Missing You...

been searching for the perfect blogskin again. but nothing caught my attention. most of the blogskins have multiple scrolls. which juz irritates me. hate it to the core. and some of the designers juz put some silly pictures... haiz.. i can't bring myself to change my blogskin. i think its simple and nice.. and i added a music video in my blog! its the Love Actually soundtrack! love the part around 2 mins 27 seconds.. where he showed "juliet" the card "To Me You're Perfect"... awwww! how many guys will tell u that? and love u for who u are? they would say u are this and you are that... and want u to change this and change that.... it's juz so perfect in the movies.... juz love it so much... its still my favourite show till now... too bad dear didn't wanna watch it with me.. hmph!

mummy went to choose a new maid todae... she's coming on the 11th of march.. then maribel is going home liao.. the new maid is married. wondered why mummy wanted a married one. coz she always take singles.. but aniwae, its not up to me to decide... i met mummy after she choose her maid.. daddy fetched us to TM... went shopping... bought new year clothes.. then went to lee hwa jewellery to clean my earrings and give my diamond necklace a fresh polish.. its so glittering now... yay! met my elder sis coz she's on leave too... then shopped abit... went to get some new year stuff too... then daddy came to pick us up...

dear told me last nite "i got something to tell u" i was horrified.. dunno wad he was going to tell me again. he told me "i miss you, so long never see u oredi..." my heart melted.. tried very hard not to be excited.. hehe.. in fact, i was overjoyed.. over the moon.. and overwhelmed!!!

poor dear has to work OT todae again... he's been working OT for 2 or 3 days liao.. guess he muz be really tired.. its the 10th day since i saw him.. i miss him too.. but there's nothing i can do. thot wanna pay him a surprise visit. but he's always working OT. even if he does not, he would be back only around 7 plus. by that time, its oredi time for me to go home. coz it takes me 2 hours to travel... oh well~ hopefully i can see him on friday...

take care dear... till then...

ta-ta...

Poor Dear...

was supposed to blog yesterday, but was looking for the whole night for a new blogskin. can't seem to find something nice and suitable...

went to jiayi's house to play with her shih tzu! her name is Fendi! so happie.. i love dogs.. and it was so heartbreaking to see her sad when we was about to leave... afterwhich, went out with jiayi, jan and velly yesterday. head quite a lot of fun. its been a long time since we all went out together. and we saw jeanette aw and adam chen at city hall.. wow.. she's really pretty...

todae, went back to school to do my online test... glad that i've settled it liao... got 16/20.. hehe.. wanted to aim for full marks.. but haiz.. nvm.. i tink its good enuff liao...

dear is the most poor thing one... haf to work OT for almost everydae.. and he's not exactly feeling well.. and he might have to work on this public holiday and sunday... and till now he's still working... dunno wad time he will be back... so poor thing... somehow, i miss him too.. i haven't seen him for quite some time... its been 9 days oredi.. and i'm gonna see him only on either friday or saturday...
deep down, i knoe that i treasure him alot.

Especially for Dear...

its the little things that we learn to treasure along the way,
the little time we spent together, is worth so much...
the love we share,
is not something that other people can understand...
its the bond between us,
makes us want each other more...
the bad that people can see,
i can only see the good...
it seems that you fit so perfectly into my imperfect life...
you showered me with unlimited supply of love,
stood by me thru the bad times,
wiping my tears away,
you were always there,
holding my hand,
walking with me,
this long and rocky road,
telling me that,
everything is gonna be alrite...
you always made me feel like the princess of your castle...
and would try your best to get me what I want...
i'm thankful for having you in my life,
because, without you,
i'll be nothing....

Created by Jul, with love...

