Day 1 - Blistering Barnacles

my first day at work... was a learning experience of a lifetime...

i was taught on how to update pay increment of employees... and my god.. they have so many employees! then was shown around the operations of the hotel by my boss... it was so awesome... to see the number of people working and how the hotel is being run... i sat in for a quarter of a training session conducted by my big boss... on time management... actually the purpose of being there was to keep the training materials after her training session was over... boss brought me to cafe vienna which is a restaurant at the hotel lobby, which serves international food, and i saw so many VIPs and guests dining... both frontline and backline staff are equally important... and hotel employees are not supposed to take guest lifts and are not supposed to walk in the lobby unless you are of a managerial position or is on official hotel business. hotel employees are only allowed to take the back firemen's lift and cargo lifts. boss also showed me the function rooms, and GM's room... sooooo big and spacious... woo~ had lunch at the staff canteen... food is free, but not bad... its quite good actually... hee... oh yah, i got my employee's id number, and they are gonna make me and id card, which i wonder why i need it, coz i'm only working there for 3 months.

that was somehow my first day at work... but~ i am so beat, tired, exhausted, or wadeva is used to describe being worn out... my feet are filled with swollen, red, bursted blisters, my back is aching due to the constant bending to take employee's files, my muscles are juz aching...

have to attend a 2 day orientation training programme, conducted by my boss... i have to sit in, as well as help her setup the stuff... double work... hee...

dear: i know u are having a paper tomorrow... though i dunno if u will be able to read this, but good luck and.... to me, you are always so awesome...

we've been both so busy, that we hardly even have the time to talk, not to say meet each other... but thru being in love and growing up together with you, you've taught me that being in a relationship, love is not enough... we've got to have the ability to maintain it, have trust, faith, understanding and honesty... we're both working hard for our future, and i know, only you can give me a happily ever after...

ta-ta...

Vcd-ing

oops. i haven't been updating regularly... hehe.. been really lazy... and i've been spending my time watching the korean drama "stairway to heaven". it is actually shown on channel u at 10pm on mondays and tuesdays... hehe... but its a 20 disc drama... think if i catch the channel u one, it'd take me a long long time to know the ending. aniwae, i'd only managed to finish 16 discs.... four more to go!

attachment gonna start on wednesday... boo hoo hoo~ gonna be working for the next 3 months...

grandpa is hospitalized... wonder when he will be discharged...

gotta go...

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Precious 1 Week~

woo~ juz came out from my bath and freshened myself... had headache juz now, so went for a cold shower... phew~ and time passes so fast. its oredi wednesday todae...

only gotta week for myself... will be starting attachment next wednesday. so i'm making full use of my 1 week...

went with belle, jiayi and shar to sentosa on monday. took alot of pics. but haven't got them from belle... and i haven't upload those in my camera... i'm juz so lazy to do so~

met dear on tuesday... accompanied him to study... and todae, i went to cut my hair... gave the ends a trim, cut my fringe, so that i won't look so lethargic and boring... haa.. at least i hope~ gave my hair a new coat of dye too...

gonna get working clothes with jiayi and velly tomorrow. it was supposed to be a 5 person outing, but it became 3 instead... liang went back to malaysia on monday, and jan couldn't make it. i guess, i'll only see them on mondae when we get back to school for attachment briefing...

oh well~ that was how i spent my past 3 days... haa...

for that special man in my life:
continue to work hard and excel in your studies... i can't be of much help, coz i know nuts about engineering, but i'll be at your side to give you the support you need... the road ahead is tough and its not gonna be easy... but i know you can make it...

ta-ta...

Spot!

woo~ went to catch Herbie - fully loaded with dear... it was so funny... hehe... and reminded me of the past.... becoz i watched herbie with my parents when i was young... and it was a good show... and it made me love volkswagen beetle even more.... heeee.....

and dear bought me a cute little bull terrier... he was so adorable, when i first stepped into the shop, the thing that caught my eye was him... the look in his eyes... and i fell for him immediately... wanted to buy it myself, but dear insisted on getting it for me, and brought him to the cashier... and did i mention? the bull terrier is very tiny only... becoz he's meant to be hung on the handphone... hee... so he's currently on my darling 6170... and i've named him spot! took a pic of him... he's very small, so its hard to take a pic... but i managed to take a pic of him within my bedsheets...

Spot!

its been such a long time since dear and me really spent quality time together... we are either too busy with our schoolwork, or when we meet up, we'll juz go to the library to study together... hmmm i muz say, i'm such a happy girl todae...

oh ya, took pics with belle and shar when we met up before my exams... which was like weeks ago... but din have the time to put up the pics... this was my favourite pic of the day...

Jul, Belle & Shar

took pic of chou chou and brownie at my study desk... haa... they are juz adorable to me... so pardon me~ *oops* heehee....

Chou Chou & Brownie with my lappy

and i forget to mention! CONGRATULATIONS DEAR! for getting your driving licence at the first attempt! woo~ yay! wee~ wow! you're juz so fantabulous!

ta-ta!

Back In Action!

phew! finally the war is over! exams are over and done with! but dunno about the results sia.. haiz... had 2 papers todae, event mgmt and HR.. totally drained by brains out... and my fingers are like soooooo tired from all the writing of those never ending essay questions... and they are 20 marks each! can't they juz provide us with a laptop? haa... guess that would wad exams are like in the near future! at least, i hope!

will be seeing dear tomorrow after 2 weeks! finally! hope to catch herbie, fully loaded tmr... using the free movie money that jie gave me...

going sentosa with jiayi, belle and shar on monday! hopefully with jiayi's doggy... yay!

going off liao~ i'm tired after all the studying for 2 full weeks!

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Hmmm....

haven't been blogging in ages.... been so busy with my studies... juz had my managerial accouting paper todae... it wasn't that fabulous... juz hope that i can pass....

4 more papers to go.. and double energy for friday... i dunno how i'm gonna make it with 2 papers~ but oh well~ i dun have much of a choice....

nothing much happened lately... juz books, books and more books... and i haven't seen dear for 8 days... and will not be seeing him until another 5 days....

before i end, let me share one of my favourite songs lately~ i haven't been able to get the music code for it... so if anyone knows, let me know ok?

meanwhile, enjoy~

And You Don't Remember - Mariah Carey

Shattered dreams
Cut through my mind
Tragically our love has died
Memories confine my head
Bitterly I face the end

Trustingly
I gave myself to you
I let you inside
Believing your lies

And you don't remember
Every time you told me
You were mine forever
For eternity
And you don't remember
How you used to hold me
How we'd melt together
How you needed me
How we used to be in love

Stranded here
In nothingness
With only tears
And lonliness

Foolishly
I gave my soul to you
I let you inside
Believing your lies

Helplessly
I fell so deep
I was so naive
To let you in
Why did I let you in to my heart

And you don't remember
Anything that you told me
You were mine forever
For eternity
I know you don't remember
How you used to hold me
How we'd melt together
How you used to need me
How we used to be in love

Whoa Lau!

its 6pm oredi?!?! i juz woke up!

went out with belle and shar yesterday. had really good food. spent $20 on fish & co for dinner. i had so much mussels, i felt so "mussely". went to cosy bay to chill after dinner. drank cocktail. and to my horror, juz one sip of it. and my face went red. i felt so hot! and i am left with a headache until todae... which is why i slept the whole afternoon! shar and belle kept laughing at me. haa.... but we really had a good talk about everything... shared our little secrets... especially shar and belle, had so much to tell me. in the end, i got home at 12 mid-night. we took pics! lots of them! will upload them as soon as belle passes them to me.

aniwae, woke up bright and early this morning and din feel good. haa.. but still had to drag my feet to the interview. and its where i'm gonna work. its confirmed! royal plaza hotel @ scotts! yay! i'm so damn happie with everything. coz:

1) the HR department only has 4 ppl (including me) ---> its better to work in smaller teams.
2) the HR assistant manager is a really nice lady.
3) i love the job scope!
4) i believe i can learn alot becoz being in HR i have to run alot of errands around the hotel, which also means that i'll meet many people.
5) i have to dress really formal.
6) the perks of working in a hotel means i do not need to spend money on lunch and dinner, because they provide meals!
7) i have 518 express bus straight from my house bus stop to the hotel.
8) i'd rather work the hotel at orchard than amex, which is at the concourse.
8) this is the best part! they are paying me $500!!!
9) the HR assistant manager said she would discuss with her director, and maybe they might gimmie 1 or 2 days anual leave!
10) and lastly, although i have to work alternate saturdays, but i love the job. at least for now. heehee....wad more can i say?

so happie... really... hehe...

i'm so glad the headache is gone. coz yesterday i felt so horrid after the alcohol went into my body. slept the whole day at dear's house todae...

last outing with JJVL and jiayi on monday. we're having dinner at seoul garden. jiayi's treating! coz its her birthday! hehe.... and after that, it'll be back to the books. meanwhile, i'll have to complete my tutorials for monday.....

ta-ta...

