The Other Half

had part 1 done on thursday. got a mould impression of my set of teeth sent to the lab. and i'll get my new crown next saturday. and so, this is how i look now. with imperfect teeth.

but he still loves me perfectly.

my siamese twin.

i'm still on retainers, and i can't wait till the day i get them off my daily life.

hopefully everything goes well.

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Rain Rain Go Away...

why does it keep pouring?

my day was like the weather. damn bad and cold. i had loads on my mind. and all it took was just more insensitive and irresponsible people to make it worst.

i was disgustingly irritated by the working adults. and i'm so ashamed i'm soon-to-be one of them. they would do anything, which includes pushing fellow commuters with their bags, step on my slippers leaving it half a meter away, without a word of apologizing and then sprinting off for their train. if they are so blardy late, i dun see why they can't make it a point to wake up early. okay fine, its juz one of those days you may say. but not even a "sorry"? and i can say, out of these people, at least 8 out of 10 are at least holding diplomas and above, educated and all, tugging coach and burberry handbags with suits, but no sense of humanity in them. then it dawned on me that interviews are nothing but cheap trick.

it utterly spoilt my morning.

then this...

blistering barnacles.

my blister got worst todae. can hardly write during lecture. super ultra painful when i took my shower. you can pronounce me dead.

came third spoiler, i don't even wish to mention it.

and when i got home. the stray cat did this again.

yes, again. always. i hate stray cats. i wun say i like them. but if they don't come bother me, i won't. but lately, there seems to be a huge increase in the amount of strays becoz the neighbours keep feeding it lar. and so, they keep reproducing. tsk. its really not good in the long term, if you cat lovers can see my point. if not, then its ok. we aren't looking on the same line aniwae. its juz irritating. my maid has to clean up this kind of mess every other day.

went to the doctor's todae for my review, cheaper this time, cut a little medicine. but still, blew $119. and tomorrow, i've fixed my appointment to correct my teeth! its gonna be an empress crown. heh. i'm royalty okay. haa. all it takes is 2 sessions. by next saturday, i would be :D

everytime you hold me
hold me like this is the last time
love me like you'll never see me again

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What Lies Ahead?

dear left my place near midnite yesterdae. borrowed my printer for printing his oh-so THICK report. poor him, has been so busy with his FYP he hardly has any time for anything. not even sleeping. i know nuts about engineering stuff, i can only juz help him juz a mere bit. why does it have to be so cheem? it makes them look smarter? haa. i dun understand a single thing he wrote in the whole report. its so 56%79830239%-4563[8573x484] kind of thing.

we haven't been spending dating time together except with the existence of books. its either i'm busy or he's busy. but we'll~ its good to have a partner i can study or do assignments with.

aniwae, its week 10 into the semester. and by week 14, it will be known as game over. my whole life of studying would come to an end, and i'll be welcoming the final exams with open arms. coming to think of it, i'm not at least a bit excited. working means i would not get "free allowance", i can't skip school, i can't sleep in late on certain weekdays, i can't have half-days, i might have a bossy boss, plus increased responsibilities. though it really means, more money, freedom, and building better lives ahead.

i'm happy for dear that his career's bright even though he's not officially graduated. shan't unveil the details since he wants to keep it private.

and last nite, i'm happy, becoz i know that i'm a part of his future :)

and wah lao lor, my tunmy hasn't been good. i've been having a hard time in the toilet. "toileted" twice within 30 mins. like how good is that?

ali: do take care of yourself . everything's gonna be alright :)

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New!

got a shock?

haa. i'm so happie i customized my very own blogger header. not so much of customize, but it took me really some time to get it perfectly resized. wanted to get it done long ago, it was juz left at the back of my mind.

aniwaes, they're our couple slippers. took during our trip to sentosa. i made it black and white, simply lurve it. and i still have many other versions.

can't wait for my dental appointment on saturday :D

gotta go!

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Why Does It Always Rain On Me?

he's the only one who needs me now.

ain't he adorable?

yep. my darling tubby. but poor him. notice the wart on his left eye? the vet says its better not to put him through anesthetic to remove it just in case we lose him. but he's still as active and playful.

aniwae, i went home todae after school just to spend time with him.

he likes to sit in his food bowl. i dunno why either. haa. cutie.

looking for his favourite almond.

found!

and got it out of the food bowl.

after lunch wipe.

i gave him a treat after that. i let him choose what he wanted to eat. and he went into the bottle to choose. i was so afraid he wasn't gonna come out. he took so long.

and made a mess la.

plus, its been raining so hard, its been so cold. and i've been have been feeling so ultra-tired, i have no idea why. i juz keep sleeping and sleeping, and no matter how much rest i take, i still feel tired and my migraine still comes back every now and then. i slept at 1030 last nite! beat that! who sleeps at 1030 now? and still, todae, i woke up late, took a train late, didn't get my "good seat" but i still slept on the train, hoping my destination reaches tomorrow.

and when i finally got over lecture, i slept again on the train, on my way home.

seriously, wads wrong with me?

