Hayden's First Month

these pics are long overdue. i've been so busy with work lately. but still, managed to take some time off to attend hayden's first month, and meet up with my besties (put off since last year :P).

this is hayden.

the happy family.

us.

in hayden's room.

dinner at bakerzin. i think ali looks fabulous after her marriage :)

gift from hayden.

tomorrow's monday again. busy with work, yet again. boss keeps smsing. check hp, check email. well, if you gotta do it, you gotta do it. the economy is so bad now. watching news, reading papers, retrenchments, wage cuts, reforms. are everywhere.

sigh.

7 Things No One Tells You About Marriage

i read this off yahoo! personals. and i think its so damn interesting.

1. You will look at the person lying next to you and wonder, Is this it? Forever?

When you get married, you think that as long as you pick the right guy -- your soul mate -- you'll be happy together until death do you part. Then you wake up one day and realize that no matter how great he is, he doesn't make you happy every moment of every day. In fact, some days you might wonder why you were in such a hurry to get married in the first place. You think to yourself, "This is so not what I signed up for."

Actually, it is. You just didn't realize it the day you and your guy were cramming wedding cake into each other's faces, clinking champagne glasses, and dancing the Electric Slide. Back then you had no idea that "for better and for worse" doesn't kick in only when life hands you a tragedy. Your relationship mettle is, in fact, most tested on a daily basis, when the utter sameness of day-in/day-out togetherness can sometimes make you want to run for the hills. That's when the disappointment sneaks in, and maybe even a palpable sense of loneliness and grief.

2. You'll Work Harder Than You'll Ever Imagined

Early on, when people say, "Marriage takes work," you assume "work" means being patient when he forgets to put down the toilet seat. In your naivete, you think that you will struggle to accommodate some annoying habit, like persistent knuckle cracking or flatulence.
If only it were that easy. Human beings, you may have noticed, are not simple creatures. Your man has mysterious, unplumbed depths -- and from where he sits, you're pretty complicated, too.

3. You Will Sometimes Go To Bed Mad (and maybe wake up even madder)

Whoever decided to tell newlyweds "Never go to bed angry" doesn't know what it's like inside a bedroom where tears and accusations fly as one spouse talks the other into a woozy stupor until night meets the dawn. If this scenario sounds familiar, I've got three words for you: Sleep on it.
You need to calm down. You need to gain perspective. You need to just give it a rest.

4. Getting Your Way Is Usually Not As Important As Finding A Way To Work Together

Namely, that when it comes to certain disagreements, there is no right or wrong -- there is simply your way of looking at things and your husband's. "There's more gray in life and its taught me patience and the value of compromise."

5. A Great Marriage Doesn't Mean No Conflict. It Simply Means A Couple Keeps Trying To Get It Right

Because when you fight, you don't just raise your voices; you raise real -- sometimes buried -- issues that challenge you to come to a clearer understanding of you, your man, and your relationship. I wouldn't give up our fights for anything in the world, because I know in the end they won't break us; they'll only make us stronger.

6. You Realize That You Can Only Change Yourself

There is a bit of that makeover fantasy in all of us -- something that makes us believe we can change the person we love, make him just a little bit closer to perfect. And you will come to realize, sooner than later if you're lucky, that it is far easier to change the way you respond to him.

7. As You Face Your Fears and Insecurities, You Will Find Out What You Are Really Made Of



interesting? i extracted parts of it only. marriage or not, its just a union of a man and woman. fact is, does love exist to bring you joy or pain?

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009...

2008 seemed like a good year. for many reasons. main ones were:

- dear and i graduated from university
- found my first job (and still at it)
- we crossed our 8th year
- ali got married

aniwae, many things are still left unmentioned. but still the last day of the year was always most memorable cos its mom and dad's wedding anniversary. this year being the 30th. being so busy i got them a cake.

damn yummy.

sadly, i haven't been able to spend the last year of 2008 with dear, or the first of 2009 with him. he's been busy with work and so am i. its either i'm at work or him.

and so... work's keeping us apart.

and i spent the first day of 2009 sleeping till 12noon and waking up with a headache. like how cool is that? went for a swim in the afternoon in hope to shed some weight. haa. i hope.

this was taken in december 2008, just after christmas. outdated la. but he came back from U.S.! like after so long. i din see him since after we left ite. and he still looks the same. still, he was sweet enough to wait for me at my hotel's lobby for 30 minutes while i cleared my work.

my resolutions for 2009?

shed more weight and earn more bucks.

haa.

i'm so tired after my swim :( and i've gotta work tmr.

aniwae, happy 2009 everyone! to those who sms-ed, thank you for the wishes and blessings!