What Next?

munching on peanut butter sandwich now. its my brunch. haven't had anything the whole dae. had a whole 2 hr lecture followed by another 2 hour tutorial. no one wanted to have lunch after that, so i juz skipped it. and guess wad? i'm having brunch now at 4.20pm. haa...

had a long day yesterday.... got informed by my tutor that i am most probably having my attachment at royal plaza hotel @ scotts. the one opposite far east plaza. will be meeting up with them this saturday. i hope everything goes well.

didn't have a very good nite yesterday. dun wish to elaborate further. but i was tossing and turning in bed the whole nite. couldn't get to sleep. mind was working. it didn't want any rest. by 3.30am, i'm still wide awake.. and i woke up at 7am todae.

took 518 to suntec after school to get my blazer for the interview on saturday. on the bus, was glad that 518 goes to my interview place. juz right outside the hotel. i dread taking mrt, coz i have to change train. phew... but aniwae, i was looking for somebody to go get my blazer with me, so that i can have another person's opinion on the blazers. but seems that everyone was busy. so i had to go alone. though i hate that feeling of being alone, i quite enjoyed it todae. maybe i should do this more often. then i'll get used to it... aniwae, i was intending to go to dorothy perkins. but too bad, they dun have suits-cum-skirts this season. only pants. i ended up going to G2000 as usual. however, the service was good todae. i can say that they made me a happie customer. maybe becoz the shop wasn't packed. in fact, it had only 2 persons, including me. haa... thank god the salesgirls there were very nice in giving me opinion, since i didn't have any companion to give me opinions. and moreover, they are more expert in this field. got a great deal, had the skirt free coz i bought the blazer as a whole suit. saved a total of $40. alot huh?

so tired... the vein of my eyes are all red when i was at G2000 trying out the suits. feel so exhausted. glad that i'm home... but have alot of things piling up waiting for me... resumes, tutorials, revision~

gotta go...

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Time Flies~

its all over officially! all project proposals are handed in, and i juz finished my project interview todae! it was okay.. haa.. i managed to talk for a full 4 mins... *oops*... too long... hope it was okay. now, the only thing now is to wait for my coursework grade.

time passes faster than an aeroplane. in juz the blink of an eye, next week is revision week and then study week, and then exam... then i'd get ready to go for attachment... unbelievable huh? i almost completed my 5th semester at temasek... if everything goes well, i'd be graduating nxt yr around april / may... and then i dunno wad i'd do after that.... degree? or work? tough choice~ arrggh...

aniwae, will be hanging out with belle and shar this fridae... i guess we're all excited about the meeting. its been such a long time since we met up. and since belle would be driving.... heh heh heh...

as for that special someone...
dear: jia you! i know its not easy studying... the road ahead is rocky and winding, but we'll work hard together... for a better future...

ta-ta...

Finally It's Over!

project submissions are all done. phew! having event management project interview tomorrow. haiz. so tired. might read a little bit on the project later.

had a wonderful weekend with dear. nothing special, but i was very happie. simplicity is bliss huh.. hehe... nowadays, we basically juz meet up and do our tutorials, so that we get to spend time together, but at the same time finish our work. and we'll go to either one's house to have dinner. in that way, we can save money. hee...

dear: things have never been better. though we've had some really bad experiences with our relationship, thanks for going through countless hurdles with me. i'm so glad that you appeared in my life.

ta-ta

Happie Birthday Singapore!

*HAPPIE BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!*

hahaha... didn't blog yesterday coz was too tired. its almost the end of the day. going 7pm liao... went to monday's accounting lecture, so i had todae free... stayed at home to complie project and finish wad i have to. was working on my projects the whole day.

quite pissed with my group member. i juz dunno why we dun see things on the same level. maybe its me, maybe its her. i dunno. i dun like sloppy work. and my projects muz always be of a certain standard, if not better. and i dun like her going around to ask people to edit her work. i saw the report only this evening. and it was shockingly ugly. i had my doubts on her compiling it, but everyone had a fair share of compiling. and though i was worried, i thot it won't be that bad. but to my horror, the report looks really bad, and i'm so pissed. becoz its due on friday! mind you! tmr is thursday, and we have to rush it all over again?! dun you know how to do a report? you are in year 3! and can't u even do a sensible well written spell-checked report? and when we give ideas, u say no this and no that.. wad else do you want then? i dun like working with you, but we didn't have a choice. you juz have to learn not to be dominant. it juz doesn't work with me.

you juz piss me off... really~

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Headache...

spent the whole day at dear's house. we both studied together... did our tutorials... watched tv and i was so tired, i slept after that. then woke up feeling giddy... i think it was the heat...

right now, i'm so glad to be home... after my bath, in the air-con room with my lappy... popped 2 panadols... though still feeling giddy, but i'm feeling better after my bath...

nothing much happened lately... juz still happie about my very own papillio...

ta-ta...

Exhausted, Tired, Stressed~

juz got back from school... have so much things to do, but so little time. all projects are due soon. haiz... been mentally tired with all the things going on...

aniwae, the good news is, my group got the highest in class for our HR group project. hee.. happie~ happie~ happie~

todae was CCN day.. the school was bustling with crowd, noise and every other thing... had an hour of shift to help out at the booth for the business interest group. was glad that it was only an hour. coz its damn tiring...

had project discussion after the shift... and then we discussed and amended everything about the project. i'm so glad that i'm home coz i'm so damn tired. and i'm so glad that its friday...

tmr is yeye's birthday celebration! he's 93 liao.. woo~ dear's coming over too... but it means that we can't study together tmr.. have to do it on sunday instead...

tired~

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My Papillio!

nice nice? i have bought my papillio!! yay! its called florida new sundays earth... hehe... cost me a bomb of $120! but i know i'm not gonna have regrets! and i bought the last pair in size 37!

so happie! lalalalalalalala~

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Monday Blues~

juz got home from school about an hour ago.. had my lunch.. cooked instant bee hoon myself... hmm.. yummy~ haha.. and i ate a cheese muffin which mummy bought.. woo~ it had huge blocks of cheese in the muffin... and i have to admit it was sinful, but it was juz so heavenly...

shucks! got 2 tests tomorrow. and i'm still here.. haven't started studying tourism... oh well~ but i'm done with event management... studied with dear at the library on saturday... from 11am to 5pm... hee... managed to finish everything... but now, i dun have to mood to...

went to dear's house yesterday... and we watched the incredible tales which he taped... gosh~ i'm never gonna watch it again... i had a hard time sleeping and i keep imagining things... i called dear at 4am this morning coz i was so scared until i can't sleep... dear was so nice... he accompanied me.... though he thinks i'm silly... hee.. that's why i avoid horror movies becoz i'd have a hard time sleeping at nite... its juz too ghastly to even think of it... it juz gives me the creeps...

i wanna get my papillio! but haven't got my allowance... *sighz*

gotta get back to my books...

