need that retail therapy!)

haiya back to reality lar...

nerding in process...

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Arrggh!

sick of studying! really sick man! this time its really hard. i dunno why. maybe coz TP works in a faster system. everything goes WHEEE! and its over long before you know it. that's why TP students always have this "sense of urgency" and "independence" in them. this exam thingy is like dragging and never ending. ROARRRRR!

supposed to meet dear todae, since its sunday. but i cancelled it. intended to study lar. but i wasn't as productive. i dunno why leh.

whenever i'm bored, i'd go to see my little ham hams... heh heh... i'm proud to say, there are still 6 of them. their fur is growing! remarkable! they are not those red little raw things anymore. their little ears have grown bigger. today is day 7 since their birth. they've grown quite a bit in size too. their eyes are due to be open in 5 to 7 more days. i can't wait man!

but from what i see now, only one hamster looks like tubby. and he/she (i can't figure out its sex yet) has since got a special place in my heart. coz it's the only one that stands out from his grey (from pixie's genes) brothers and sisters. but i decided to call him/her spot. coz he/she's the only one in black. like a black spot among all the greys. so cute.

my nokia 6280 system is going haywire. but not using my motorola v3 becoz it doesn't have a radio. makes me so pek chek at times, i juz feel like trading in both to get a new one. but then again. money's the problem. RAAHHHH!!!

now, i have to live with everything. the damn exams. the spoilt phone.

only thing that makes me happie is, my ham hams.

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Aiyo... Exams!

studying was bad. not so productive yesterday, hence, gonna put in double the effort to study in 10 mins time. i'm going thru a hell of time now. used to take exams lightly during primary and secondary school days. as i grow older and know the importance of it, it became more stressful. of course, i do better when i'm older. but i juz hate the exam period. its like being "in jail" mentally.

dear's out with this friends. fridae guy's nite out sure muz be happening. so envious. can't wait for my exams to be over to meet my gurls. supposed to meet alicia and grace, and go sentosa with jiayi and belle when she returns from aussie. oh well, but his night out is a good thing too. it serves as a reason for me not to fall asleep and wait up for him (though i dun have to) and in the meantime study. which of course means that waiting for him is juz a secondary reason which i choose to believe in and place it at the top. but the bottomline is to get my lazy eyelids and brains to work. sigh. sad but true. wad a life.

my contradiction:
time pass faster, so that exams can be over.
time pass slower, so that i have more time to study.

help!

Hamster Updates

finally i am able to blog! was studying all the time. every single day without fail. one paper down todae. 3 more to go. today's paper was okay... will be studying tonite again...

i found my new love. tubby and pixie. grown very attached to them. long to come home everyday juz to take a peep at them, feed them, fill their bottles and juz watch them. seems that my life revolves around them. even the entries that i blog here recently are about them.

tubby has a new home now. he's shifted out of his makeshift fish tank home. felt that it wasn't appropriate for him as the fish tank can't house his very favourite water bottle (he's a water lover. drinks plenty of water). plus he did not have a wheel, which deprives him of his running space. plus, when the baby litters grow up, they'd need housing too. so i forked out $30 bucks for his new bright single-leveled cage. now they stand side by side.

first thing tubby did when i brought him into his new house, was to go to the water bottle. that adorable boy. he's such a water lover.

tubby sleeping on his new wheel

i carried him the other night. he was such a good boy because he didn't move. he juz sat quietly in my hands. he looked so cute, i juz had to take a pic of him.

as for pixie, she and her pups are doing well. still have a total count of 6 litters. no eating of babies to date. today is day 3 since their birth. the babies have grown bigger since. their ears are starting to show. however, i am still unable to count the number of boys and girls because she's constantly by their side, or in her arms.

the pups suckling on mama's milk... notice they grew bigger...

all 6 of them are there. 3 are on the top. and 3 more below.

pixie is starting to be active again. she'd bring her litters down, and she'll run on her favourite wheel at night. she's also always looking out for me. coz i think she knows i bring her food. so she'll climb the grills to wait for me to feed her with her favourite corn, carrots and bean sprouts.

she's waiting for her food.

i hope the 6 litters survive. so excited to see their growth everyday!