Royal China

saturday was somewhat fulfilling. my day started at 8am, waking up to get back to office to clear some work cos the e-leave software was down. its really tough to get yourself to go back to office on a saturday.

went off at about 12 noon to meet dear. we catched bedtime stories. heee. made me laugh so much. i love bugsy. such cute guinea pig where to find? he had such huge eyes, but so damn cute la.

then came evening where we shopped for zuomin's bundle of joy! hee. baby hayden. and thereafter, went to meet my family for dinner at royal china at raffles hotel. the restaurant damn chio. and jie told me they serve good dim sum in the afternoon. i saw the menu. looks good.

exterior

interior. so chio rite? looks like tiffany & co colour. so pretty.

one of the many dishes. looks pretty eh? its yummy too. prawn with passion fruit.

took this outside the restaurant. oops, i cut off dear's forehead!

we headed to marine barrage thereafter. my first time there. but i think the view is magnificient.

and now, i'm still feeling tired. sunday's over. gotta slog for another week before 2009 comes. and then what happens thereafter?

0_0

sidenote, dear's got me on his desktop. heehee...

toodles!

Merry Christmas!

this year was a different christmas for me. and for most ppl, they've got half day off. but i worked till 6.30pm before going off for my holiday.

dear got off from work early and came to orchard to meet me despite the vast human traffic. we went for spagaddies, shopped a little, and i stayed over at his place.

aniwae, since its christmas, gifts from bosses...

was shocked when i saw bvlgari. aniwae, that's from my director. he bot it all the way from norway. and the sanrio was from my manager.

and inside the sanrio bag, its this! sanrio cushion in my favourite melody!

i've got super nice bosses. hee. and i've got bags of chocolate which i din take pics of. but they are BIG bags! with a christmas bear in it.

hee...

and sidetrack a bit. dear bot me this at ikea, which is sitting at my office desk. we both have one! its growing, and i'm proud of it!

tomorrow is a working day again.

i've been spending 95% on work, and 5% on sleeping. even when i meet dear, we run errands for my job.

its hardly i get to sleep 7 hours. but today, dear and i slept till 12 noon.

SHIOK!

my best sleep ever!

i lurve you baby :)

toddles and happy holidays!

New Video

added another new video.

simply love it.

damn tired today. went home early. couldn't drag another bit of me to stay a little while longer in office.

i did lesser work than usual today. the energizer in me probably died.
i hate the heels and corporate wear.
i hate the grooming standards.

i can't wait for the the weekend to come by again.

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Chapter 8

8 years and a month later...

ah fat and gingi

i got my first LV!

its a day old.

happy.

glad its friday today. i brought work home. but i'm procrastinating. i'm just lazing by my lappy. thinking about tubby. wondering wad the future holds. so many things to think about. everyday i work with an increasing workload, i tell myself that i'd leave as soon as i've got "the experience needed". though it wasn't easy getting bosses recognition and trust on your capability, but its not the nicest place to work either.

its a whole load of mixed feelings.

i can't say i'm unhappy over there. but i'm not exactly really happy as well.

its gonna be full 6 months by january. and then another 6 more months to a year.

argh. i can't wait. for time to pass. QUICK.

a part of me still miss schooling. the days where we start at 9.30am and end at 12noon is just pure bliss. or when you dun feel like going to school, you can always sleep in and forget about even reporting to lectures.

now i work full 11-12 hours.

0_0"

Farewell

goodbye tubby.

he left me without even a hint. just when i thot he was gonna come out and greet me. i was dismayed when i saw him lying motionless in his favourite green space shuttle.

"you were my favourite pet. shy, tender, friendly, and never bitten me before. i loved your black and brown fur. special, just like you."

and today, i'm down with gastric flu. on MC. work has got me down. vomitted my dinner.

glad that tmr is friday.

i need rest and TLC.

toodles.