dear: thanks for keeping me company this morning at 4am. thanks for always being there for me. sorry i woke u up becoz i was so scared and i couldn't sleep becoz of the horror show we saw earlier. but thanks for being patient with me. *i love you to bits*

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Tough Week~

its 6 plus now.... and i juz got home from school... tuesdays are my longest days... dread it man! had a hot bath... supposed to take a little nap... but i'll juz skip it, coz i'll be like an owl tonite... meanwhile, thot i'd juz blog to help me relax.

aniwae, new video! nice? love the song! heehee... we belong together~

school's been tough lately... have so much things to do everyday... have 2 online tests coming up next week. and i have to juggle with researching for HR and projects which are on hand... plus lectures and tutorials.. really tires me out at the end of the day... have so much to do later in the nite...

dear's no different either.. he seems kinda stressed lately... maybe he's juz adpating to the environment and the subjects... university muz be real tough... but i know he is putting his best....

aniwae, he has gone out with his army officer friends for dinner... hope he feels better and more relaxed when he get home... i haven't really got the chance to talk to him though... he's had a busy day... when i called him juz now, he was napping, and seems so tired... hmmm.... poor thing...

both of us are sooo busy~ but we'll work hard together for a better future...

right now, i have to get back to those researching, notes, books... arrgghh...

jul's tired~ exhausted~ totally drained~

and by the way, i am so yearning for that pair of *papillio*

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Friday! Yay!

TGIF! hahaha... been slogging my guts out the whole week.. finally its friday! got back my mid-sem test results... it was okay.. i was quite satisfied with the results...

event management and tourism online tests are coming up.. and both on the same day, one after another... haiz.. wad bad timing...

glad that i finished my tutorial for the week.. hee... gonna be free!

listening to zhui by zhang guo rong... cantonese version.. though i dun understand, i know its kinda sad...

aniwae, i've been wanting to tell this story... no other meaning.. juz wanna share it.. so no offence to mahjong lovers...

by the way, this is a true life story i heard from my friend.. i'll juz keep the people confidential...

this guy has decided to go to the mahjong house to play overnight mahjong... his wife has unfortunately met with a mishap... everyone, relatives, friends tried to get him on the mobile.. but he refused to take any calls becoz he knew and thot it was his wife... and it was nothing important... so they tried calling the mahjong house... but as sturborn as he is, there was no way he was gonna pick up that call... they couldn't reach him...

by morning, they went to the mahjong house to tell him that his wife had passed away due to the accident... and they were trying to get him all night long... he was shocked, lost and blank... all he did was cried and keep saying sorry... but wad was the use of saying sorry now? his wife is oredi gone... and they even had a one-month old baby... he never got to see his wife for that one last time becoz of his obsession with mahjong...

he never touched mahjong after that... not even once....

its not that playing mahjong is a bad thing, but why do people tend to take things for granted, and assume that the one you love would always be by your side? why do people only know how to treasure after they lost it? all the love and concern that the wife wanted, he did not give... and even if he wanted to now, there is not even a chance to make amends... wad's the use of not playing mahjong now? she's gone oredi... he would juz have to live with the guilt for the rest of his life...

sad huh? its a true story... haiz.. never take things for granted....

dear went for orientation talk todae.. wonder how it is... very glad that he's starting school this coming week... heehee... dunno why, but the thot of it juz makes me *beam with delight*

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Phew!

finally got to come home early todae. going to do my accounting tutorial later... *sighz*

i am craving for pizza hut.. either hawaiian pizza or super supreme... asked dear to go eat together but he's not free. he's busy "dry swimming" again... so for now, i'll juz haf to continue craving for it~

been listening to "i still believe" - mariah carey's version.. so nice~ juz feel so good... so sweet... so nice... but if love was so simple, so real and so intagible.. then why do couples have to quarrel?

attended my HR lecture on career development. and felt that there are many things that are true. like planning for your career. the most important thing is, wad do i want, and see myself doing 5 years from now? or even 10 years?

5 years from now, i'd be 27~ woo.. so old.. haa... maybe i'll be married... maybe i won't even be... haa.. but that's not important. love is juz secondary... getting a marriage cert is juz a licence to live together and have children legally. it makes no difference from a boyfriend and girlfriend. juz that if you're married, breaking up means having to spend $$$$ for divorce procedures.... but most importantly, i wanna establish my career, hopefully in the HR field or even tourism.. since i specialize in both... saw that the number of degree graduates are increasing, and i feel that i can't do without one. in future, the whole place would be filled with graduates... and a diploma is juz not enuff... so i guess, i'm gonna further my studies after my diploma. aniwae, my parents are supportive of my decision.. so why not? and on the other hand, i still wanna fulfil my dream of being an entrepreneur. wanna open a shop with alicia.. wee~ our long time planning.. its still on the way.... our chocoholic shop.. hee~ its not easy, it takes time and hard work.. but i wanna live my life to the fullest. be busy with making money instead of making babies.. haha... wanna get my very own car... my volkswagen beetle.. hee.. and wanna buy my own clothes, my own diamonds, and even expand my bags collection. i am even considering selling or even renting second hand bags.. which are in good condition of course. haha... got many big dreams... so careful planning is needed.. i wanna give my parents a comfortable life too..

this is wad will happen to me, 5 to 10 years from now.. hee~ if i can make it... right now... my aim is to graduate, and leap on to the next phase of my life...

love life is back on track... its been good so far.. and hopefully in future....

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Tired~

been so tired lately. sleeping late, waking up and going to school early and going home late... school's been tough.. but my HR presentation was a success.. hee....

been having tough times again, but i'm sure we'll get over it. todae is a brand new day, after every storm is a rainbow~ i hope~ eventually~

dear's off to play mahjong with his friends, wonder how much he "earned" todae...

gonna do managerial accounting tutorial~

ta-ta...

Thank You Mummy...

i was awakened by an sms todae. an sms that i never thot i would get. it was from mummy... she told me to share my problems with her and i can msg her if i wanted to... i cried... because i am blessed with wonderful parents. and a very nice mother whom i can confide in.

she's the one who is always there for me.
she doesn't say it.
but her actions are louder than words.
she is always the one who gives me encouragement and support.
she knows when i am unhappie or upset.
she pampers me alot.
when i got bad o'level grades, she didn't scold me.
when i chose to go ite, she was the one that encouraged me to take the path which i feel is right.
she doesn't despise me.
she always told me that i am not stoopid and that going to ite is nothing bad even though my aunt is constantly reminding me that i am from ite.
she even took leave to accompany me to get my ite books.
she was the one whom i share everything with first.
she was the first one who asked me about my grades.
she was the first one who asked me about my interview.
she was the one who never fails to send me a good luck msg on the morning of my paper.
she worries about my health and constant headaches.
and most of all she loves me for who i am, and what i am.

mummy: thank you for your support. i know you are never gonna get to read my blog, coz u dunno i have one. but i am very glad to be your child. i promise you i won't make you worry about me. thank you for being there for me and loving me for who i am. i am very blessed to have you as my mother. i dunno how u know that i am upset. but i guess that's bcoz you are my mother... thank you for your constant care and unlimited love~

lastly, thank you for brewing bird's nest for me last night. though i didn't drink alot, bocoz i wasn't emotionally well, but thank you for taking the trouble.

i love you mummy... without you, i'm nothing.

ta-ta...