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Pups Have Arrived

my little darling pixie gave birth to 6 cute litters this morning, 22 october 2006.

it didn't occur to me that she was pregnant as early as 16 to 18 days ago. when i realised it, it was probably near full term of her pregnancy.

which caught me startled when i saw 2 red raw blind litters (pups are blind at birth) on the wheel this morning. was wondering wad was that, and it started moving. little did i realise those were pixie's pups.

placed fresh food and her usual intake of oats and dried food. didn't disturb her. i went out soon after.

when i came back, i saw an increase in litters. which made the final total to 6.

she gave birth on the wheel i guess. and i probably should have taken it out. but its too late now, as she's nesting her pups in there. she was a wheel lover, which probably explains the place of birth.

tubby has been a good husband, helping to take care of the pups. but juz when i wanted to give him credit for being a good father, he went on the wheel and drove the pups like clothes in a washing machine. thankfully, pixie came and chase him away. minus point number 2, he even wanted to mate with pixie again. which made me seperate him in his temporary housing now... fish tank... haahaa...

i dun mind having tubby there coz he'll be of moral support to pixie. but he's juz hot on fire, so damn horny. which leaves me with no choice.

read on several websites that its better to seperate the husband when the mother juz gave birth, coz they will be able to mate again within 24 hours, which is no good for the mother. pixie looked so tired. so poor thing.

she's been a good mum so far. no eating of pups yet. she's been protecting them, carrying them by her mouth when they fall out of the wheel and bringing them back. she sleeps with her pups. and never fails to go back to them after she has taken her meals.

she needs a quite environment, but i managed to take 2 pics though...

the protective mother

i hope there'll still be 6 tomorrow.

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My Inner Self

its the wee hours of the morning. am supposed to sleep now becoz i have to get back to studying tomorrow. will do so after i finish this entry coz i juz have the urge to blog.

juz changed my song. i dunno why i keep listening to it. its an old song by westlife, however, i always find the lyrics so sad and beautiful in one way or another. contradicting lar, i know~ how can be sad but beautiful?

i dunno why, on the surface i seem to be so busy preparing for exams, but at the back of my mind, i keep "hu si luan xiang" about things that never happened, or, i feel that they are about to happen. i keep having this insecurity of things which i fear would occur in future which makes me kind of stressed up. i feel so "arrgghh!" like i'm gonna breakdown mentally any minute. which then i know again that i would not let it happen to me at this crucial period of exams. it feels as though i'm living in "shadows" or "masks". appearing to be someone unreal? oh man, this is getting so complicated, even i have problems explaining it myself.

and from now onwards, i hope my wandering mind would stop pressurizing me.

its the debate of the inner self.

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Venus vs Mars

ok, for now, my self-proclaimed break from the never ending management theories... at least for 15 mins...

keep watching "princess hours" on channel u everyday at 7 pm faithfully. i can't get enuff of it. but it got me thinking... that there's no such beautiful story in reality. or am i wrong? ladies and men are from different planets. ladies are said to be more emotionally attached to things, especially for one thing, love. and men tend to detatch easily where matters of the heart are concerned. having their pride and everything in the way... and while reading this, maybe at the back of your mind, you are defending your partner... "no la, he / she's my prince / princess. the one i've always wanted to be with" self denial lar... everyone sure has something negative about their partners which they detest. no matter how well you think know you know them, you are still left clueless about the opposite sex at the end of the day.

which is why, dramas are only for fantasies... and which is why, i indulge myself in taiwanese to korean to japanese dramas... juz to dream... haha...

and for the latest news...

i think pixie is pregnant! 60% sure only. she grew fatter out of the sudden. and tends to pick more fights with her so called husband, mr tubby, becoz they tend to get more tempremental during their pregnancy term.

my answers will be revealed in 16 to 20 days later if i see little litters around the cage. bought new bedding to change to prepare for her pregnancy. juz pray hard she doesn't eat them. apparently female hamsters eat their litter becoz she know they are unable to survive due to malnutrition or wadsoever. another reason could be because humans are around, and she's afraid they would harm them, thus eating them. wad a way to protect her litters! but aniwae, i hope cute little hammies are on the way...

in sweet dreamland

i think she's pregnant. is it?

the guy who's responsible for making her pregnant

now comes the bad moment...

i'm 6 mins over due time. and its time to go back to the books!

arrrgghhh!!!!!!!