now, i feel like napping again. juz an hour after lunch.

it muz be the rain i reckon.

grace: thanks for asking about pixie. i guess many people read my blog, but i guess they simply juz come and go. i don't need to tell you much, you know how i feel. you're a gem, and of coz, my bestie :)

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Leaping

since today only comes every 4 years, i'd thot i'd make a mark by blogging.

i've since been healing from the passing away of pixie. fantasia's you are always on my mind never fails to makes me think of her and cry. and though the sight of tubby still reminds me of her presence, but in my heart, she'll always bring me beautifully-naughty memories as my hungry little mouse.

still, life goes on...

submitted my second report today. two loads off the shoulders. i hope the sem goes well.

and the leap day seems to bring good news coz mummy booked my dental appointment even without me knowing (i was supposed to have my retainers routine check due only somewhere in june). but she made an appointment for me next week with my dentist for a review, to have my chipped crown changed (i had my crown fixed years ago, but it got chipped, so even though i had my braces fixed, its lacking something). its more of cosmetic really. and this is gonna cost her an approx $600. juz for a mere tooth. and so, i'm on my way to 100% perfect teeth. mummy told me that this a gift that's really practical for me, just before i graduate.

thanks for the confidence mummy. i'm not exceptionally pretty, ain't got double eyelids, not bootylicious, no big boobies or dimples or super powerful brains, but i'm very very blessed with wonderful, supportive parents.

dearie has been too busy with his FYP to meet me, but i'm still glad he makes time for me on the communication lines :D

wanna catch the leap years cause glenn recommended it on 95. plus, i used to read catherine lim's books when i was in my teens. i guess its not a bad show? but i saw the reviews given it was only like 2 out of 5 stars. oh well~ semi pro seems good too :D but i dun even know if i have the time.

tubby's vet appointment's tomorrow. bringing him for a check since he's got a little lump on his eye. juz like our morning eye shit, or bak sai like we call it. he's still as active as ever. and i hope he's really fine. i hope its not the age thing. though i know every living thing has to go sooner or later, but i can't take 2 blows at a time.

added quite a bit of new songs on my playlist. and i simply lurve bleeding love by leona lewis, kylie's how does it feel and alicia keys mtv is simply so touching. go watch the music video. you'd really learn to cherish the one you love. plus, old songs include bon jovi's.

enjoy~

next submission's on tuesday. i can't wait.

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Pixie [03 September 2006 - 26 February 2006]

you left me suddenly today.
your last squeak was so weak, i could hardly hear.
i know you have been a fighter.
i know you were suffering.
maybe it was better for you to go.
now that you are gone,
your presence will always linger in my memory.

pixie left me after dinner today. approximately after 8, right after her last feed. i brought her to the vet today which diagnosed that she had a tumor and an infection due to old age. she had an antibiotics jab and is due for a review on sunday, and an operation a week later. appointments are all made, and i was sure she could get well.

but she grew weaker by nite. can't even walk or move. refused to eat, which broke my heart. tubby came and stroked her, but she can't seem to respond either.

i couldn't hold back my tears. she gave me so much memories.

2 days after she was brought home.

new cage with tubby.

my greedy mouse.

pre-pregnancy.

the protective mother.

post-pregnancy. quarantine from tubby.

after pregnancy.

approx 1 year old.

sleepyhead.

kenna caught.

pixie, mummy will always love you.

dear: thank you for being here with me through this very emotional and rough period which i had to go through. you know how much she meant to me. thank you for putting aside your work and accompanying me to the vet even though you are so very busy, for helping me feed pixie medicine, for digging the soil for pixie's burial, for catching my falling tears and for giving me warm, comforting hugs.

its been a long day.

Happy Stuff

i haven't been back to blog because i've been thinking about my previous entry. it juz literally made me "moodless". but aniwae, i shan't go there. some things juz ain't worth the time.

happy things have been happening here at home.

mummy turned 53 yesterday. we went to marche to celebrate on saturday. and i bot her a cake from bakerzin at a discounted price (thanks to ck :D). oh, and it was yummy.

my super wonderful parents.

done.

while waiting for my parents before dinner. he's looking elsewhere #$%&*?...

at marche.

and while dearie and me where busy with our research and projects at the NLB, we spotted this girl (which i think she's not local. i dunno. the look bah.) aniwae, she's sleeping on the sofa!

and later, decided to go for the other sofa, maybe coz it was larger.

she really made herself comfy. a librarian later came to tell her that she can't sleep in the library. but she sat up and continued to do so. such ugly attitude.

and with happier things, now i can watch tv on my lappy! thanks the 2 men in my life. daddy fixed the tv cable this morning... like finally lor! haha. and dearie who went to great lengths to research and find my tv antenna for me so that i can have a tv in my room, without literally buying a tv.

plus, one project submission todae :) makes a load lighter.

i am counting my blessings. those around me and those who love me. plus 2 bonus stars in my life, ali and grace, for the quiet, yet strong friendship. simply because, some people just take you for granted.