Over And Done With~

phew! interview is over. it was a short one though. the interviewer was a nice lady.. and she is also the HR manager of Amex. hee.. hmm.. life seems boring in the HR field. its something solid and down to earth. but then, that's the challenge of working there. haa... wad contradictary... she even told liang that everyone in the HR department are ladies.. haha..

aniwae, due to those pretty shoes, i've got 3 blisters on my right feet and my legs are aching.. took a cab home. was so damn tired.. dropped liang off at bugis coz he's meeting his sis... aniwae, was kinda glad that the people there don't really "dress up", so in a way, if i really end up working there, there's no need for me to wear cord shoes... *eeks* to me, my havanias flip flops are still the best... and i'm bent on getting my birkenstocks, or rather papillio.. after i get my intern pay, i'm gonna get my papillio!

dear's busy playing mahjong now... i guess... haven't told him i'm home. even though i'm like home for almost 2 hours... dun wanna disturb him... dunno if he realised that its 5 plus now... and that my interview ended long ago.. but, oh well.. jan told me when people play mahjong, then forget about the time.. is that an excuse? err.. oso dunno.. jan say "its like that" so, juz let it be bah...

i guess i'm gonna catch a nap after this post, coz i'm so tired~

time flies, tomorrow is friday... gotta meet up with my groupmates tomorrow... arrggh.. project discussion... have to go back to school during the holidays! eeks! thot of meeting dear after project for dinner, but so many things to consider...

jul's tired~

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QinJul Cooking!

went to look for my internship interview location with dear todae. the big day is tomorrow! and i'm so nervous. went to shop for pretty shoes and presentable clothes... hee...

got everything prepared, but i'm still having the gitters.. grr... scared.. hee...

aniwae had a very simple but lovely day spent with dear... went back to dear's place to rot after i manage to get all my stuffs. watched tv together.. and we cooked dinner! hehe.. it was very sweet to me...

thanks dear...

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Internship Fever~

juz realised that liang would not be my internship mate, but will be my competitor, coz american express only takes one intern. shucks! this is so scary. and then i got to know that mrs valerie tong recommended me and liang for the american express job. which is even more scary. now that i know, the pressure has been built up and i'm even more nervous. furthermore, liang is a very strong competitor.. oh gosh~

aniwae, met up with my groupmates for discussion at pacific coffee. wow.. the sofa is wonderful.. so cosy~ we managed to cover quite a bit for HR and tourism... it ain't holidays at all... haiz... but after discussion, went with liang and jan for shopping for our intern clothes. found a nice skirt at dorothy perkins, but i'm too short... *sob *sob...

gonna check out my interview place tomorrow with dear, since he is the only person that is sure of the place.. hehe.. and gonna get my top hopefully.. i need shoes too.. saw charles and keith and aldo that have nice shoes... but i guess i'll go for charles and keith coz its more affordable, and furthermore, i'm a member, which means i got discount! haa.. going to spend alot on this internship interview.. haiz... and its only an interview! i wonder how i can survive on the 3 months with formal wear everyday... gosh! i think i still prefer tees with skirts and flip flops! i can't do without flip flops.. they are so essential...

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I'm Back!

haven't been blogging for a long time.. exams juz ended on friday.... and in fact i'm waiting for dear to come pick me up. juz thot i'd on my lappy to blog.. actually i'm not feeling well. my stomach has this weird feeling (pain which goes on and off) which makes me feel like puking.. i think it was those junk that i ate with dear yesterday. juz dun feel good... i juz feel awful~

aniwae, i've been feeling very happie lately.. juz glad that my relationship is back on track. i hope we broke the "curse" of that long winding road of endless fights....

i juz bought another projectshop bag.. which adds to my collection of a total of 6 projectshop bags and 3 pouches. haha.. i'm crazy.. but wondering if i bought the bag on impulse. nevertheless i love it. haha.

gonna drag myself back to school tomorrow for the shiseido makeup workshop.. arrgghh! its not even called H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S like this.. haiz... can't stand it!

having an interview for my internship with american express on thursday.. hope everything goes well. i'm kinda excited but nervous too.. hee.. and my intern-mate is none other than the great old liang. hahaha...

juz wanna add.. i still love my nokia 6170 *beams* hee...

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Sleepy...

whoa.. can't stand it.. i'm feeling sleepy from looking at performance appraisal notes.. they juz can't seem to get into my brain cells anymore... i'm feeling tired and my eyes are giving way..

thought i'd juz blog to take a break. dear's with his cousin.. coz he's at his place... i'm like listening to songs and falling asleep.. haa.. ok.. things with dear and me are better now.. thank god.. i'm kinda happie that the afternoon dry swimming sessions are getting lesser.. at least i hope.. hehe.. coz i know the probability is now greatly lesser! haahaa! heh heh heh! heeheehee! i juz realised it todae.. and i'm kinda glad...

aniwae dear gonna open school soon.. can say in a sense that i am extremely happie.. coz he's got something to do.. and won't have time for dry swimming.. hehe.. wee~ juz a few more weeks to NTU school reopen.. phew! the nightmare is gonna be over soon... at least.. i hope... again~

hope the rainbow doesn't give way to the storm~ coz i always love rainbows...

if you know wad i mean~~

gotta get back to my books!

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Back On The Rough Patch...

I'll Never Fall In Love Again - Emma

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, he'll never phone 'ya
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Dont' tell me what's it all about
Cause I've been there and
I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why, I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you give your heart?
You get it all broken up and battered
That's what you get, a heart that's shattered
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why, I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you need a guy?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Never fall in love
Never fall in love
Never fall.... again

Mid-Semester Tests...

haven't been blogging for ages... coz been busy with proposals and deadlines...

so fast time files.. mid-sem tests are here again... and half a sem would be gone... seems like senior year passes so fast... having lesser time for leisure and friends.. i miss alicia.. i hope she's getting along fine... its been like such a long time since we last saw each other... but we'll always keep each other in mind ya? dun forget our business venture together.. we're gonna make it big! haha....

oh ya, and i haven't met up with shar and belle too... shucks.... miss u both!

busy preparing for the tests... juz managed to finish another chapter of my managerial accounting... quite glad that i still understand... hee...

july holidays would be here soon.. but it ain't holidays.. still got alot of things to hand in when school reopens... plus presentations... haiz... i think one week is not even enuff for us to complete all the proposals... busy busy busy....

dear and me are getting along fine now. though got alot of conflict these days. but i guess conflicts are inevitable in every couple's relationship... aniwae, hope the days ahead are cherry and bright...

think i'm gonna take a 1 hour nap... tired liao~

ta-ta...

Water Runs Dry - Boys II Men

Water Runs Dry - Boys II Men

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how I feel is no longer allowed
Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
Why do we hurt each other?
Why do we push love away?

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Bad Day...

haven't been having good weekdays lately... keep having squabbles... in fact, i'm so scared of weekdays. i juz hope time passes faster.. i juz wanna be even more busy. i wanna do my attachment and be busy busy busy so that no one can find me or have time to meet me. i juz wanna disappear from the surface of this earth and never come back. i hope my attachment requires me to work long hours so that i won't be available most of the time...

i feel like going overseas with mummy and daddy.. but i know i can't coz of attachment... but i want to get out of singapore... so that we won't have so much squabbles...

been dying to go to the movies... but din mention anything about it... wanna watch "alot like love" so badly.... it must be a very nice movie.... though people say initial d is nice. but i'd rather be romantic, since i haven't got much of it lately. but movies are expensive during weekends... haiz... wait for vcd bah...

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Lately...

i'm feeling sort of like this.... lately...
a beautiful number by stevie wonder...
enjoy~

Lately - Stevie Wonder

Lately, I have had the strangest feeling
With no vivid reason here to find
Yet the thought of losing you's been hanging round my mind
Far more frequently you're wearing perfume
With you say no special place to go
But when I ask will you be coming back soon
You don't know, never know
Well, I'm a man of many wishes
Hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won't let me hide
Cause they always start to cry
Cause this time could mean goodbye

Lately I've been staring in the mirror
Very slowly picking me apart
Trying to tell myself I have no reason
With your heart
Just the other night while you were sleeping
I vaguely heard you whisper someone's name
But when I ask you of the thoughts you're keeping
You just say,
nothing's changed

Well, I'm a man of many wishes
I hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won't let me hide
Cause they always start to cry
Cause this time could mean goodbye, goodbye
Oh, I'm a man of many wishes
I hope my premonition misses
But what I really feel my eyes won't let me hide
Cause they always start to cry
Cause this time could mean goodbye

ta-ta...