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My Little Furballs

busy studying so din really update... have some pics on tubby and pixie though... pixie have since became fatter, but i dun think she's pregnant... began to know both of them better thru these few weeks...

tubby - he's the sleeper. though the male, but tamer and gentler. tends to give way to pixie. easier to handle when picking him up. loves the yellow house.

tubby the sleeper!

pixie - the gal. more active, however is the naughtier of the both. always snatches tubby's food while he's eating halfway. but when tubby wants to have a share of hers, she'll take her food and turn away. always picks fights to prove that she's the queen of the cage. loves the wheel more than tubby. more curious and easily awaken by little sounds or movements in the cage.

bad hair days? haa.. she looks ugly here! coz she juz woke up and i snapped!

caught looking for "treasures"...

was bored studying and needed a drink. made my very own ribena with lime! i thot i'd taste funny. but its nice! trust me! try it!

my creation~

ok la.. gotta go back to the books... sighz~ update another time...

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The Dusty Old Cupboard

dear tagged me! after so long!!! so happie!

we had a busy day moving in his new cupboard. tired, but it was satisfying... clearing so much rubbish! now the room is spick and span! but i'm dead tired.

to my close galfren: uncertain things do happen in our lifes. sometimes for the good, sometimes for the bad. life's lessons are harsh, but it makes you stronger in a way or another. move on, for you know she wants you to be happy, and you know she'll be up there watching over you. take care.

updates another day. i'm exhausted!

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Fri-Satday

accompanied mummy to changi hospital for checkup on friday. took some pics of the fishy in the pond area while waiting for her to be out of the ladies...

these fishys come so close to you! and they keep having the "o" mouth... so the "bo liao" me went to take a pic of them while they were surrounding me.

went to vivo city todae... lots of stuff there... forever 21, gap, club marc, topshop, warehouse, m)phosis, armani exchange, naf naf, tangs... alot lar... can't name them all. but its a very huge place which is a good place to shop "high-end" lar... hehe....

i've changed my tag-board... the good old reliable tag-board has failed. i'm sure bloggers using tag-board.com is experiencing problems. coz this pop out window of username and password keeps popping out. hence the change. happie with Cbox coz they let you personalize many things like colour, font, font size, height, width and many more...

a close friend of mine is going thru a tough period of her life... i really hope you'd be strong in moments like this. i know its not easy but always remember, we'll be there for you... you are not alone in this battle... take care...

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The Blue Pill - My Saviour

i'm on the pill again... the blue pill.... it saved me... haahaa... dun get the wrong idea... its my migraine pills... woke up with this pain on the left side of my head... crawled out of bed at 7am juz to pop the pills. then went back to bed feeling horrible... woke up at 11.30am smiling coz the migraine is gone... heeheee...

went to surf yahoo auctions for hamster stuff... juz to look see look see... and guess wad i found? hamster leash! now, u can take your hamster for walks? wad sia? haha... japanese invention... see it for yourself!

haa... i muz say they are damn innovative sia... wad next?

"walk your fish with the new portable fishbowl with leash! comes in 3 exciting colours to suit your fish's identity!"

gold - for the majestic arrowana
orange - for the bubbly cute goldfish, clownfish or parrot fish
red - luck for the big headed luo han!

whahaha.... it might juz be the next big thing!

aniwae, there are alot of stuff there for pets... hee... good to browse without even having to leave home... they sell chinchillas along with cages, goldfish with huge fish tanks, hamsters for adoption, brand new hamster toys and cages, dog clothing, hamster food, water bottles, houses.... blah blah blah... so much!

speaking of chinchillas, i'm a little scared of them. they look scary lar... the ears, their size and they need quiet environment... blah blah.... might as well get a dog? they juz keep giving birth oso... many of the sellers are selling them off to reduce their herd...

gotta go!

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A Date At Last!

yay! finally! dear said he's gonna bring me to vivo city this saturday! wee~ so happie! haha. though its only bringing me there to walk walk lar... but i couldn't be any happier! been so long since we last went out together. we are always going to NLB. finally got something to look forward to! yippie!

i'm a happie girl todae!

