Moving On To Level 2...

level 1 happened when dear and me decided to give each other a chance to start this relationship.. we had feelings for each other... madly in love, and most importantly... happie.... we loved each other's company and e-mails were a must everyday....

yesterday nite... i finally replied him and agreed to move on to level 2... to open our joint savings account... the joint savings account was meant for our wedding. he was asking me since his army days. but i wasn't sure at that moment.. i wasn't sure if i was ready to take this big step... moreover, i was only 18 or 19 at that time...

now, i'm 21.. an adult... dear told me that i'm a big girl now.... i have to think.. or rather, we haf to think about our future... hehe... can't stand the thot of being a big girl....

in fact, i was happie deep in my heart.. i was happie that dear is still waiting for my reply, and was happy that we moved on to another level of our relationship - to plan and save our future together. i asked him "izzit a big step? wow!" he replied me "wad do u think?" he was so serious... i came to realise how lucky i was.. how lucky i was to haf such a faithful and serious boyfriend... someone who loves me.... and is oredi planning for the future....

actually dear brought me to fort canning before... but before he can bring me to "the place" i was oredi pleading with him to spare me the stairs.. so many stairs.... so warm... haha.. i thot he brought me there for fun! then finally at the end of the day, did i realise that he wanted to bring me to ROM.. wow~ but till now, i dunno why he brought me there... though he claimed that its a "secret place"... oh well~

thank you dear for wanting to start a life with me.. i can't wait too... but... NTU is waiting for you... before ROM... heehee (^_^)

oh ya! muz blog this! saw Mr S.R. Nathan and his wife at TP's convention centre todae.. he came for the launch of TP's 15th anniversary.... wow.. saw loads of traffic police.. aniwae, he's so cute.. waving and waving... haahaa....

i passed my HRM mid sem! i guess its juz pure luck... was supposed to fail... hmm.. but... i'll work hard! i promise i will!

yay! tomorrow's saturday.. can see dear liao... gotta give Qin mama new year stuff too... hee...

gotta go... ta-ta...

Soot Sprites and the Fat Rat...

hehehe.. isn't he adorable? awww.... i found this picture while surfing the net. decided to post this for everyone to see.. coz its so damn cute... isn't it? heehee...

Soot Sprites and the Fat Rat

ta-ta...

Quickies...

valentine's day is juz around the corner... newspapers are publishing stuff on love, couples, etc... read up the article on "Quickies" on Urban todae... there were couples who got married really young... there was one who got married when the guy was 20 and the girl 19. but they looked mature and loving. they were steady for 2 years before getting married. of course, there was no shotgun involved... there were even couples who got married after meeting for 13 days... and many more.. all interesting stories.. and thus, i conclude that love is such a crazy thing.. but it doesn't matter how young or old u are, or how long u went steady with each other... its the love and the bond that matters. cool article....

aniwae, todae is our 54th month.. happie 54th month dear... go steady so long liao... nothing much to say, juz thank you for being my best friend, teacher, soulmate, boyfriend, partner and lover... thank you for your constant care and patience towards my immature"ness" and thank you for loving me. i noe i'm not perfect or a very good and caring girlfriend. or maybe, i'm not even close to being your ideal dream girlfriend. sometimes, i juz voice out my opinions when i think differently. i dun gif u daily smses, to ask u if you are doing ok, or i missed you, or i love you or even juz asking if u haf eaten. sometimes, i wun even msg u for a whole day... but from the bottom of my heart, i care and love u alot. maybe i'm juz busy wif school projects or sometimes, i juz dowan to disturb you working. but thank god we hung on until now and are still going on. but there's one thing bothering me.. i dunno wad to get you for valentine's day... hmm... i asked you, u juz told me u want me to accompany you on that dae, but me, as your girlfriend, how can i juz give you nothing rite? hmm... *still thinking*

aniwae, went to watch "Shall We Dance?" with dear last nite. a nice show. about how to keep relationships going.... wad is most important is that your partner is happy... so romantic~ (liang, thanks for the tickets)...

by the way, i promised liang that i would feature his "Living Dead Dolls" on my blog. so here they are. his favourite doll is in the middle... hehe... its cool coz they come in a coffin together with a death certificate.. *spooky*

Living Dead Dolls

for now, i'm gonna do my projects and online test... might blog again... or maybe tmr.. but till then...

ta-ta....

Updates....

school was okay todae, except that my tutor told us that there were 11 failures for the mid-sem test.. i'm so worried... haiz... did some project research todae.. was fruitful.. got alot of information... then jiayi, jan, velly and me went to the food court opposite school to eat.. yummy! i ate duck kway teow... hehe....

got call from mummy... then realised that my little sis fell down in school... went to the dentist wif my little sis and my dad after school.. daddy came to fetch me.. aiyo! my sis fell down in school and broke her 2 front teeth.. can u imagine it? so poor thing! cost my dad $200+ for the two front teeth. and somemore haf to go back for review.. so poor thing.. the two teeth juz chipped off.. and its a huge chip! i wonder how she fell...

by the way, for those who haven't seen my new crumpler bag... here's a pic of it.. nice?!?! nice?!?!?! hehehe.. i love it! neither too big nor too small.. the best part is, i love the shape of it... so nice~ hehe...