Tired...

haven't been blogging for ages... coz i'm busy with school, and basically there's nothing to blog about....

woo hoo~ i see someone has been tagging alot lately... haha... tag wadeva u want... i dun care...

enjoy urself!

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New Handphone!

finally got my nokia 6170. not much functions, but i got all i needed.. big buttons for smsing, flip phone, external screen, camera... except that there's no bluetooth. but oh well, infared works perfectly fine... i'm extremely happie with my new phone... and all i can conclude is... nokia produces the best phones... luckily din get samsung, or else i'd regret!

there's this big hoo-haa about this "i am ur romeo" guy at my tagboard... he's mean.. but he can say wadeva he wants... i dun care lar... dear says its juz some prankster who eat too full, dunno wad to do...

dear and i have been thru some rough patches, but i'm glad that things are okay now... i guess wad he needs is juz some understanding... and we've got alot of differences, so we'll work things out...

meanwhile, sorry for not uploading pics yet.. i'm busy at the moment..

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Busy Busy Busy...

whoa.. i haven't been updating my blog for quite some time.. i got tons of pics that i have yet to upload.. haha... maybe will upload when i get back from school.. juz a few more mins, and i'll have to grab my bag and go.. juz thot i'd blog for a while since my lappy is on...

hmm.. things couldn't be better lately... have been quite contented with my life lately.. except for the fact that i'm kinda broke... but otherwise... my relationship's been on the go... its been good and smooth-sailing... my studies are great... project is doing fine.. if not better! been putting alot of effort on the stuff lately... heee...

mid-semester tests are around the corner... gosh! time flies so fast... and then the 1 week holidays will be here soon... then it's time to hand in reports and proposals... woo~ a long road ahead... but its the final year! extra extra power into the books!

gotta leave liao! meeting for project! will be back to upload the pics later in the day...

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Last Day Of The Week...

time passes so fast.. in the blink of an eye, 3 weeks of school has passed...

juz came home from school.. tonite gotta sleep late.. got many tutorials and projects to complete... feel so tired~

attended the workshop on social ettiquette and dining... it was so much more fun than i expected.. thot was one of those sleepy lectures again.. but its so interesting... did learn alot...

oh yah, and i got my new specs liao.. hee.. still not used to looking at myself in the mirror.. haha...

tired liao.. dun wanna blog anymore...

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Tired.Sleepy.Confused...

i'm so tired. juz came home from the mall with mummy... headache's back to haunt me... and there's so many projects to do... so many stuffs to complete...

kinda confused.. maybe i think too much.. but juz feel that dear is like another person with his friends... all the msg replies would be one worded.. come on.. its juz an sms... would it hurt to reply me properly and take juz a little time away from wad u are doing? why the change? (-_-)" but then again.. maybe i think too much... shouldn't read too much into it coz we juz managed to get some peace for our relationship. i ain't gotta tok to him about this when he gets home but i juz hope he doesn't give me too much stuff to think about.... it hurts soooo bad...

dun wanna think about it... juz let it go~~~ wee~~~ get out of my head~~~ the more i think the more problems will arise...

ta-ta...

Fishy!

here's a pic of dear's fish tank! he took it with his camera phone... hehe... i contributed 2 of the goldfishes.. and the rest of the other 5 was bought by dear, and 1 bought by dear's dad... dear's dad bought a blind goldfish! only one eye! haahaha.. so funny... and there's a black goldfish with "popped" eyes! the discus fish at the background is the fish which i picked up with dear beside a dustbin... someone juz threw him there with a big parrot fish in a small container and it was tightly closed with a lid.. so cruel.. the person is juz letting them die slowly... after letting dear's sis strike 4D, the parrot fish unfortunately died... the discus fish is happy with his new environment... when we adopted him, he was black all the way.. like charcoal.. now he's become more blueish and reddish... can see the black stripes.... becoming prettier... and he swims faster now.. hee... nicer ar? but still not up to dear's standard... but compared to my fish tank, this is oredi good enuff!

dear's new darlings...

hmm... aniwae, i woke up with a splitting headache... again!!! arrgghh!!! like as if my brains are gonna be crushed!!! keep having headaches... or rather, it was migraine.. coz its only one-sided... think it was due to the lack of sleep lately... and the stress from school... plus the time of the month will be here anytime soon, coz i've oredi got the signals... sianzz... maybe that's why my temper is not so good lately? poor dear.. muz have been terrible for him.. and i dun knoe it until after it happens.. this pms thingy.. so tricky...

jie jie gonna hongkong for a short holiday... asked me if i wanted to join.. i want! but cannot... *sob sob* got school leh! haiz... and she asked me wanna watch snow.wolf.lake? and cirque de soleil.... i juz replied her, you pay ar? haha.. she kept quiet.. hee... i told her i dun have money mah... expensive sia.. snow.wolf.lake is like $98 for the cheapest seats... gosh... i wouldn't watch it unless i'm being treated.. hehehe... oh well... juz ask jie jie to get some stuff for me.. esprit is cheap in hongkong! plus got disneyland! i want tee shirts with mickey! its in fashion now! hehe...

gonna mit dear later... dear's having driving now... he left this day specially for me coz i got no school... awwww.. so sweet rite? i got no school.. coz mr lecturer kena called back to camp! wee~ no lecture.. haha... aniwae, dear's meeting me to accompany me to get my new specs! yay! new frameless specs.. then i'd look more like dear.. hahaha.... and we're gonna have subway! addicted liao.. after jan treated us coz it was her birthdae.. hehe.. subway is soooo nice! i love it!

gosh.. gotta get back to my tutorials and projects... will update again... if i have the time!

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Pics!

haven't been updating pics for a long time. took alot of pics lately.. hehe.. some with liang's cam, some with velly's cam.... here's an update of the stuff....

Me & the Trophy! During Business Day Workout

Liang, Me, Velly, Jiayi & Jan group pic!

Aisha & Jul during lecture break

Liang, Jul & Velly at TP library

Liang, Jul & Velly take 2!

Jan, Jul & Liang... Taken during tutorial~

nice pics? hehe... school has been tiring todae... lack of sleep and loads of things to do.... i guess i have to go and get started...

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Mondae...

there's still time before i leave home for school. so thot i'd juz blog...

had craving for hot coffee last nite... but didn't drink it in the end... coz it was too much hassle... and i finally satisfied my need this morning... had my cup of hot coffee, bundled together with a donut (yeah, i'm not supposed to eat sweet things... but mummy bot it... ) read the morning papers.... tycoons are still having lawsuits.. over millions.. over houses... for 14 years... woo~ that's a long time... nothing much in the papers... all the usual stuff...

aniwae, i had a nice conversation with dear last nite. it wasn't lovey dovey or mushy stuff.. its juz pure good conversation.... had a good sleep after our nite talk... and i couldn't wake up this morning.. i think it was due to the tiredness lately... luckily school is gonna be short todae... but i dunno wad time we finish discussing our project after school... nevertheless... i'm glad that i'm going to school... hee...

gotta go...

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Weekend...

weekend is almost over... spent 2 days with dear.. though we still have little squabbles now... but we managed to solve it... its been kinda tough lately... and i'm still keeping my fingers crossed... i guess i haven't been a good girlfriend lately...

i juz got home... felt better after a bath.. so warm lately... dear's got a new fish tank and i'm happie for him... it looks nice... and the fishes are cute...

week 3 of school starts tomorrow.... time passes so fast....

wanted to get my pair of birkenstocks...but i think i better put the money into good use... dear's finances are running low... think i'll juz forgo my birkenstocks for the time being.... better put the money in our bank... its more useful that way....

dun feel like blogging oredi...

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Loving You...

my new video! love it? haha... that's why so many women remain single lately...