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The Little Black Dress

i found it! the little black dress... with square-shaped cut, like the one i used to see in dorothy perkins. didn't buy it that time becoz it was a little ex. and now, i found something similar, if not simpler, in metro at $45 bucks. lurve it! and the best thing is, it doesn't look like its from metro. whahaha... great buys makes a girl happy! actually i din intend to buy dresses, if not for my cousin's wedding dinner next month.

aniwae, i caught tubby sleeping on the slide of their "bungalow". he was still in sleepy mode, hence the face. took the pic when i opened the top cover. the purple thingy is their grape toy made of wood. notice the smaller wood beside the purple grape? it used to be a yellow lemon, but they gnawed until it became this state. the toy is actually to satisfy their desire to bite. aniwae, that's my little boy... so adorable!

sleepy tubby

tat's all for today!

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New Blogskin!

new blogskin again. hehe. actually i had no intention to change since mine is less than a month old. i juz happened to come across this skin and i thot it was beautiful! lurve the combination of brown, pink and maroon... hehe...

was reading back on my old entries... i posted this sentence in 2004, for dear when he was still in the army...

"Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. Life is like hour glass sand. Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom, but all you have to do is be patient and wait for something to turn everything back around."

he was really busy with the army during that period of time and was going thru a rough time in camp... i dunno if he read my old entries, but realised there's quite a bit about him...

i posted another quote for him in another entry...

"Everything in life is temporary, because everything changes..."

reposting these quotes again coz i think its very meaningful...

haa.. and that was 2 years ago...

today, he's still as busy, though not with SAF but with NTU... haa.. i guess we'll never stop getting busy in life rite?

in the coming month, it would be my turn to be busy with exams... my virgin exams in SIM!

dear: thanks for all the songs! they are all my favourite!

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Running

to the man who's been in my life for the past 5 years and 10 months.

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that
I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running
Keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope we'll make it
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running
Keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

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Muddleheaded-ness Leads To Boring Sunday

i'm at home todae! was supposed to meet dear. but silly me fell asleep while setting the alarm yesterday nite. and without knowing, i didn't set alarm at all... woke up startled! then realised its 10am oredi... when i'm supposed to meet him at 1o plus. called him and we decided to give todae a miss since he has to study anyway...

so there goes another boring sunday. took a walk alone at the mall in the afternoon. then came home empty handed, except lunch for mummy and luo luo.

6th year anniversary is nearing... so is dear's birthday. and i'm perpetually broke... got a few things in mind, but needs alot of saving.. haha...

i said i wasn't hoping for any birthday gift. but now i'm hoping mummy will get me this.

selling at $159 now. for 1GB. though i oredi have an ipod nano. but like this not becoz of the design or wad. but becoz i need a radio and mp3 player together. currently using my nokia which can only store up to 12 songs becoz of the small space of the mnc card. and ipod nano doesn't come with a radio. though would love to have the ipod radio remote too. but this is also cute. hehe... it'd be nice to receive this...

oh well~

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Weekend

saturday has passed, juz like that... in the blink of an eye...

and all i did was being with dear at the library... of course, the poor guy is really tired being out for the whole nite yesterday. so we din stay long there. he slept on my bed so soundly like a baby...

would love to watch singapore dreaming and you, me and dupree...

i'm so longing for 09 november instead of 03 november... this year's birthday is gonna be very "sian" i suppose... its in the midst of everything... dun expect anything from anyone or wadsoeva. all i need is for exams to be over, and then get out of singapore for a breather, i hope... leave everything here and juz stay away for a while... hopefully, mummy and daddy plans something...

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Suffocated

looking cheerful and alright
but inside me
i'm filled with doubts
questions clouding my mind
feelings stabbing my heart
try to find reasons to the questions
trying to struggle between what's right and wrong
been thinking alot
and having sleepless nights
thoughts i always avoid
things i've always been unable to face
come snowballing to me
am i supposed to feel this way?
is this the way its meant to be?