My 3rd Crumpler - Super Snipe Olive!

by the way, valentine's day is juz around the corner.. and i still dunno wad to get for dear! hmm.. thot if getting issey miyake perfume for him... its nice! but kinda boring rite? hmm... so i thot of getting the figurines below.. i like them alot.. coz they are pointing to the ring on their finger.. so sweet rite? and the name is "I Still Do".... awww.... i noe, its kinda boring too.. but the look of it is sooo sweet.. hehe.... i'm gonna melt if i receive this...

"I Still Do"

for those who did not make it to my 21st birthday, here's a peek at my birthday cake... strawberry shortcake! sponsored by my sister! yummy!

21st Birthday Cake

haiz.. tmr got kelly services attachment again.. sianz.... muz wear formal again...
dear dun haf OT todae! yay! hehe.. but can't wait for thursday.. gonna watch "Shall We Dance?" together.. liang gave me 2 free tickets! hehe... thank you liang! (^_^)

that's all for todae.. gotta do project liao... coz later wanna watch PCK! hee...

ta-ta....

I Miss You...

dear, i miss you. dunno why. feels like we juz fell in love. hehe...

dear is working OT again. so poor thing. work OT and OT and OT... i juz woke up from my nap. slept like an hour... had headache after jiayi and velly left my house. maybe not used to the timing... woke up early todae. unlike the holidays. dun need to wake up so early...

feeling horrible. coz my shoulder muscles are aching. i dunno due to what though. but they make me feel tired... sianz...

waiting for dear to come home...

ta-ta...

Thank You Dear!

todae should be considered as one of the happiest days of my life... i spent the whole day with dear.. so nice~

we met up in the morning to watch elektra.. nice show.. very exciting.. leaves u wanting for more.... and jennifer garner is so pretty! after the movie, we went to the singapore art museum to see the "Botero" art. hahahaha.. so cute all the poeple are fat fat one.. very interesting....

dear accompanied me to eat prosperity beef burger wif curly fries and orange mcfizz! oops *guilty* but i was craving for it for quite some time liao.. finally! urge is gone.. haha... then went back to dear's house.. watched tv together and then we went to haf dinner at a nice coffee shop near his house. ate kang kong, sotong, fried youtiao wif salad cream and satay. whoa! really full lo. then went to the nursery to see flowers. dear bought bamboo plant (i dunno how to describe it, chinese new year then got one) for my mummy.. hehe.. then he sent me home in a cab. so sweet of him. i dunno why.. but what he did todae juz made me fall in love with him all over again. he seems so attractive to me... and when i msged him thank you for everything, he replied me that he did all these becoz he loved me.. as simple as that.. i was so touched. i felt very loved, very lucky... heh heh heh...

wad a happie day... ta-ta......

It's Friday!

its friday! yay! tmr can see dear dear liao. i miss him so much. dunno why. maybe coz i'm free? and he's at work? i haven't seen him for a week! i'm all alone at home. dunno wad to do. it feels as if we started dating and i'm missing him. heehee...

school reopening on monday... then the hectic schedule would be back again.. all projects and then time will pass very fast then it would be the main exams liao. i can't believe it man. then after that i would be year 3 liao.

haiz.. sian...

ta-ta...

My 3rd Crumpler.... Heh Heh Heh.....

hehehe.. got my 3rd crumpler liao.. hehe.. so happie.. love it so much. got quite a lot to blog since i din blog yesterdae..

went to jiayi's house in the morning to play wif her shih tzu (fendi) hehehe.. she's so adorable and cute! love it so much.. hope to get a dog too.. but my parents.. haiz... so i hope that my future husband would buy me one and propose to me.. a cute little shih tzu puppy or jack russell puppy wif a spot on the eye.. and then hang the wedding ring round its neck... and when i reach home.. there would be roses from the doorstep leading to the bedroom... and then to the bed.... with candles around the whole room, soft, elegant music and champagne.. and on the bed would be a puppy in a basket.. and... the diamond ring! hehehehe.. i sure say yes one!!! and maybe i'll call it "happy".... hehe.. dreaming hor? hahaha... oh well~

then went to orchard to shop for crumpler... saw tracy at orchard.. thereafter, went to suntec... saw annabelle and her boyfriend... she bought like 5 pairs of charles & keith shoes!!!!! hahahaha.... then accompanied jiayi to life bookshop.. hehe.. i went there to find ying ying... reached home dead tired liao..

todae, went to school for project... then went to bugis to eat sakae sushi buffet wif jiayi, velly and her sis... whoa lau.. damn full lor.. we eat and laugh and eat and laugh.. bought a shirt from DCP... very nice! and they change the sizing.. and now i wear "S" only. hahaha.. they got sizes from "XS" to "XL" wow.... hehe.. though the price abit steep for a tee la.. but i like it.. hehehe..

oh yah, cannot forget to mention! the little guppies that dear's dad gave me laid little eggs todae! i saw it! like the mini white ikan bilis.. and their eyes are formed liao! i was so excited! i told dear.. i think they are dead! coz they can't swim! dear said i gon gon one.. coz eggs can't swim.. how to move? hehehe.. wait for a few days see they got hatch ma.. i can't wait to witness my pet giving brith to little guppies! so excited!

dear juz off work.. guess he muz be really tired. i miss him though. din tell him... juz want him to rest well... poor dear.... i miss you...

ta-ta....