Mid - Semester Tests...

i haven't been blogging for quite some time liao... been busy for the past few weeks... rushing reports, journals, write-ups, projects and presentations... finally all these has come to an end. but it is only juz the beginning... mid-semester test is on monday... so here i am stuck at home on a saturday... gotta study ma.. so i have to forgo dear for a week... aniwae, studies comes first... nothing else is more impt than that.. hee.. seems that his only competitor is my studies.. but oh well~ there's nothing he can do...

i haven't started studying... gonna finish this blog and start studying.. dunno why i juz feel like blogging....

dear is at ck's house playing mahjong.. guess he muz be really happie and having the time of his life.. though i dun like mahjong... but i guess, since he likes it, then let him do wad he wants la. why make myself troubled over him rite? aniwae, so long as he happie can liao... its his off day aniwae.. after working hard for 5 days.. i guess its the only reward that he has... oh ya! he promised to get me a bear bear if he won! hahaha... but i still like the light pink muji bag i saw yesterday. its love at first sight again. i wonder how i am gonna get over it... and its so shitty expensive.. its like $89! haiz.. and no brand! no one will noe its from muji.. juz like wad liang said..

glad that there is no attachment for 2 weeks.... (^_^) yay! no formal wear! sick of wearing formal... and those heels.... haiyo.. i guess, i'm juz not womanly enuff.. i prefer my havanias, or sneakers or slip-ons... heels juz make me unhappie..

okie.. better get back to my books.. i'll be free on mondae! 10am! looking forward! till then....

ta-ta....

It's Mid-Week....

todae is wednesday liao.. soon, mid semester tests will be here.. reports are due next week.. things are happening so fast...

waiting to leave my house to go mit dear... coz i clumsily left my wallet and ezlink card wif him when we went out on sunday... haiz.. silly me... and i didn't have $ for the whole week.. plus my NETS! such an impt thing... luckily tomorrow got no school... coz no more club & resort lecture...

wonder how dear is feeling.. he hasn't been feeling well for the past few days... dunno why... fatigue maybe...

nothing much to blog.. supposed to do my work but i'm so tired and sian... will do tonite or tomorrow bah? since i got no school.. hahaha....

sianz oredi...

ta-ta...

Happie 53rd Month!

happie 53rd month dear... knoe u for so long liao... 4 years and 4 months... from best friends, we became lovers.. missed those days where i'm not urs and u are not mine. and we keep on guessing whether we like each other or not. and i always try to dig information from you to noe wad time u off sch... hehe.. then we would talk on the phone for hours.. like there's no tomorrow... then i would always tell u all my problems... i muz say, i look forward to talk to you everyday and would call u straight after i come home. u were still in poly that time and i would always wait for u to reach home when u had lectures... i would always wait for u online... and i still am.... waiting till the day you buy your laptop... and come online and say hi to me... thanks for staying by my side thru all my ups and downs... we went thru alot to be together... i'll always treasure the times we spend together. people might not know u well and think that u are boring and unfriendly... but deep down in my heart.. u are the one that makes me laugh and brighten my day. i'm thankful that god gave me such a wonderful gift....

"how was ur work todae dear?" have yet to have a chance talk to you but i'm sure u did well.. looking forward to hear your story... hope things are smooth sailing at ur side...

by the way, my new year resolution is not to quarrel wif dear over mahjong. i hope i can do it. though i juz can't help hating it...

ta-ta...

Cold & Cosy...

its been raining alot lately.. not to mention that i dun see the sun that often now... so cold... it has been raining for the whole day oredi... juz had a hot bath after dear left my house.. and now, i'm sitting in front of my laptop blogging. feeling cosy wif my pink blanket covering my legs... so cold~

aniwae, i spent the whole day wif dear todae. frm morning till nite... met up for breakfast, then went to buy dear's stuff for work... dear spoilt me by spending $ to watch "meet the fockers" wif me... been wanting to catch the movie but didn't since we wanted to save $. we catched "kung fu hustle" on fridae and told ourselves that we shouldn't spend $ on movies since we are not very well-off now.. though dear's gonna start work tomorrow.. but we should save.. since dear is going to NTU in june-july.... but i'm very happie... he made me feel so loved and so lucky.. like... erm... a princess.... heehee.. i might sound silly... but i'm feeling blissful... even after 4 years of relationship....

juz to update.. my guppies are doing fine... and i'm glad.. dear came over for dinner at my house todae and took a look at them.... hee....

before i end, dear, good luck on ur first day at work tomorrow! jia you! i'll be right behind u supporting u...

ta-ta...