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Second Entry

i'm back for the second time! haa... i have been a good gurl today! clearing up my notes and books which has been piling up on my little ikea stool since projects and tests started... now my room is clean again! placed all my notes in their relevant files... and then realised that there's so much to study... haiz...

hmm... juz had my bath and my hair's got this lovely scent, thanks to my reliable shampoo, vidal sassoon! have u all tried those in the new packaging? i tell u, its 10 times as good as the old ones! they changed their packaging and i think they improved on their shampoo too... the shampoo's nicer now... and its from japan! i figured that out coz the bottle is filled with japanese words... and now they have colour shampoo for those who dye their hair too... believe me, its worth every single cent... hee... i'm so much happier! even though its juz shampoo!

two thumbs up for the girl who served me at projectshopbloodbros at bugis, seiyu. i dunno why but i always have this perception that projectshop sales assistants are nothing but snobbish. but the salesgirl yesterday was very friendly, letting me try bags after bags, taking out the newspapers inside to let me see the inner compartments. telling me about which bag is more popular... she even helped me checked for new pieces of the bags i tried and even located the outlets which carries the ones i like. and though i did not buy anything in the end, she was still so smiley and telling me thank you... that's great service which brightens up my day!

tonite's gonna be an "off nite" for me. which means, i do nothing but watch tv... relax myself for this week (^_^)

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Final Project Submission

was trying to cut down words on my HRM project due tomorrow. but everything seems important. i did my best already. checked the references and everything... waiting for the group to review it...

aniwae, went to listen and watched jay chou and fei yu qing's qian li zhi wai mtv at you tube. very nice song, i like! dun like fei yu qing's songs coz he sings like its a lullaby (yeah, i dunno how to appreciate.. hee...) but aniwae, this one is nice, trust me... his voice is good! see if for yourself...

took a pic that day on bus 23 with dear... it passed little india, the bus stopped next to the deco for deepavali... and we were sitting on the upper deck, and the peacock is right in front of me...

notice the reflection of the lights of the bus?

time flies, my semester is coming to an end. hate the exam feeling... nothing much to blog about...

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Newer Blogskin~

yeah, finally found one blogskin that i like... hmm coz the widths are big enuff... hate those with small fonts and those with loads and loads of scrollbars. spent the whole nite doing this. finally its done. sort of proud of it. lurve the rainbow... aniwae, finally found the song i want! heard it on class 95 todae. it holds very meaningful lyrics for me. coz i've been through it before. no one understands the pain except me. oh well~ its all in the past... its all history now... so i ain't gonna whine about it...

finally done with my econs test todae... i guess i'll fair better this time round... got my assignments back... passed but ain't really happy... only a few ppl know though. aniwae, its nothing to be proud of...

been pretty lonely lately, though i'm at school with friends, talks to dear, chats with mummy, but somehow i feel empty inside. until the extent where i went window shopping alone todae... juz me, myself and i. guess i needed some retail therapy to relieve the unhappiness in me. then took a long bus ride home and slept throughout the journey...

spent the whole nite cleaning up the hamster cage and changing their bedding... i took about an hour, washed the cage, played with them and fed them. tubby and pixie has since turned one month old since i bought them... i guess they are already a few weeks or maybe even a few months old when i bought them. i guess they are already mating... juz now went to peek at them. and they are so active, plus sexually active tonite... its not the first time i'm saw them doing their "thing"... haa... but i hope babies wun come anytime soon though... can't imagine having a pregnant hamster... heehee... luckily for dwarf hamsters, the daddy helps to care for them, so i dun need to seperate them. did my research on the net and asked the pet shop owner too... so its confirmed that i dun need to seperate the whole family. juz dun agitate the ham-hams unnecessarily...

gonna have to edit my report tomorrow... its done already, juz that it needs some editing... no school tomorrow, so i'm sort of relaxed... except that i got classes on friday and i totally forgot about it! wad a spoiler! and i thought i had a long weekend! *sighz*!

before i end today's entry, i'll leave this sad, but beautiful song lyrics...

