my last post was exactly one week ago... been really busy meeting deadlines for assignments that i dun have the time to blog. never really had a good sleep too. been staying up late to finish things up...
things have not been going my way lately... been stressful at school, been physically tired, and emotionally drained as well...
constant conflicts arising within the project group. while certain close friends will take comments in their stride and we still remain as good friends, its harder to talk to those who are not so close. its so hard to want to talk to a person about them doing their part in the wrong track, but yet on the other hand, not wanting to hurt their feelings. so lose a friend or make an enemy? wad's ur view?
had my last lecture of the semester todae. it was ok though i was dreaming. my heart was feeling so heavy. so many things inside of me. and the worst thing is, there's no one to pour it out. alicia: u know i nearly wanted to go and find you after my lecture?!! but i had to come home coz i had project to do. i know u are proudly on leave till next week, which i am so envious about...
i heard on class 95's love songs that "faults are thick while love is thin" isn't that true in every relationship? you tend to see the bad about your partner, but the good, you'll never appreciate? sometimes even taking for granted their presence in your life. maybe some ppl in love will feel that its not necessary to appreciate your special someone for being in your life, or for doing things for you, becoz they love you, even if its juz the simplest thing, you feel that its their duty to do so. however, i still think that people need to be motivated (sounds like a sentence from management thought and hrm lectures). everyone loves praises which are good to the ears. but how far would you go to make your partner happy? how often do you show your gestures of love? human beings are filled with hatred, including me as well. more often than not, we tend to hate ppl more than we like ppl. same theory applies to relationships... when your partner makes a mistake, its the biggest fault, the unforgivable, most sinful, the worst mistake! but when your partner showered you with gifts, love, affection and sweet nothings, did you think that way? mistakes are so easy to spot, but love is so easy to ruin. class 95 also mentioned another quote, "love is selfless". to me it is only true to a certain extent. i dunno wad made me write this long huge chunk of rubbish theory on love and hate. but it made me think on the way back home after lecture when i was listening to class 95's love songs. and all the songs seem to make my heart bleed. then came the bus which had too many people which left me stranded at the bus stop which seemed like forever.
i can't wait for everything to be over so that i can get out of singapore for a breather. things over here are sad and blue.
hopefully tomorrow would be a better day.
please guide me thru my way.
I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone.
And I'm still here alone.
Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.
It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
I never should have trusted you.
I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven's gone away.
And I'm out in the cold.
Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,
I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
i'll blog some other time when i have the energy, time and strength. back to projects for now...
ta-ta...