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Happy 58th Month...

spent my day with dear.... from morning till night... dear came over to oversee renovations at my house since i had to study and daddy and mummy had to work... he slpt on my bed thereafter.... hehe.. poor thing... came over so early... guess he muz be tired...

after i came home from school, we had lunch at my place. then headed down to NUH to visit dear's grandma... poor thing... she's so old... and yet have to stay in the hospital for so long... i'd still hope that she'd recover quickly...

had dinner with dear thereafter... hmm... juz feel blissful... though its not entirely the 2 of us alone... but its time well spent.... its oredi been 4 years and 10 months since we known each other and i'm really glad we are still going on... though we got into many quarrels... but i know deep down, he's the man i wanna spend my life with... though we might not know wad would happen in the future... but i'm enjoying having him as part of my life now....

juz finished my managerial accounting tutorial... gonna do my HRD project tomorrow after i come home....

lastly, happie 58th month dear... thank you for everything... and most of all thank you for appearing in my life...

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New Specs!

decided to change my text colour to add some colour to my blog... since the background is black.. it think it would look good.. hehe...

dear came to meet me todae... went to make my new specs... nothing funky anymore.. no more red specs.... juz pure sophiscated frameless specs... dear said it looked better than my current one. haha.. he's been hating my red specs since day one... but i think its cool... how many ppl dare to wear red specs? except for a few in school, many choose to remain the norm... but its kinda costly... costs $327 to make my specs.. coz of the titanium frame... which lasts longer.. and the better lens which i chose... haiz.. luckily i got $100 voucher.. so i only need to pay $227.. but its still costly! haiz... lucky mummy sponsoring.. if not i'd rather not change my specs.. but my degree went up... sianz... got short sighted somemore.. hehe.. getting from bad to worst.. dear said coz i always stare at the comp for too long.. hehe.. but how can i live without my lappy???

aniwae, will be getting my specs next friday.... wee~ can't wait man! haha..

dear came over to my house for dinner... we watched tv together... felt good.. never felt so good before...

dear's coming over tomorrow coz daddy asked him to... the contractor is coming to do some fixing of the tiles... and he will be here by 10am?? coz daddy wants to change his toilet door to sliding ones... since i haf school, my maid is gon gon one... and no one's home, so daddy asked if dear was free... poor dear... tomorrow muz stay at my place without me! haha... and i will only be back by 3 plus...

felt bad after the call from dear... his grandma is changing hospital tomorrow and his auntie called him to ask him to help look after her kids so that she can attend to his grandma.. but he told her that he need to help my dad... gosh.. i feel terrible.. his grandma is of course more important.. but dear told me that his auntie said that her kids would be able to cope on their own... haiz... i feel bad.... i hope dear's grandma will get well soon... think its only right to visit her during the weekends....

meanwhile, school's tough... jul's struggling... but surviving... still got 2 tutorials and HR development research and peer notes to finish up before i spend the weekend with dear... gonna do tomorrow... since its friday and i dun haf to slp early...

oh ya.. congrats to liang and jan, who got to be on the Director's Hounours List again! for the second time! wee~~

Love...

"The things that people in love do to each other, they remember, and if they stay together it's not because they forget, it's because they forgive."

- From the movie, Indecent Proposal

Mid Week Crisis...

haven't been blogging for a long time.. been busy with school and tutorials... and have been quarrelling with dear again... all becoz of good old mahjong... eek! still dun like it till now... i hate it! hate it! hate it! its so damn spoiling everything we haf.... oh well, wadeva.... things do happen for a reason huh? now, i guess i juz haf to live with it...

dear is at the hospital now.. he went to see his grandma... and i juz got home from school... if only he went earlier, then we can chat now... but he was tired after driving lesson, so he went home to sleep... bad timing i thot.. but nvm... dear so poor thing... aniwae, my life hasn't been going smoothly.. except for school! hehe.. i love school.. i dunno why... maybe its the only time where i get occupied and dun think about any other things.... event management's project is so damn tough... got loads of research to do... so is HR development...

gotta go do tutorials....

ta-ta..

Fading Love...

we belong to 2 different worlds,
2 different characters,
2 different views,
2 different personalities,
2 different backgrounds...

however,
we met by fate,
thus, we cherished each other even more...
we enjoyed each other's company,
we loved each other...

i am grateful for the things you taught me,
the experiences you gave me...
fishing,
kite flying,
and so much more...

unfortunately, we are like 2 straight lines,
our thinking never meets...

but haf anyone told you?
straight lines do cut across each other...

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Get Well Soon...

spent the whole day at NUH todae... accompanied dear to visit his grandma... reached around 1pm.... waited the whole day for her operation to end... started at 3pm, and finally at 8pm, she came around... reached home at around 9.40pm.. aniwae, glad that she is fine.. but still need time to recuperate.. that is basically how my saturday is spent...

nothing else happened.... juz that dear was so sweet to draw me a rose... A4 size.. and it had my name! when he gave it to me, i melted.... awww... thanks dear... nothing beats having a surprise like that....

love ya...

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TGIF...

haven't been updating my posts... been busy for the past few days... yesterday had no lecture.. so i intended to gif dear a surprise... i went to buy 2 lovable goldfishes.. and other equipment... and then i left it outside his house.... with a note.. and when i left, i scared other ppl will steal the fishes.. so called dear to go to his doorstep for his surprise... and coincidentally, my hp had no more batt.. so we din tok.. i was waiting for the bus to go home when i saw dear running towards me.. oh gosh! there goes my surprise... heee... and thereafter, dear told me that his grandma was in hospital after a fall... so i accompanied him to NUH to see his grandma.. we had dinner together, and i came home myself since dear was tired after watching the soccer match the nite before... wad a long journey! from buona vista to bedok.... slept all the way in the train...

todae was business day.... did alot of workouts and line dancing with the year 2's.. on the whole i enjoyed myself... but projects are on the way.. got my HR PBL todae... gotta start researching... and finding facts....

tonite gotta do tutorial... and gotta start working on my project....

lastly, i hate people talking behind my back...

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Headache...

having headache again... ate 6 panadols oredi since last nite.... and i'm still suffering... wonder wad's wrong... i can't stand it.... maybe i have a tumor? haa... oh well... even if i did, i wouldn't be scared...

having managerial accounting lecture at 2pm later.. i'm scared.... dun really like accounting... though i managed to pass accounting during my year 1 and my business finance in year 2... i juz hate number subjects... i prefer problem based learning... hee... in other words, i like tourism and HR more... heehee... after lecture got dance for business day after that... dunno wad time end school todae...

will blog when i get home....

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Day 1 At School...

back to school todae... and i love it.... somehow got details of my project for event management.... think gotta spend alot of time figuring out wad to plan this project.. seems kinda hard... but the challenge is there... no presentations for event management... which i dun think its good, coz we got no chance to get marks from our presentation.. which means we muz work harder for the paper... looking forward to the many days ahead at school...

saw many new faces... the whole business canteen was filled with year 1's... wonder where the year 3's are... hee...

not much happened todae... i juz finished my event management tutorial... tutorial 1 is always kinda lame.... having a splitting headache... dunno why keep on having headaches... maybe i'm having a tumor... but then again... who cares?

as for dear, our relationship has taken a plunge... but we are still holding on... we'll work things out i suppose... i juz hope that he's happy, that's all i ask for...

right now, there's nothing more important than school.... relationship wise... i'll juz let nature take its own course.... like wad they always say, love cannot be forced... we'll juz see......

headache is killing jul jul.... anyone wanna sponsor panadols? tag me....

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School Starts Tomorrow...

can't wait to go to school tomorrow and resume my status as a poly student.... sian with life at home...

guess dear is still sleeping bah? its oredi 1.47pm... he's not online, so i guess he's sleeping.. wonder why he's so tired lately.. aniwae, he'll be on his own... i'm going back to school... time apart is good for a relationship too... hope it does us good...

there's someone i'm particularly pissed with.. haven't start school oredi giving me problems.... damn... if i really am going to work with you this sem, you better watch out... making my blood boil liao.... you kan cheong spider, ms perfectionist (dun you know nothing is perfect in this world?), dominant fellow, autocratic rule doesn't work in this democracy world... don't you know that? incorrigible people will be condemned... and people have a right to express wad they feel... so dun push us too far, or you'll get nothing but a hell out from us! get it?

darn!

ta-ta....