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time with all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now, and i'm alone and free
I know that i should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right

As long as the stars shine down from the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you gettin' over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinkin' of you

Oh, no matter what I do
Spending a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I've ever loved

I'll never get over you gettin' over me

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New Blogskin

been studying... so take a break from my studies now. econs test two tomorrow... sianz... i hate econs. its been haunting me... studied in poly year 1 and i thot that was the end of it. now i have to go thru it again... i juz hate the curves and the graphs and the reasonings... i still prefer hrm and employment relations though.. hehe.. so easy to understand... i'm not a number person. i'd rather write essays than use the calculator...

so aniwae, i have a new blogskin, which i think there's something wrong with it? so this is a trial period... i dunno if it appears properly on ur lappys or comps... so if there's any faults with the template, pls let me know...

luo luo is taking her PSLE tomorrow... english paper... she's so tensed up... thinking back, i was rather happie go lucky... take the paper and that's it.. haha... i used to be a "bo chup" student, even until secondary school, that explains why i've gotten really bad grades for my o'levels though my n'levels are okay... only really cared about my life and studies when i went to ite... got pressurized by those relatives and gossiper aunties who reckon that i couldn't make it and who believed that dear and i are not compatible becoz of my educational qualifications. heck! now they got nothing to say when they see me... aniwae, the bottomline is, hope luo luo will excel!

i miss going to the movies!!!! so yearning to see one. but so ex... moreover, exams are nearing... haiz...

todae, tubby and pixie are officially 1 month old (with me)! so happie... still love my two lovable ham-hams... gonna get them their dinner now!

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Pics~

sick with my life lately. haven't been going to the movies, shopping, (i mean REAL shopping whew you really splurge) and not even pigging out with frens... everyday of my life juz revolves around projects, assignments and tests.

dear stayed over last nite. we studied till 3am in the morning. and then continued again today... but i dunno why i have no confidence at all. maybe becoz of the impact of the last test.

some pics to update though...

pixie's latest pic... she's chewing on tau geys as ususal..

my cute little gal...

taken when we met up with liang at the library for project... he's juz there doing his law stuff~

up next, funny retarded and distorted pics! haa.. taken with velly's imac lappy... heee... cool~

they said i looked like lilo like that... haa...

lastly......

i'll blog some other time...

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Sad. Tired. Sleepy. Unhappy.

my last post was exactly one week ago... been really busy meeting deadlines for assignments that i dun have the time to blog. never really had a good sleep too. been staying up late to finish things up...

things have not been going my way lately... been stressful at school, been physically tired, and emotionally drained as well...

constant conflicts arising within the project group. while certain close friends will take comments in their stride and we still remain as good friends, its harder to talk to those who are not so close. its so hard to want to talk to a person about them doing their part in the wrong track, but yet on the other hand, not wanting to hurt their feelings. so lose a friend or make an enemy? wad's ur view?

had my last lecture of the semester todae. it was ok though i was dreaming. my heart was feeling so heavy. so many things inside of me. and the worst thing is, there's no one to pour it out. alicia: u know i nearly wanted to go and find you after my lecture?!! but i had to come home coz i had project to do. i know u are proudly on leave till next week, which i am so envious about...

i heard on class 95's love songs that "faults are thick while love is thin" isn't that true in every relationship? you tend to see the bad about your partner, but the good, you'll never appreciate? sometimes even taking for granted their presence in your life. maybe some ppl in love will feel that its not necessary to appreciate your special someone for being in your life, or for doing things for you, becoz they love you, even if its juz the simplest thing, you feel that its their duty to do so. however, i still think that people need to be motivated (sounds like a sentence from management thought and hrm lectures). everyone loves praises which are good to the ears. but how far would you go to make your partner happy? how often do you show your gestures of love? human beings are filled with hatred, including me as well. more often than not, we tend to hate ppl more than we like ppl. same theory applies to relationships... when your partner makes a mistake, its the biggest fault, the unforgivable, most sinful, the worst mistake! but when your partner showered you with gifts, love, affection and sweet nothings, did you think that way? mistakes are so easy to spot, but love is so easy to ruin. class 95 also mentioned another quote, "love is selfless". to me it is only true to a certain extent. i dunno wad made me write this long huge chunk of rubbish theory on love and hate. but it made me think on the way back home after lecture when i was listening to class 95's love songs. and all the songs seem to make my heart bleed. then came the bus which had too many people which left me stranded at the bus stop which seemed like forever.

i can't wait for everything to be over so that i can get out of singapore for a breather. things over here are sad and blue.

hopefully tomorrow would be a better day.

please guide me thru my way.

I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone.
And I'm still here alone.
Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.