Have You Ever - Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much,
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad,
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words,
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever, have you ever?

Have you ever been in love,
Been in love so bad,
You'd do anything, to make them understand,
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away,
You'd give anything to make them feel the same.
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart?
But you don't know what to say,
And you don't know where to start.

Have you ever found the one,
You've dreamed of all of your life,
You'd do just about anything, to look into their eyes.
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to,
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you.
Have you ever closed your eyes and,
Dreamed that they were there,
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care.

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart?
To make you understand how I need you next to me?
Gotta get you into my world'
Cuz baby I can't sleep...

You Don't Understand Me....

quarrelled wif dear last nite. was wondering whether i should blog. was busy putting songs into my mp3. its oredi evening... and i haf nothing to do. there's no one to talk to besides my blog. so... i guess.. haiz... i'm not gonna say wad happened though. its a long story. but we haven't msged each other for the whole of todae... dear's at work... and i guess he's busy.... as for me, i guess its better not to disturb him.. i dunno.... better keep a low profile...

thank god there was liang online who chat wif me and sent me the "Alfie" song... glad that he came online.. liang said he tagged me. but i haven't seen it yet. there's something wrong with the tagboard.

meanwhile, i found a song that expresses what i'm feeling now... the lyrics are below...

You Don't Understand Me - Roxette

I’ve been up all night, you’ve been puttin’ up a fight.
Seems like nothin’ I say gets through.
How did this old bed fit a world between me and you.
We said goodnight but the silence was so thick.
You could cut it with a knife.
We’ve hit the wall again and there’s nothin’ I can do.

You’re the one,
I’ve put all my trust in your hands.
C’mon and look in my eyes, here I am, here I am.
You don’t understand me, my baby.
You don’t seem to know that I need you so much.
You don’t understand me, my feelings,
The reason I’m breathin’, my love.

The mornin’ comes and you’re reaching out for me
Just like everything’s the same
And I let myself believe things are gonna change.
When you kiss my mouth and you hold my body close,
Do you wonder who’s inside?
Maybe there’s no way we could feel each other’s pain.
Tell me why it gets harder to know where I stand.
I guess loneliness found a new friend, here I am.

You don’t understand me...
You don’t seem to get me, my baby.
You don’t really see that I live for your touch.
You don’t understand me, my dreams or the things I believe in, my love.
You don’t understand me. You don’t understand me. Understand me.

ta-ta...

For People In A Relationship....

"The things that people in love do to each other they remember, and if they stay together it's not because they forget, it's because they forgive."

Lonely Weekend...

its saturday... and what am i doing?!?! staying at home all alone.. facing my lappy... haiz... wad else can i do? dear's at work.. and will be working tmr too... oh no! wad's a weekend without dear? bored!

but come to think of it.. i'm having time for myself on a weekend! so contradicting~ oh well~ i was a good girl todae leh! i woke up early! then did a little part for dear's surprise valentine's day.. jul jul handmade card... hehe... then left it to dry... thereafter, i cleaned my room, packed my cupboard and fixed a light for my study table. hahaha... yay!

my fringe is short.. the hairdresser cut it so short... haiyo. why some hairdresser so "keh kiang" haiz..

i miss dear... happie working...

ta-ta...

*Sighz....

darn! juz got msg from dear... he muz work on saturday and sunday. which means we can only meet up tmr... feeling a little down, but i dun wanna let him noe.. coz he himself is upset oredi. this is worst than army... haiz... sad.... there goes my weekend....

so sad (-_-)

peeps out there... treasure your time u spend wif ur partners...

ta-ta...

Alfie....

first thing i went to when i turned on my laptop was to go to my blog.. dunno why, it seems that i can't wait to blog...

went to sch for projects todae... yeah.. its the holidays.. but i am still going back to school.. feeling sucks though.... have to type out the stuffs later... haiz....

aniwae, went to catch Alfie wif JJVL... its been a long time since the four of us catched a movie together... so nice~ the movie was okay only.. wanted to watch it wif dear, but msged him, he din reply. guess he's really busy.... but its no loss not watching it... i tink "closer" would be a better movie... and by the way, jude law is cute!

hope i can see dear tmr... msged him thrice todae. but did not get any reply... hmm.. so i'll juz go on waiting... hope he's doing fine....

loving you...

ta-ta....