Renovations...

having renovations at my house.. bad timing.. school going to reopen soon... i wanna pack everything back to my wardrobe by the time school reopens... erm... hopefully....

had drillings and dust all over my house... and my house is in a mess.. like refugee camp? haha... aniwae, they did quite alot todae... my wardrobe is more or less fixed.. except that they haven't placed the sliding doors.... nice~ nice~ i love my room even more now.. and even made a cupboard specially for my bags.... hee.. but now i really wonder if its enuff for my collection.. *oops* hee... i really pack and pack during the holidays to make it a cosy room.. had my notice board fixed, packed my stuff, threw away alot of rubbish and sold alot of stuff at cash converters... for money! heehee...

my parents, dear and i cleaned up the house when the contractors left... so dusty.. aniwae, thanks dear, for coming down to help.. sorry i had to trouble you... haiz.. another round of cleaning tomorrow...

have to visit the temple on sunday... its vesak day... but i think i'll be tired from all the renovations and packing... lucky still got holiday on monday... but i will still go to the temple... to pray for the new semester, my studies, for my parents, for dear, his health, his studies and hope he is always happie, and oso for everyone... i'm gonna be vegetarian on that day, like wad i do every year.... hmmm...

oh yah, watched the last episode of square pegs.. whoa lau.. wad a stoopid ending... sian man! waste my time catching the show...

hmm.. dear not back yet...

ta-ta...

Wide Awake...

can't get to sleep last nite... dunno why... keep thinking about our past... and wondered why things turn out this way.... oh well... when i finally fell asleep, this morning, around 6 plus, some irritating person called.. and guess wad? its wrong number... i can't sleep after that...

its only 8.30am now.. i woke up at 8.15am.. there was no one at home... made coffee and read the papers.... and then got nothing much to do. maybe later pack abit of stuff.. can't wait for the renovations to start tomorrow... my house is in a mess.... but right now, i love my room, coz i pack until so nice... i'm kinda proud... haha.. except when jie jie comes home and makes a mess of it... that's the cons of sharing a room with your sibling... though i would love to have my own room, i guess i wouldn't wanna sleep alone.... its good to have jie jie around... hee... (^_^) and i'm sad we can't go new york together!! damn attachment... jie, we should have juz went to new york this holidays.... too bad... haiz.... aniwae, i placed a nice jar of colourful m&m's to cheer me up whenever i'm stressed or upset... coz i have a craving for chocolates.... but i hate it when my sisters steal my m&m's to eat for their own pleasure... hurts me so much... coz i'm kinda broke and m&m's are not cheap ok? at the rate they are eating... i have to replenish stock every week! anyway, thumbs up for the new star wars m&m's.... its dark chocolate! and the colours are so gothic.... dark chocolate is always the best! but all flavours of m&m's are nice... crispy, peanut, almond, peanut butter, plain, white chocolate, dark chocolate... hmm.. so nice....

i guess dear's sleeping bah? as usual.. aniwae, its only 8.40am... who would be awake rite? hope his eyes are alright liao... dear got driving later... be careful...

gonna get my new wardrobe tmr! can't wait! wee~

5 more days to school reopen.. heehee... counting down... yay! can't wait to start the new semester.... can't wait to get busy.... heehee.. later gonna get timetable liao.. hahaha... hmm.. wonder who is my careperson.... 1st week got APEL class liao... and then those silly tutors would make us play icebreaker again... haha.. even when we are so old liao, then will never stop playing icebreaker games.... but aniwae, there's only 2 classes for the HRM and tourism combination... of course we oredi know each other liao... haha... but the happiest thing is, mrs valerie tong is teaching me again! wee~~ but i'm gonna miss velly...

haven't brought my dearest lappy to challenger to load my free chinese star program... haiyo.... *lazy me*....

gonna mit up with my ite frens later! intending to go coffee club for coffee and chat.... but then i wonder if jolynn is sian... oredi working at coffee bean everyday... and then go coffee club??!?! hahahaha.... hmm.. see lar.. actually i like the red sofas there at citylink.. they seem so cosy... i can sit there the whole day... hee...

oh ya, gonna put the lyrics of my video here... enjoy~

The Trouble With Love Is - Kelly Clarkson

Love can be a many splendored thing,
Can't deny the joy it brings,
A dozen roses,
Diamond rings,
Dreams for sale and fairy tales...
It'll make you hear a symphony,
And you just want the world to see,
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time...

The trouble with love is,
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie,
It's stronger than your pride,
The trouble with love is,
It doesn't care how fast you fall,
And you can't refuse the call,
See, you got no say at all...

Now I was once a fool, it's true,
I played the game by all the rules,
But now my world's a deeper blue,
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too...

I swore I'd never love again,
I swore my heart would never mend,
Said love wasn't worth the pain,
But then I hear it call my name...

The trouble with love is,
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie,
It's stronger than your pride...
The trouble with love is,
It doesn't care how fast you fall,
And you can't refuse the call,
See, you got no say at all...

Every time I turn around,
I think I've got it all figured out,
My heart keeps calling,
And I keep on falling,
Over and over again...
This sad story always ends the same,
Me standing in the pouring rain,
It seems no matter what I do,
It tears my heart in two...

The trouble with love,
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie,
It's stronger than your pride,
The trouble with love is,
It's in your heart,
It's in your soul,
Doesn't care how fast you fall,
You won't get no control,
And you can't refuse the call,
See, you got no say at all,
The trouble with love is,
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie...

kinda wad i'm feeling now too... hmm but aniwae, wadeva... love is complicated... dun wish to tok about it... gonna end here...

ta-ta...

Home Alone...

thot of going to the mall for a walk todae. but ended up staying at home... hate being alone.... wanted to watch madagascar but haven't open yet. haiz... dear went fishing with bryan, and then after that they went for soccer match. he's not home yet.... hmmm.... that's why i got no programs for the day.... didn't do much todae.. juz watched tv and help my little sis with her projects...

6 more days to sch reopen... can't wait... gonna get my timetable tmr, wonder how its like.... aniwae, got my class liao. i'm in 3B03.... same as liang and jan.. hehe... velly and jiayi is in the other class.. gonna miss them...

watched square pegs... the 7pm show on channel 8... so poor thing... loving someone is so difficult... and so painful...

oh ya, like the 9pm show on channel 8 too... zero to hero.. if i'm not wrong... shows life after death.. but izzit true? its so high tech in the other world?? haha.. hmm.. aniwae, watched the show and really make me see how gambling can do you in.. even a person's death cannot stop a gambler from gambling... no matter wad it is, 4D, mahjong.... especially when he says he would quit.. it would never be true... a gambler will never stop gambling....

channel u's show at 10pm... golden faith is oso nice... but then, got such a nice guy, with a nice heart, rich and handsome? really got such ppl exist meh?? and he loves like nobody's business... sabrina, then tianlan... can say love means love one meh? even if its not someone u love? they always make it so easy in shows.... oh well....

oh ya, changed my video to the old one.. kelly clarkson's - the trouble with love is... suddenly feel like listening.... hehe.... i like the music video, coz it has the love acutally clips.... miss that show... awww... its still my favourite.... hehe...

wanna watch desperate housewives vcd later...

ta-ta....

Bored...

not meeting the rest tomorrow coz our dance steps are almost there... so we dun need so much practice... feel down coz of some little things that happened. occupied myself by packing my room... its spick and span now... quite happie with it, but still dun feel as good...

hmm.... feel like going to the dog farm. but i'm not sure if they accept visitors or wadsoeva... read sharon's blog... said she went sentosa with her bf... *so envious* and i read that they caught sea horses?!?! haha...

i'm not in the mood to blog...

will stop here...