I never should have trusted you.
I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven's gone away.
And I'm out in the cold.
Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,
I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.

Oh, I never should have trusted you.

i'll blog some other time when i have the energy, time and strength. back to projects for now...

ta-ta...

Please Read...

in school now... but i'm back with a purpose... i didn't intend to blog but i read xiaxue's blog.... an entry on weak women... worth reading... will not comment much about it coz its a little sensitive ar... read it and you'll know...

haven't blogged for a week, have been busy travelling to and fro to national libray and school... this week alone, i carried lappy four times already... stressing me out on the travelling alone. very very very tired liao... i need some TLC please! haha...

i'll blog when i get back... back to projects for now...

ta-ta...

Food!

for those who are not studying at SIM, our university serve refreshments after every lecture... and for the first time in my life, i saw green egg tarts... i dunno if you've seen it before... but i was certainly "wow-ed"... i had to try it! it was pandan i think... and it smelled good... not bad though...

jie jie bought these cadbury snaps from aussie... really thin pieces of chocolates with crushed nuts which look like pringles potato chips... very nice! too bad they dun have it in singapore... it comes in 3 flavours, which includes milk chocolate, hazelnut and orange...

didn't blog over the weekend coz i haven't been home for the past 2 nights... hee... been at dear's place... going to the library to find books for my project, studying till late nights together and going out for supper... which is damn sinful lar... hee... but its once in a blue moon. so why not indulge first then say? hee...

and since mcdonalds operates 24 hours now... i decided to get a cheeseburger last nite coz i had a craving for it... at 2am in the cold chilly morning, we walked to mcdonalds, chatting and talking on the way.... heee... so happie... but ever since this thought of chesseburger, dear kept teasing me ever since... our conversation as follows...

the good old double cheese burger with pickles~

ahhh... heavenly~

dear: wad u wanna eat?

me: i got craving for cheeseburger.

dear: so late still wanna eat cheeseburger?

me: (feeling guilty) huh... then go where eat?

dear: no lar, if you want cheeseburger, we go get cheeseburger.

me: heehee... (but still guilty lar!)

later today....

dear: wah! at my house eat alot junk ar?

me: hmph! very wad...

dear: C-H-E-E-S-E-B-U-R-G-E-R.....

dear's mean ar? very mean indeed! teasing me makes him happie...

dear: WE ATE ALOT! hahaha! no doubt u are mean, but still thanks for carrying my heavy library books and for bringing me out late at nite to have supper... studying together is wad we always do, but until the wee hours of the morning is unusual... nevertheless, it feels wonderful to be 48 hours together once in a while...

tomorrow is back to projects again... haiz... i hate it leh! i hate the subject... management thought is the worst subject i've ever studied! and i think this year is the year which i have been to the libraries in singapore the most times...

i guess i better logoff soon...

tomorrow's WAR TIME!

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Back To Post...

haven't blogged for a long time besides the little note that i left for dear 2 days ago... becoz i had my first test in uni life... it was okay though...

loads of stuff to update...

firstly, new cage for tubby and pixie! cost me a cool $36 bucks for their double storey bungalow accompanied with a full set of staircase, wheel and waterbottle... house and food bowl not included. both ham hams lurve their new home... faithfully playing on their wheel every nite without fail... and their current favourite food is fresh corn kernel...

aniwae, met the gals yesterday for dinner... chilled at marina's sakae sushi even though ppl hate to go there now coz of IMF... had a wonderful time chatting, laughing and most importantly, eating! the pics speak for itself!

and yes! we wiped out 22 plates!

proceeded to shopping for dresses with the gals after dinner. alicia needed one for zuomin's wedding, and i needed one for my cousin's wedding... tried alot... but only took one pic...

din buy anything in the end... i felt it wasn't appropriate... alicia tried on a pretty red floral dress! heee....

we headed from marina to suntec... despite the tight security due to the IMF, we are still determined to go to suntec... however, we failed... haha... aniwae, all shops are closed already! its 10 plus at nite! we strolled along suntec and marina... and look wad we found!

SUNFLOWERS IN SINGAPORE!

it was dark, hence the low quality of the pic... but they actually planted a whole stretch of sunflowers coz the delegates are coming... sadly, they look like they are dying.... hee....

nevertheless, i had a great time with them... my best galfrens... my best buddies...