TGIF

yeah TGIF.

this week went pass in a whizz. i could hardly believe it. these days, i can hardly squeeze out time for anything else except work, work and work.

colleague going on long leave next week and i'm to cover his work. its gonna be real tough and i nearly fell asleep while he was handing over his stuff to me.

yeah. i noe. wad a way to feel rite? falling asleep?

haiz.

i'm glad that i'm back home in the cosiness of my room, air con and good love songs on class 95. just me, myself, and lappy.

but of cos, i have to work later. as usual. nothing new. work is always brought home.

and did i mention? i fell sick. super sick. but this time, i'm tougher. still working 5 days a week. heh. no choice la. absent one day and work piles up. but the green bloody phelgm and flu gets worst each day.

:P

and my director still buys 1A curry puffs for me today.

heck it, it tasted good.

hee.

i miss JJVL and JAG*s.

:)

Genting 19 - 21 November 2008

i went missing again. worked till 10pm the day before leaving for genting. and away to genting at 5am the next morning. dear and i had this planned a long time ago, just that we didn't have the time to do the bookings and all, except for our precious weekends.

finally a break from work.

just him and me.

6 hours later... hungry us.

looks good. but doesn't taste that good.

model of our hotel.

gross fishes at the outdoor theme park. they look as if they wanna fly out.

we sat on that dragon. so silly.

first world hotel.

we went to watch some sort of lion, tiger, magic show all rolled into one as well. wasn't cheap, but dear said we should catch it :) no pics allowed there. so there goes. many other things i didn't take as well, and maybe i'm just too lazy to upload. i'm tired after a long day in office and my table's in a mess. many other things i need to follow up and all. i know i'm whining. all becos i'm sick. a flu caught since i'm in genting.

nevertheless, i'm thankful for the 3 days of quality time with dear and a mind away from work.

thank you for everything, and for being there with me.

*coupled for life*

Our Special Day

we spent our 8th anniversary working. no meetups. no dinners. no presents, flowers or romantic evenings. its been all dedicated to work. and my workload has since doubled ever since my incompetent colleague became obtuse.

but still. i just wanna stress. i love my guy every single bit. even though none of the above was done.

dear: i love the pillow fights, the stayovers, the cuddles at night, the soccer matches, the late movie nights, the lazy days, the fat days, the food hunts you brought me to, and so much more that we experience together. life has indeed become better now, and i know for sure, you pamper me alot. i know for every little or huge decision you make, i know you do it with me in mind. and right now, i'm very thankful that you're still here with me, developing our careers together.

indeed it takes alot to keep the relationship going, and i'm glad we're still together.

i love you.

happy 8th year.

jul.

Officially 25

dear gave me my final birthday gift on 2 nov and took leave just to spend time with me on the 3rd.

he booked a room to celebrate and spend time with me.

i didn't know he was doing all these behind my back. but its so sweet of him to do these. and the hotel he choose was so extraordinary. its RE! hotel at chin swee road.

super chio can.

chioness. i loved it when i saw the website. you'd see wad i mean.

the super retro lobby in pink.

taken at the lobby's toilet. dear did the check-in while i went to the toilet. wah! so chioness oso.

walkway of our room.

tv console and fridge area.

retro chairs. so nice! i like!

our bed.

i'm so happy the toilet is in glittering red tiles!

thank you baby.

happy me!

went out for dinner that night at mouth restaurant. roamed the streets, bought desserts back. caught my 7pm show which i'm crazy over. super happy.

and today, dear brought me to the movies, lunch at kenny rogers (coz i wanted it :P) hee. dear and i bought matching lego keychains too. super cute! and i came home with 24 JCO donuts from my nanny!

what can i say? i love this guy alot. after so many years, he makes every effort to pamper me with overnight stays, lunches, dinners, presents. and most important of all, LOVE.

and to those who kept my phone ringing non-stop, thank you for all the birthday wishes!

:)

dear: thank you for making the effort to take the day off, making arrangements for the hotel, buying me the coach wallet that i wanted, movies, lunch, dinner and the best thing is waking up in the morning, warm in your arms. thank you for making me feel so special. i know i'm special, at least in your eyes. love you.

toodles!