Missing You...

been searching for the perfect blogskin again. but nothing caught my attention. most of the blogskins have multiple scrolls. which juz irritates me. hate it to the core. and some of the designers juz put some silly pictures... haiz.. i can't bring myself to change my blogskin. i think its simple and nice.. and i added a music video in my blog! its the Love Actually soundtrack! love the part around 2 mins 27 seconds.. where he showed "juliet" the card "To Me You're Perfect"... awwww! how many guys will tell u that? and love u for who u are? they would say u are this and you are that... and want u to change this and change that.... it's juz so perfect in the movies.... juz love it so much... its still my favourite show till now... too bad dear didn't wanna watch it with me.. hmph!

mummy went to choose a new maid todae... she's coming on the 11th of march.. then maribel is going home liao.. the new maid is married. wondered why mummy wanted a married one. coz she always take singles.. but aniwae, its not up to me to decide... i met mummy after she choose her maid.. daddy fetched us to TM... went shopping... bought new year clothes.. then went to lee hwa jewellery to clean my earrings and give my diamond necklace a fresh polish.. its so glittering now... yay! met my elder sis coz she's on leave too... then shopped abit... went to get some new year stuff too... then daddy came to pick us up...

dear told me last nite "i got something to tell u" i was horrified.. dunno wad he was going to tell me again. he told me "i miss you, so long never see u oredi..." my heart melted.. tried very hard not to be excited.. hehe.. in fact, i was overjoyed.. over the moon.. and overwhelmed!!!

poor dear has to work OT todae again... he's been working OT for 2 or 3 days liao.. guess he muz be really tired.. its the 10th day since i saw him.. i miss him too.. but there's nothing i can do. thot wanna pay him a surprise visit. but he's always working OT. even if he does not, he would be back only around 7 plus. by that time, its oredi time for me to go home. coz it takes me 2 hours to travel... oh well~ hopefully i can see him on friday...

take care dear... till then...

ta-ta...

Poor Dear...

was supposed to blog yesterday, but was looking for the whole night for a new blogskin. can't seem to find something nice and suitable...

went to jiayi's house to play with her shih tzu! her name is Fendi! so happie.. i love dogs.. and it was so heartbreaking to see her sad when we was about to leave... afterwhich, went out with jiayi, jan and velly yesterday. head quite a lot of fun. its been a long time since we all went out together. and we saw jeanette aw and adam chen at city hall.. wow.. she's really pretty...

todae, went back to school to do my online test... glad that i've settled it liao... got 16/20.. hehe.. wanted to aim for full marks.. but haiz.. nvm.. i tink its good enuff liao...

dear is the most poor thing one... haf to work OT for almost everydae.. and he's not exactly feeling well.. and he might have to work on this public holiday and sunday... and till now he's still working... dunno wad time he will be back... so poor thing... somehow, i miss him too.. i haven't seen him for quite some time... its been 9 days oredi.. and i'm gonna see him only on either friday or saturday...
deep down, i knoe that i treasure him alot.

Especially for Dear...

its the little things that we learn to treasure along the way,
the little time we spent together, is worth so much...
the love we share,
is not something that other people can understand...
its the bond between us,
makes us want each other more...
the bad that people can see,
i can only see the good...
it seems that you fit so perfectly into my imperfect life...
you showered me with unlimited supply of love,
stood by me thru the bad times,
wiping my tears away,
you were always there,
holding my hand,
walking with me,
this long and rocky road,
telling me that,
everything is gonna be alrite...
you always made me feel like the princess of your castle...
and would try your best to get me what I want...
i'm thankful for having you in my life,
because, without you,
i'll be nothing....

Created by Jul, with love...

Mid - Semester Tests...

i haven't been blogging for quite some time liao... been busy for the past few weeks... rushing reports, journals, write-ups, projects and presentations... finally all these has come to an end. but it is only juz the beginning... mid-semester test is on monday... so here i am stuck at home on a saturday... gotta study ma.. so i have to forgo dear for a week... aniwae, studies comes first... nothing else is more impt than that.. hee.. seems that his only competitor is my studies.. but oh well~ there's nothing he can do...

i haven't started studying... gonna finish this blog and start studying.. dunno why i juz feel like blogging....

dear is at ck's house playing mahjong.. guess he muz be really happie and having the time of his life.. though i dun like mahjong... but i guess, since he likes it, then let him do wad he wants la. why make myself troubled over him rite? aniwae, so long as he happie can liao... its his off day aniwae.. after working hard for 5 days.. i guess its the only reward that he has... oh ya! he promised to get me a bear bear if he won! hahaha... but i still like the light pink muji bag i saw yesterday. its love at first sight again. i wonder how i am gonna get over it... and its so shitty expensive.. its like $89! haiz.. and no brand! no one will noe its from muji.. juz like wad liang said..

glad that there is no attachment for 2 weeks.... (^_^) yay! no formal wear! sick of wearing formal... and those heels.... haiyo.. i guess, i'm juz not womanly enuff.. i prefer my havanias, or sneakers or slip-ons... heels juz make me unhappie..

okie.. better get back to my books.. i'll be free on mondae! 10am! looking forward! till then....

ta-ta....