Happie New Year... It's 2005!

happie new year everyone.... brand new year... but school haf oredi started long ago... monday is coming soon.. haiz....

hmm.. aniwae, something to tok abt... dear's daddy gave me guppies! alot sia... and then i moved my current orange fish to the smaller tank and filled the big one wif guppies... the huge orange fish is protesting.. kept kicking water... naughty! aniwae, there is a pregnant guppie.. so cute.. and they are so colourful! i am so happie! hehehe....

lastly.. in this new year, i hope that dear's job goes smoothly, hope dear is always in the pink of health and hope that he is always happie...

ta-ta....

Bored....

haven't been blogging for a few days... busy wif schoolwork, attachment, projects... sian... now in school lab waiting for the time to pass.. now only 1.25... muz wait till 3.15.. haiz...

juz finished my comm skills online. glad that this fridae got no school... (^_^)

i did an interview todae at work! wif jan and yuyun.. it was a nice experience.. hahaha... it was my first time interviewing people... she lady was a single, 36 year old.. she was quite nice... but got low qualifications... its hard to get jobs these days.... hmm..

actually nothing much to blog oso...

ta-ta...

Can You Feel The Tension??

can u feel it? projects and reports are going to be due. and afterwhich it would be our mid-semester tests... FAST system is indeed too F-A-S-T.... hope this friday i got no school. but no gurantees... haha...

quite sian and tired todae. dunno why. and i gotta sore throat! arrgghh.... gonna rain soon... feel like sleeping. but after i blog i have to get on wif my peer teaching notes and carry on wif my communication skills...

jul jul is waiting for dear to reach home.... miss ya...

ta-ta...

Bought My MP3 Player!

i bought my creative muvo 5GB white darling liao! had it wif me 3 days ago but was too busy to blog. of course, it was kindly sponsored by my dearest mummy! hehehe.. its a matching gadget to my darling laptop too... hee... wanted to get the zen micro but i didn't like it long enuff... my love for i faded after while. hehehe... i love this mp3! yay! so happie....

didn't meet dear todae coz we met for 2 days in a row liao.. plus both of us are not working. so we haf to scrimp.... aniwae, i oso got my project to complete. so i guess its a good idea. aniwae, i can see him whenever i want coz he's not in the army anymore..

hmm... aniwae, gotta go call dear oredi. blog some other time.

ta-ta...

Thank God I Found You - Mariah Carey

this is song is dedicated to dear... its been on my blog for a long time and the meaning is obvious. juz wanna say thank you dear for the wonderful 4 years that you have given me. we have had our fights and unhappiness, but we stayed and hang on.. coz of one reason, we love each other deeply. i've never regretted being with you and i guess god gave me the best thing when he gave me to you. i am not your perfect or ideal girlfriend, and i can't love you the way you wished i could. all i can give you is my faithful heart which will love you till the day you stop loving me....

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate
Myself from you
After so much suffering
To finally find unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subsideI felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Coz baby I'm so thankful I found you

I will give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
Don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Coz I need you in my life

See I was desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain, to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And i'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Congratulations!

dear! congrats on getting a job! finally! after tons of interviews, you finally made it! so happie for you... meanwhile, before you start work, hope u enjoy yourself to the fullest....

dear's away... he's at kranji fishing.. wif bryan... so nice.. how i wish i could be there. but i juz came back from school. kinda tired though. todae was quite a fruitful dae... our group's FILA was good and our tutor said that we had work of substance. happie! so glad....

gonna have my second week of attachment tomorrow. feel excited but oso worried. worried that i make mistakes and i can't do the job well...