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5 Years & 10 Months...

for dear:

i dun say this often, coz we've been together for so long... some things need not be told or said coz we simply understand each other... but today, 5 years and 10 months later, i'm really glad we're still together... we've weathered tough times together... and no matter what other people said, it all fell on deaf ears, coz i knew you were the one. i'll never forget our memories, silly moments together, and secrets between us.

in short, like i always say, thank you for always being there for me without ever complaining... no matter wad the time is, i know you're the only hotline i can dial when i need to...

to me, and juz me, you are a wonderful boyfriend...

i'm happy...

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Sleeping In...

had trouble sleeping last nite because i was having blocked nose. it doesn't help if i breathe through the mouth coz it makes my throat dry... been feeling so tired... body aches like its gonna fall apart... woke up this morning, and green phelgm had set in... felt a sickly body when i crawled out of bed... still sneezing, but i'm on medication given by mummy. thank god there's no lectures todae. but i wonder hell am i gonna survive tomorrow's long day... i wonder if i have the energy to push myself until 10pm at nite...

i have to get myself cured as soon as possible to prepare for wednesday's test...

help me...

before i end todae's entry....

So faithfully
Holding tight to every dream I thought our love would ever be
As the scent of hope slips through my fingers plain for me to see
I can feel now in your eyes the changing way you look at me
Where's the love we knew would last us eternally?

And will your arms still hold me?
And your eyes console me?
Baby please don't turn your back and just pretend
That your heart still needs me
And your soul completes me
Can we find a way to fall in love again?

It's hard for you
When your heart has opened up to feelings that you never knew
Never thinking that you'd doubt our love
You don't know what to do
I'd give anything,
My heart, my soul
If i could pull you through
Just to find again my love we hold so true

And as everything night goes by
With every lonely tear I cry
It's so clear to me
I need you by my side

Can we find a way to fall in love again?

Oh baby, I need you to love me for the rest of my life
If we fall in love again,
would you love me for the rest of my life?

ta-ta...

Flu~

i'm half drowsy now after popping my flu pills~ been down with a very bad flu... so glad to be home... really had a tough day battling with my flu and enduring my very long day.... i'm still continuing sneezing though i've taken my medicine. haiz... wrong timing to be sick... supposed to be studying. but i can't even take it... mummy gave me the pills 2 hours ago... and i'm falling asleeepppp~

and to make things worst, i'm having sore throat, blocked nose and ears... luckily tomorrow no lectures...

dear's out with his army buddies. i reckon he'll be home late tonite.... haven't talked to him for the whole day...

need to feed pixie and tubby before tucking into bed...

i need alot of rest...

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Tubby & Pixie

i have officially named my ham-hams...

boy-boy will be called tubby, which means fatty.. hehe.. coz he's like a round ball of fur...

girl-girl will be called pixie, which means playful...

went to do some research on dictionary.com before deciding....

lurve u tubby and pixie...

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Hamsters!

juz bought 2 hamsters 2 days ago... so happie! hee.... its a gurl and a boy... lurve them so muchie! they are of sapphire breed. but i haven't named them. thot of toffee for the boy and sugar for the gurl.. then i tot of kiki and lala. but then, i still can't confirm. for now, i juz call them girl-girl and boy-boy. any names to suggest?

boy-boy is toffee coloured brown and girl-girl is white with greyish fur on top.

aniwae, pics of my beloved darlings~

that's girl-girl sitting in the food bowl

that's sleepy boy-boy munching on "tau geys"

still munching~

that's my pretty girl-girl

jie's back from aussie. loads of cadbury's (which are not available in singapore) and tim tams. oh gosh... its gonna be so fattening...

aniwae, i managed to close another auction sale on my yahoo auctions site! had a deal with the buyer yesterday evening. sold my adidas green army-looking bag... haha.. at $50.. yippie! second transaction closed! so happie... dear sweet enuff to accompany me to meet the buyer when he was already so tired after school...

submitted my 3rd individual assignment todae. another one crossed out of my list. phew~ the kind of relief can't be described when i threw the report into the submission box...

i am officially down with sore throat. going from bad to worse... haiz... its been painful all day todae... arrgghh!!

ta-ta...