It's Mid-Week....

todae is wednesday liao.. soon, mid semester tests will be here.. reports are due next week.. things are happening so fast...

waiting to leave my house to go mit dear... coz i clumsily left my wallet and ezlink card wif him when we went out on sunday... haiz.. silly me... and i didn't have $ for the whole week.. plus my NETS! such an impt thing... luckily tomorrow got no school... coz no more club & resort lecture...

wonder how dear is feeling.. he hasn't been feeling well for the past few days... dunno why... fatigue maybe...

nothing much to blog.. supposed to do my work but i'm so tired and sian... will do tonite or tomorrow bah? since i got no school.. hahaha....

sianz oredi...

ta-ta...

Happie 53rd Month!

happie 53rd month dear... knoe u for so long liao... 4 years and 4 months... from best friends, we became lovers.. missed those days where i'm not urs and u are not mine. and we keep on guessing whether we like each other or not. and i always try to dig information from you to noe wad time u off sch... hehe.. then we would talk on the phone for hours.. like there's no tomorrow... then i would always tell u all my problems... i muz say, i look forward to talk to you everyday and would call u straight after i come home. u were still in poly that time and i would always wait for u to reach home when u had lectures... i would always wait for u online... and i still am.... waiting till the day you buy your laptop... and come online and say hi to me... thanks for staying by my side thru all my ups and downs... we went thru alot to be together... i'll always treasure the times we spend together. people might not know u well and think that u are boring and unfriendly... but deep down in my heart.. u are the one that makes me laugh and brighten my day. i'm thankful that god gave me such a wonderful gift....

"how was ur work todae dear?" have yet to have a chance talk to you but i'm sure u did well.. looking forward to hear your story... hope things are smooth sailing at ur side...

by the way, my new year resolution is not to quarrel wif dear over mahjong. i hope i can do it. though i juz can't help hating it...

ta-ta...

Cold & Cosy...

its been raining alot lately.. not to mention that i dun see the sun that often now... so cold... it has been raining for the whole day oredi... juz had a hot bath after dear left my house.. and now, i'm sitting in front of my laptop blogging. feeling cosy wif my pink blanket covering my legs... so cold~

aniwae, i spent the whole day wif dear todae. frm morning till nite... met up for breakfast, then went to buy dear's stuff for work... dear spoilt me by spending $ to watch "meet the fockers" wif me... been wanting to catch the movie but didn't since we wanted to save $. we catched "kung fu hustle" on fridae and told ourselves that we shouldn't spend $ on movies since we are not very well-off now.. though dear's gonna start work tomorrow.. but we should save.. since dear is going to NTU in june-july.... but i'm very happie... he made me feel so loved and so lucky.. like... erm... a princess.... heehee.. i might sound silly... but i'm feeling blissful... even after 4 years of relationship....

juz to update.. my guppies are doing fine... and i'm glad.. dear came over for dinner at my house todae and took a look at them.... hee....

before i end, dear, good luck on ur first day at work tomorrow! jia you! i'll be right behind u supporting u...

ta-ta...

Happie New Year... It's 2005!

happie new year everyone.... brand new year... but school haf oredi started long ago... monday is coming soon.. haiz....

hmm.. aniwae, something to tok abt... dear's daddy gave me guppies! alot sia... and then i moved my current orange fish to the smaller tank and filled the big one wif guppies... the huge orange fish is protesting.. kept kicking water... naughty! aniwae, there is a pregnant guppie.. so cute.. and they are so colourful! i am so happie! hehehe....

lastly.. in this new year, i hope that dear's job goes smoothly, hope dear is always in the pink of health and hope that he is always happie...

ta-ta....

Bored....

haven't been blogging for a few days... busy wif schoolwork, attachment, projects... sian... now in school lab waiting for the time to pass.. now only 1.25... muz wait till 3.15.. haiz...

juz finished my comm skills online. glad that this fridae got no school... (^_^)

i did an interview todae at work! wif jan and yuyun.. it was a nice experience.. hahaha... it was my first time interviewing people... she lady was a single, 36 year old.. she was quite nice... but got low qualifications... its hard to get jobs these days.... hmm..

actually nothing much to blog oso...

ta-ta...

Can You Feel The Tension??

can u feel it? projects and reports are going to be due. and afterwhich it would be our mid-semester tests... FAST system is indeed too F-A-S-T.... hope this friday i got no school. but no gurantees... haha...

quite sian and tired todae. dunno why. and i gotta sore throat! arrgghh.... gonna rain soon... feel like sleeping. but after i blog i have to get on wif my peer teaching notes and carry on wif my communication skills...

jul jul is waiting for dear to reach home.... miss ya...

ta-ta...