gonna get my mp3 soon.. as soon as my ERS arrives! everyone says i'm crazy about it. haha. i am! wanted a zen micro but decided not to coz of the price and hard disk. coz if drop on the floor, then that's it! $529 on the floor! so i decided to get the creative MuvO FM.. i guess that's better. coz the functions are somewhat the same. like, both are 5 GB, both has radio. except that zen micro is more pretty and has a little more functions like organizer etc. but MuvO only costs $449. compared to the $529. so i guess, i shall settle for the 2nd best.. aniwae, i think i'm beginning to fall in love with the MuvO. hahaha....

haiz... i hate to end this blog, coz it means that i have to start my research! arrgghh! aniwae, all good things come to an end... so wif this, i end here now...

ta-ta....

Say A Little Prayer For You...

going 2005 liao... dear haven't got a job yet...i'm kinda worried for him... dear's gonna haf an interview tomorrow. hope things turn out well.. i'm gonna pray for u dear. i'd rather haf tough times with you then good times with anyone else. i'll be wif u thru this tough period. i believe we can get thru it.

haven't been blogging for quite some time. so here's my activities for the past few days...

went fishing at changi wif dear and his friends. it was a total flop! no fish! nothing! bad fishing site.. strong winds.... dear gave his birthdae treat. kinda expensive i thot... but no choice.... thereafter dear's fren sent me home. felt bad coz its always me. i live in the exact opposite direction. i dun like to trouble ppl. i'd rather go home myself.. even when dear wants to send me home, i oso dun like to trouble him. haiz....

did practically nothing on sunday. juz spent it wif dear at his house. watch tv and slack. save $ ma...

came home around 5 plus todae. research taking up alot of time. quite tired and sian..... haiz... kinda miss dear.. but its mondae! haha.. nvm... guess work will keep me company for now....

ta-ta...

Heavy Heart.. Heavy Thoughts...

waiting to go to school. feel a little uneasy. felt like blogging to write my thoughts down... woke up thinking about what happened last nite. i'm so tired physically... so much work to do.. these few days have been sleeping right when i lie on bed. i'm so exhausted. and my relationship hasn't made it any easier for me.

gonna meet dear todae. supposed to be very happie. but in fact, i'm feeling lost and uneasy. i dunno why. coz he was supposed to mit his army frens todae. but stoopid me go and ask him out coz i thot i end school early... and i had no idea that he had an appointment. we had a little quarrel about it. in the end he cancelled his appointment wif his frens which did not make me feel any better. it made me felt worst. and since he cancelled it, if i dun mit him, it would be so bad rite? i dunno how to react.

we toked about many things last nite. our personalities, the different ways that we are brought up. its hard to keep the relationship going. my family is the "no u can't stayover", "no u can't go out late" type. my parents have been very strict wif me since i was young and i dun like to upset my parents, especially my mummy. coz i love my mummy alot. i always keep her updated of my whereabouts so that she would not worry about me if its late. its very hard. i dun wanna make things difficult for him. everytime we go out late, i'll feel bad, coz its becoz of me that he has to leave early to send me home, even if i insist that he dun send me home.

tmr is dear's birthdae dinner treat wif his close frens. he wants to hold it in the east so that it would be easier for me to go home. but i dun want coz all his friends stays in the west. i feel bad if he does that. its so hard. i noe i haven't been a good girlfriend.. i dunno... if i see god one dae, i would ask him to change my personality to what dear likes and if god tells me that he can't do that, i would tell god to make him fall in love with someone else. i feel so bad, sorry and i juz can't explain how it feels.

it seems like a long day ahead.... so vague.... the weather's bad.... my heart's feeling rotten.....