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Special You

i've been busy chasing time. schoolwork's piled way up high. and my other free time's spent either catching up with dearie or sleeping. our dates are all either in libraries or starbucks, researching or drafting reports.

still, time is never enough. and i can't never sleep enough.

i wasn't very happie todae. thank goodness there's always my man there to give me his views. i know he's right. older, not much, but i know he's wiser. plus, he's a guy. girls are a whole load more troublesome.

dearie: you've been my greatest source of support and encouragement. thank goodness you're always there, every night without fail, asking me about my day. i feel better talking to you. really, i can never ask for more. because little things like this mean so much, more than tiffanys and guccis. love you.

happie thing is, i realised my waist size dropped another 2 inches when i went to buy bottoms todae :D

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Busyyyy

I CLOSED ANOTHER DEAL TODAY!

super happy to have dinner at home today :D finally.

i'm real busy. so i'll be back another day.

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Valentine's 08

no candlelit dinner, no red roses, no flowers, no chocolates.
but there's super good tze char i simply adore. and by the way, its not that my boyfriend is stingy or a scrooge. i requested for the venue (lau pa sat) and the food as well. cheap and good.

dear felt that it was too off for valentine's day. but i liked it :)

our feast

and down by the singapore river after dinner to digest our dinner. knowing me, canon is always by my side. and i started snapping.

and being a practical couple as we are, we got practical stuff. no huge balloons or teddy bears. i got him his issey miyake.

and he got me this....

(took this pic later at home)

adidas originals sweater. wah. super love it lor. its not cheap :D and its gonna keep me warm in lectures now.

by dear

we went to river angbao!

me = zhu.

through the esplanade hallway...

haahaa... smoking rat!

and more....

and the whole wall was somewhat like this for the whole hallway.

at the esplanade...

snort at u ar! look elsewhere. hmph.

see wad see?

loves.

dear: its our 8th valentine's day together. sorry i haven't had the time to make handmade cards anymore like i used to. life has been so hectic with school lately and i know you are just as busy as well. i'm very glad that you are here to share my every phase of my life with me. and through it all, we have grown so much together. from school day reports, tests and exams, we are now talking about careers and jobs and i'm so glad to have you to turn to for advice constantly. its not just about love, but you being my soulmate and partner. someone whom i know i can depend on.

its not how much you spend on valentine's day. it doesn't matter :)

love you darling. more each day. appreciate your gift.

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Lost

Can’t believe it’s over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow, it turned to rain
Then the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And God I hope it’s not too late
It’s not too late

Coz you are not alone
I’m always there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
So when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe you’re not lost

When your world’s crashin’ down
And you can’t bear the thought
I said, babe you’re not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy
But you’re not
Though things have seemed to changed
There’s one thing that’s still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly, fly, fly away

Coz you are not alone and I am there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through so
When you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won and
Babe you’re not lost
And your world crashing down
And you can’t bear the thought
I said, baby you’re not lost

7 Years 3 Months

dear: thank you for the cute little bear bear stickers that simply made my day. i've got them on my mobile and lappy :D

loving you not only allows me to be myself. you bring out the best in me.

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Ramen Ten

went to the mall with my parents for CNY shopping todae. basically, i'm there to carry stuff.

we wanted a break, so we decided on KFC.

and there was this guy who said to us at KFC "why u all wanna eat here? eat at my restaurant."

we turned and looked. shocked all of us la. haa. its my cousin larrrr.

and so, i asked him and his wife why they ate at KFC instead of their restaurant. they wanted change apparently. hee.

its my first time there. but i love it. the ambience was lovely.

red chandeliers

all of them are nice. mine's the one with the float. mummy seems delighted.

kiwi.bluelime.mango.strawberry.

guess wad she's doing?

she's busy poking the cherry in her drink.

now she looks like she's in shock.

luo and me.

super love the red sofas, wallpapers and chandeliers.

i din take any pics of the food becos we were busy catching up and talking. but really, the food's good and its halal. go try it. 4 outlets in singapore, ang mo kio, century square, harbour front and far east plaza.

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Moodless For School

thot i'd juz come by since dear's scavaging for food at this time of the day. haa. he's a hungry little kid and he's been at it for quite some time and i really wonder what he's feasting on.

i'm back wearing dearie's ring on my finger. for the past few weeks that it has been around my neck, i felt so lost though its so close to me. yeah, its weird. but i guess, its oredi been a part of me through the years.

CNY's around the corner. seriously, i don't really have the mood to do any project or wadsoeva. but school's been revolving faster than i thot it would be this semester. and jobs are harder to apply than it would have been. sighz.

went CNY shopping with my parents juz now. oh gosh. carpark's full, supermarket is horrid. everywhere's like packed packed packed.

i'm really not in the mood for school. shittos :(

the person who always stays till the wee hours of the nite with me, listens to my nonsense, lets me sleep on his lap, tolerates my crazy love for ah fat, listens to class 95 like i do, borrows books for me, doesn't mind my retainers at the table, carries me on his back, and gives me unlimited love and hugs :D

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