Bought My MP3 Player!

i bought my creative muvo 5GB white darling liao! had it wif me 3 days ago but was too busy to blog. of course, it was kindly sponsored by my dearest mummy! hehehe.. its a matching gadget to my darling laptop too... hee... wanted to get the zen micro but i didn't like it long enuff... my love for i faded after while. hehehe... i love this mp3! yay! so happie....

didn't meet dear todae coz we met for 2 days in a row liao.. plus both of us are not working. so we haf to scrimp.... aniwae, i oso got my project to complete. so i guess its a good idea. aniwae, i can see him whenever i want coz he's not in the army anymore..

hmm... aniwae, gotta go call dear oredi. blog some other time.

ta-ta...

Thank God I Found You - Mariah Carey

this is song is dedicated to dear... its been on my blog for a long time and the meaning is obvious. juz wanna say thank you dear for the wonderful 4 years that you have given me. we have had our fights and unhappiness, but we stayed and hang on.. coz of one reason, we love each other deeply. i've never regretted being with you and i guess god gave me the best thing when he gave me to you. i am not your perfect or ideal girlfriend, and i can't love you the way you wished i could. all i can give you is my faithful heart which will love you till the day you stop loving me....

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate
Myself from you
After so much suffering
To finally find unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subsideI felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Coz baby I'm so thankful I found you

I will give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
Don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Coz I need you in my life

See I was desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain, to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And i'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Congratulations!

dear! congrats on getting a job! finally! after tons of interviews, you finally made it! so happie for you... meanwhile, before you start work, hope u enjoy yourself to the fullest....

dear's away... he's at kranji fishing.. wif bryan... so nice.. how i wish i could be there. but i juz came back from school. kinda tired though. todae was quite a fruitful dae... our group's FILA was good and our tutor said that we had work of substance. happie! so glad....

gonna have my second week of attachment tomorrow. feel excited but oso worried. worried that i make mistakes and i can't do the job well...

gonna get my mp3 soon.. as soon as my ERS arrives! everyone says i'm crazy about it. haha. i am! wanted a zen micro but decided not to coz of the price and hard disk. coz if drop on the floor, then that's it! $529 on the floor! so i decided to get the creative MuvO FM.. i guess that's better. coz the functions are somewhat the same. like, both are 5 GB, both has radio. except that zen micro is more pretty and has a little more functions like organizer etc. but MuvO only costs $449. compared to the $529. so i guess, i shall settle for the 2nd best.. aniwae, i think i'm beginning to fall in love with the MuvO. hahaha....

haiz... i hate to end this blog, coz it means that i have to start my research! arrgghh! aniwae, all good things come to an end... so wif this, i end here now...

ta-ta....

Say A Little Prayer For You...

going 2005 liao... dear haven't got a job yet...i'm kinda worried for him... dear's gonna haf an interview tomorrow. hope things turn out well.. i'm gonna pray for u dear. i'd rather haf tough times with you then good times with anyone else. i'll be wif u thru this tough period. i believe we can get thru it.

haven't been blogging for quite some time. so here's my activities for the past few days...

went fishing at changi wif dear and his friends. it was a total flop! no fish! nothing! bad fishing site.. strong winds.... dear gave his birthdae treat. kinda expensive i thot... but no choice.... thereafter dear's fren sent me home. felt bad coz its always me. i live in the exact opposite direction. i dun like to trouble ppl. i'd rather go home myself.. even when dear wants to send me home, i oso dun like to trouble him. haiz....

did practically nothing on sunday. juz spent it wif dear at his house. watch tv and slack. save $ ma...

came home around 5 plus todae. research taking up alot of time. quite tired and sian..... haiz... kinda miss dear.. but its mondae! haha.. nvm... guess work will keep me company for now....

ta-ta...

Heavy Heart.. Heavy Thoughts...

waiting to go to school. feel a little uneasy. felt like blogging to write my thoughts down... woke up thinking about what happened last nite. i'm so tired physically... so much work to do.. these few days have been sleeping right when i lie on bed. i'm so exhausted. and my relationship hasn't made it any easier for me.

gonna meet dear todae. supposed to be very happie. but in fact, i'm feeling lost and uneasy. i dunno why. coz he was supposed to mit his army frens todae. but stoopid me go and ask him out coz i thot i end school early... and i had no idea that he had an appointment. we had a little quarrel about it. in the end he cancelled his appointment wif his frens which did not make me feel any better. it made me felt worst. and since he cancelled it, if i dun mit him, it would be so bad rite? i dunno how to react.

we toked about many things last nite. our personalities, the different ways that we are brought up. its hard to keep the relationship going. my family is the "no u can't stayover", "no u can't go out late" type. my parents have been very strict wif me since i was young and i dun like to upset my parents, especially my mummy. coz i love my mummy alot. i always keep her updated of my whereabouts so that she would not worry about me if its late. its very hard. i dun wanna make things difficult for him. everytime we go out late, i'll feel bad, coz its becoz of me that he has to leave early to send me home, even if i insist that he dun send me home.

tmr is dear's birthdae dinner treat wif his close frens. he wants to hold it in the east so that it would be easier for me to go home. but i dun want coz all his friends stays in the west. i feel bad if he does that. its so hard. i noe i haven't been a good girlfriend.. i dunno... if i see god one dae, i would ask him to change my personality to what dear likes and if god tells me that he can't do that, i would tell god to make him fall in love with someone else. i feel so bad, sorry and i juz can't explain how it feels.

it seems like a long day ahead.... so vague.... the weather's bad.... my heart's feeling rotten.....