I Hate Mahjong!

mahjong has strained my relationship wif dear... it has caused us so much trouble, pain, anger and tears... we dun have this problem in the past and now, its becoming a part of our life and putting me and dear apart. its so funny how a game can make us become at loggerheads wif each other. but it definitely brought me down to tears... if i know the person who invented mahjong, i would shoot him! right in the brain! even if i had to go to jail or pay a death sentence...

i dun understand the importance of mahjong. i only know that it spoilt my relationship over and over, time and again. people might think that i'm stoopid and dear might think so too.. but to me, mahjong is never important. it has never stood a place in my life and my piority is always the relationship that i treasure.

once again... i hate mahjong!

ta-ta....

Finally The Weekend Is Here!

haven't been blogging recently for the past few days... been busy wif sch... getting used to the new timetable, new subjects, attachments, projects and reports... so sian... so glad that its saturdae todae... finally can see dear... miss him so much... looking forward to spending time wif him..

waiting for dear to come and pick me up.. we are going to the library.. have to return my books that i borrowed.. maybe sit there and read for a while.. hmmm.....

daddy gave dear and "ang pow" for his birthdae... so nice rite? hehe.. how much inside i wun say! gotta ask dear yourself!

that's it for now...

ta-ta...

Year 2 Semester 2...

was quite tired yesterdae, got home at 6 plus... so didn't blog in the end...

yesterday was the beginning of the new term for me... and another semester of new challenges. was quite happie to get selected for attachment with kelly services.. seems like something new and something interesting. but it also means that i have to work and study at the same time. hmm...

aniwae, dear has good news too.. he got an interview at carrefour todae. hope he gets the job... he so poor thing... gd luck dear...

now at home wif my laptop... waiting to go to school... juz for a 1 hour lecture.... so sian.. hee.. but its travel and leisure! so i guess i'm looking forward to this new subject. seems intersting to me. hope the lecture is good...

ta-ta...

Happie 52nd Month!

dear and me talked things out. we had a really long talk last nite... we are alrite now... as usual.. kiss and make up after a fight rite? aniwae, todae is our 52nd month... of friendship.. hehe... i knew dear for 3 months as friends before going steady and being his gal.. dat means we noe each other for 4 years and 4 months liao... hee... this guy ar... on the whole, he's very dependable, keeps his promises to his friends, loves brotherhood and cherishes them, doesn't make a girl pay, doesn't like me to go home myself, gives me surprises at unexpected times, dotes on me alot, dear believes that there is only one girl for him, no matter how good the others are (heehee)... but he's insensitive at times, muz be patient when dealing wif him, coz he's not the normal romantic kind of guy, he doesn't know how to coax a girl and when being wif him muz have alot of trust in him, he doesn't like to explain himself and believes that his gal should noe him best, doesn't talk much, but is a good listener, dun provoke him or else, when he's furious wif u, he would be on fire! but the most important thing is that, this guy is mine! and he loves me.. hahaha.. too bad for girls out there... heehee....

spent the whole dae wif dear todae.. very happie! though we did nothing but slack the whole dae at home... hee..

lastly, happie 52nd month dear, thanks for being that best friend always, the friend that i can trust and depend on... you are a wonderful boyfriend...

ta-ta

Stepped On His Tail...

been arguing wif dear for 2 days oredi. dunno wads wrong. we make up and then manage to find another thing to quarrel about... its nothing to an old 4 year couple like us. we haf been thru thousands of quarrels... and aniwae, which couple dun quarrel? its juz dat.. maybe i stepped on his tail and he stepped on mine.. somehow, i am glad that sch is going to reopen soon. hope that things would be better by then, since i would be busier.. i guess it would be good for us. we both think differently and it somehow makes our thinking clash and thus, its like neither here nor there. on the whole, he's a nice guy, but a little insensitive to how i feel, or how all girls feel... i guess, maybe i should have a new year resolution soon.. to depend more on myself....

we'll be going to alicia's 21st birthdae party on saturdae. i hope he's comfortable. hate to see him struggling... hope he's really alrite....

ta-ta...

Singapore Idol Nite!

taufik rocks. pls vote for him!

dun let some ah beng win and imagine him on world idol! wad a disgrace to the country!

ta-ta..