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Wee~

gonna mit up with all my friends tomorrow... and we are gonna do the line dance again! haha... going to velly's house to practice our line dance... mrs tong requested us to do the dance again for business day on the 27th of may. muz teach the year 2's the steps... and oso the business interest group organizing committee.... haha.. guess it muz have left a deep impression on her. we did enjoy ourselves during the last sem when we were presenting it for our human resource project... hehe... and we got good grades! can't wait to get busy with school again... then at least dear and i wun get chances to argue so much too....

aniwae, i met dear todae... went to cash converters to sell my samsung laser printer and other stuff.. earned quite a pile. haha... i never knew there was so much "fortune" in my house.. haha... now that we are gonna renovate part of the house, then i realised that i kept so much rubbish, for the longest time...

spent the whole day with dear... so happie... we were so tired when we came back from cash converters... we slept like piggies.. hehe....

oh yah, dear, thanks for fixing up the notice board in my room for me.... it was real sweet... and i'm so happie that i finally got it done... hee... and lastly, thanks for spending the day with me....

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Slow....

darn! when is tp gonna give us our timetable? gonna open school liao. and we dun even know our class? and subjects? and timetable? aiyo.. wad is this fast system man? its not fast at all...

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Chou Chou & Brownie...

at dear's house now.. he's sleeping soundly....

todae is our 4 and 1/2 years of our relationship... been thru many rough patches lately. and i dunno wad made us hang on... maybe its the love. but i wonder why fate brought us together since we are so different, be it personality or character, dear and me are poles apart.. nevertheless, i never regretted meeting him, though we have our different views and thinking but he was the one that made me life beautiful. we're still working things out. and i hope things would turn out well....

aniwae, took some pics of my favourite teddy bear, chou chou... went to ikea with dear todae, and he bought me another teddy bear. its the same as chou chou, but he's in a darker brown colour. thanks dear... now i got 2 favourite teddy bears... aniwae, decided to name my new teddy, brownie...

chou chou watching tv with dear and me...

brownie & chou chou

brownie & chou chou take two

*twins*

boo!

happie 54th month dear...

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Jul Jul Is S.i.c.k

the flu didn't go away yesterday. it came back last nite. and i couldn't sleep.

1.30am:
feeling down... was lying on my bed, getting ready to tuck in bed sleep. couldn't sleep... been thinking about our past... the happy times... starting to sneeze...

2.30am:
been sneezing for over an hour, and it is getting worst. felt unhappy. woke up and grabbed my container of m&m's dark chocolate and ate. hoping it would make me a little happier. ate a few of them... but my flu didn't go away.
(i must have been crazy rite? eating chocolates on my bed in the wee hours of the morning?!?!)

3.00am:
still awake and sneezing... trying to sleep... but nose is blocked... throat is painful and sore... felt horrible...

8.30am:
woke up suddenly, saw it was still early, went back to sleep... flu subsided but still didn't go away...

11.56am:
woke up... lay in bed... thinking of wad happened last nite... felt sore... maybe becoz of flu... ears are blocked...

been dying to blog... dunno why... maybe its the only thing i can depend on to talk to... or maybe i juz needed time alone... gonna stay home todae...

came online... shar asked me for the second time for dinner tomorrow... fizil would be joining us too and i think i haven't tok to him for ages... haa... and annabelle is back from canada oredi... shar told me she cut her hair short... wonder how she looks like. velly asked me if i was free anyday from friday to sunday... wanna ask me go city harvest... tracy msn me to tell me that jolynn is free next week, so we'd probably meet up with her and keh sheng next week... grace and ali is still planning for a time to meet... i didn't accept any of the invitations... i dunno why... maybe coz i juz wanted to be alone for the time being...

feel sick... juz now my ears went blocked... eeks... i can't hear... haa... felt like snuggling up in your arms and sleep... but then again.. i didn't feel like it... i needed some time to be alone...

thot wanted to go jogging todae. but i am sick. didn't think it was a good idea... wanted to go to the mall to walk alone... and felt like going to the library to read... even thot of going to the beach to sit by the waves... ended up staying at home...

haf to pack the cupboard so that the contractor can tear them out and place the new ones... but i'm scared to open the drawer coz there are so many memories in my drawer... your letters, your gifts...

13 more days to school reopen... i'm glad... can't wait... i dowan to stay home anymore...

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Out Of This Place?

had horrible flu this morning. it muz have been the weather. it was raining cats and dogs, and i still went to bathe. siao rite? think i caught a flu... gosh! and while i was brushing my teeth, the toothbrush knocked my ulcer in my gum! and it bled! u can imagine the pain! sway day lar... was hating myself for hurting myself.

been going through a tough period lately... and my sis asked me if i wanted to join her on a holiday... yeah, indeed i feel like.. juz wanna get out of this place... maybe distance will do us good? wanted to quickly get out of this place. i immediately said "ok! when?" but jie jie got work commitments and she can only take leave after my holidays. i was utterly disappointed.. so i guess i can only go during my next holidays. thot of new york.. but we are thinking of other options too... i need a getaway. the holidays at home are driving me nuts... tv has nothing, computer has nothing... my life is so empty...

chatted with liang on msn... and i realised i missed school and my close friends.. been missing out meeting up with them and i really hope that these 2 weeks fly past me, coz i miss school. staying at home only means more quarrelling... but liang told me something which i thot was true "do we need distance to get closer?"

realised that a relationship is so hard to maintain becoz,

its about 2 people,
its about 2 person's feelings,
its about commitment from 2 people,
its about understanding how the other person feels,
its about realising your partner's flaws,
its about character,
its about making sacrifices,
its about tolerating,
its about not asking for anything in return,
its about willingness,

its not all about loving the person itself...

love is complicated...

ta-ta...

Basketball

met up with dear todae. we went to play basketball. hee.. my arms are aching from the shooting of balls. but i enjoyed myself.. glad that at least i got exercise a little. thot of going jogging tomorrow. but i'm not sure.. we'll see....

aniwae, juz wanna thank dear for spending alot of time with me. school is gonna reopen liao. and i'm excited and scared... excited coz i finally can get to go school instead of doing nothing aimlessly at home. scared becoz i am afraid that i can't cope thru my senior year... hmm...

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A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson

A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me?
Would you agree?
It's almost that feeling that we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
when I tell you love has come here and now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender I can't explain
I may be dreaming but until I awake
Can't we make this dream last forever?
And I'll cherish all the love we share
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all?
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever, for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment, a moment like this
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Juz Dear & Me...

its raining now.. dear's sleeping soundly on my bed... i've been spending every single day with him, and i'm so happie... its been so long since we spent almost everyday together... we've been meeting up for 3 days in a row liao... dear's been coming to my house everyday, to tutor my little sis... we went jogging in the morning todae... then went for lunch together. i guess he muz be exhausted from the exercise and waking up early todae. dear, i really appreciate wad u do, travelling to and fro, tutoring my sis, accompanying me and jogging together...

dear, thank you, for loving me...without you, i'm nothing...

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PMS...

argghh... its the time of the month. its here.. hmm... but thank god i'm not throwing my temper... juz feeling crampy...

dear came over to tampines to meet me after his driving lessons. we went to eat, then went back to my place.. watched the tv. and basically juz slacked the whole day.

dear gave my little sis tuition in the evening... appreciate it alot. and moreover we stay so far apart... he had to go home so late coz of tuition. thanks dear... my mum's getting good impression of you. hee... aniwae, i'm very glad to be able to spend the day with you.

basically its juz lidat. and i'm glad that i got a good lot at the temple for you that day. juz want you to be happy, safe and well...

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Happie 57th Month...

i'm sick rite now.. having a splitting headache... didn't have enuff slp. went back to school todae for mentor training. but didn't complete it. decided to back out in the end. too much stuff to do. didn't want that commitment. went out with liang, jan and velly. its been a long time since we met and i think its wonderful to meet up again.

aniwae, happy 57th month dear. we've known each other for so long liao. 4 years and 9 months have passed us by lidat and i'm still very happy being with you. its been my pleasure being your girl and my life has never been better. it was you, that made a difference.

wanna go rest...

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