I Hate Mahjong!

mahjong has strained my relationship wif dear... it has caused us so much trouble, pain, anger and tears... we dun have this problem in the past and now, its becoming a part of our life and putting me and dear apart. its so funny how a game can make us become at loggerheads wif each other. but it definitely brought me down to tears... if i know the person who invented mahjong, i would shoot him! right in the brain! even if i had to go to jail or pay a death sentence...

i dun understand the importance of mahjong. i only know that it spoilt my relationship over and over, time and again. people might think that i'm stoopid and dear might think so too.. but to me, mahjong is never important. it has never stood a place in my life and my piority is always the relationship that i treasure.

once again... i hate mahjong!

ta-ta....

Finally The Weekend Is Here!

haven't been blogging recently for the past few days... been busy wif sch... getting used to the new timetable, new subjects, attachments, projects and reports... so sian... so glad that its saturdae todae... finally can see dear... miss him so much... looking forward to spending time wif him..

waiting for dear to come and pick me up.. we are going to the library.. have to return my books that i borrowed.. maybe sit there and read for a while.. hmmm.....

daddy gave dear and "ang pow" for his birthdae... so nice rite? hehe.. how much inside i wun say! gotta ask dear yourself!

that's it for now...

ta-ta...

Year 2 Semester 2...

was quite tired yesterdae, got home at 6 plus... so didn't blog in the end...

yesterday was the beginning of the new term for me... and another semester of new challenges. was quite happie to get selected for attachment with kelly services.. seems like something new and something interesting. but it also means that i have to work and study at the same time. hmm...

aniwae, dear has good news too.. he got an interview at carrefour todae. hope he gets the job... he so poor thing... gd luck dear...

now at home wif my laptop... waiting to go to school... juz for a 1 hour lecture.... so sian.. hee.. but its travel and leisure! so i guess i'm looking forward to this new subject. seems intersting to me. hope the lecture is good...

ta-ta...

Happie 52nd Month!

dear and me talked things out. we had a really long talk last nite... we are alrite now... as usual.. kiss and make up after a fight rite? aniwae, todae is our 52nd month... of friendship.. hehe... i knew dear for 3 months as friends before going steady and being his gal.. dat means we noe each other for 4 years and 4 months liao... hee... this guy ar... on the whole, he's very dependable, keeps his promises to his friends, loves brotherhood and cherishes them, doesn't make a girl pay, doesn't like me to go home myself, gives me surprises at unexpected times, dotes on me alot, dear believes that there is only one girl for him, no matter how good the others are (heehee)... but he's insensitive at times, muz be patient when dealing wif him, coz he's not the normal romantic kind of guy, he doesn't know how to coax a girl and when being wif him muz have alot of trust in him, he doesn't like to explain himself and believes that his gal should noe him best, doesn't talk much, but is a good listener, dun provoke him or else, when he's furious wif u, he would be on fire! but the most important thing is that, this guy is mine! and he loves me.. hahaha.. too bad for girls out there... heehee....

spent the whole dae wif dear todae.. very happie! though we did nothing but slack the whole dae at home... hee..

lastly, happie 52nd month dear, thanks for being that best friend always, the friend that i can trust and depend on... you are a wonderful boyfriend...

ta-ta

Stepped On His Tail...

been arguing wif dear for 2 days oredi. dunno wads wrong. we make up and then manage to find another thing to quarrel about... its nothing to an old 4 year couple like us. we haf been thru thousands of quarrels... and aniwae, which couple dun quarrel? its juz dat.. maybe i stepped on his tail and he stepped on mine.. somehow, i am glad that sch is going to reopen soon. hope that things would be better by then, since i would be busier.. i guess it would be good for us. we both think differently and it somehow makes our thinking clash and thus, its like neither here nor there. on the whole, he's a nice guy, but a little insensitive to how i feel, or how all girls feel... i guess, maybe i should have a new year resolution soon.. to depend more on myself....

we'll be going to alicia's 21st birthdae party on saturdae. i hope he's comfortable. hate to see him struggling... hope he's really alrite....

ta-ta...

Singapore Idol Nite!

taufik rocks. pls vote for him!

dun let some ah beng win and imagine him on world idol! wad a disgrace to the country!

ta-ta..

1 More Week To School Reopen....

juz msged dear, but he didn't reply. guess he's still sleeping. but its oredi 12.46pm... wad a piggy.. oh well... aniwae, i'm all alone at home. got nothing to do except surfing the net... sianz....

its one more week to school reopen. looking forward to it actually. i've grown fat from the time i spent at home. and can't wait to see my friends too! hmm.. hope we are in the same class... timetable would be out on the 2nd.. ali's birthdae on the 4th and 5th got my cousin's baby 1st month. then 6th sch reopen. actually dun like the arrangement. very packed.. i like it when i have alot of time to prepare for my sch reopen..

haiz...

ta-ta...

Juz The Two Of Us...

spent the whole day wif dear. juz dear and me... went to shop at bugis for alicia's b'dae present. then i bought a skirt from BUM... afterwhich headed to dear's house... we watched bridget jones diary! dear taped it for me the last time that it was shown on tv... so nice... and sometimes i do feel like bridget.... fat, clumsy and always behaving like a fool~ wanna catch the second episode in the cinemas.. but then i dowan to burden dear.. so didn't mention anything abt it... i love the movies.... got so many movies to watch... like the forgotten, birth, taxi and bridget jones diary... hmm.. i guess, i will watch them one day... right now, dear matters more... i dowan to add on to his burden anymore.... then right after that, we watched another chinese show... dunno wad white dragon haha.... got francis ng and cecilia cheung... it was ok la.. juz to pass time....

had dinner at dear's house... dear's dad cooked.. yummy! then left his house around 7pm and headed home. that's how the sundae is spent.. sweet, short and simple...

oh ya, by the way, dear mentioned to me that if i dun wear specs, i look pretty and he said that i muz tie my hair halfway... as in pull the left and right sides together... hehe.. i burst out laughing! hahaha.. he scolded me, said that everytime he tell me, i dun believe him.. haha.. me pretty? nah... ugly duckling bah!

before i end.... juz wanna thank dear... for.... everything......

ta-ta...

Headache...... (-_-)"

woke up wif a splitting headache... felt terrible.... ate panadols but i guess they are of little use... waiting for dear to come down to my house. we got no programmes for todae. at least for now... there seems to be nothing much to do... actually was supposed to go kite flying, but i dunno wad happened.... oh well~

my parents haven't been very nice... i mean.. my dad... i dunno why, but i knoe i haven't been a naughty girl... well... toking about that upsets me... i didn't wanna stay at home todae, but scared that he would call and call to ask me to go home. and i didn't wanna stay at home coz i dowan dear to come down. his finances are running low and i dun want him to travel here and there. even lately, i have been going home myself... though really miss the days where he would never fail to see me home.. i guess, i have to think about other things instead of being so selfish... everytime i meet him, its another constant worry for me, coz he would always wanna pay for our meals... and thus, i guess, staying at home is good too... i hope he gets a job soon.. seems that jobs are so hard to find nowadays. in fact, i think that the company should at least inform the candidate that they dun want them, at least they wouldn't wait in vain. this waiting game that all companies use is such a torture....

i'm not feeling well... ate 2 plums... the headache makes me feel like vomitting.... hope nothing bad happens todae. i juz wanna spend the day happily wif dear. and i know that deep down in my heart, i need this man in my life. though things are too early to tell, i hope that we can haf a life together. the thought of losing him makes me so sad and lost... how can i ever live without this guy? hope dear comes down quickly, then i can complain my headache to him.. hee....

ta-ta..

Stranded...

arrgghh.... i am stranded at home! yesterdae forgot to take my wallet back from dear. i left it in his pocket. and now i dun have anything. i dun have my NETS, my ez-link n my cash! haiz... so forgetful.. now i can't go anywhere.... so here i am at home, blogging in front of my darling laptop.... my white and silver toshiba!

hmm... so sian now... but its so nice to stay at home.... hehe...

ta-ta....

My 4th Fishing Experience...

went out todae wif dear n bryan n his gf... last minute... hehe.. was supposed to stay home todae. but then we went fishing at bedok jetty instead. todae none of the fishes died. i put them back in the water before they died. very happie... caught alot of fishes... hehe... then i saw xiuli wif her fren riding bicycle. she called out to me.. was so shocked when someone called out my name...

afterwhich we went to changi village for dinner. had the nasi lemask.. so cheap! only $2 for chicken wings, eggs and ikan bilis. the sambal was good! but i got ulcer on my gums, so i did not get to enjoy it very much... and the queue was so long! dear bought supper for my parents... 16 pieces of chee kway! my god! so much! and he didn't even tell me until after he ordered it.... it was so sweet of him... but the quantity was too much!

bryan drove me home afterwhich... felt paiseh coz he always drive me home.... but i thanked him for it before i left.... hee....

on the whole, i had an enjoyable dae.... a day well spent wif dear... something which i always feel happie about... something which takes the troubles away from me.... dear seems like everything to me. though i dun tell him or say it often. but i guess, he's the thing that keeps me going on. my parents haven't been very nice about it. i dunno why, but for some reason, they seem to keep on bugging me whenever i'm out. i dunno wads the matter now... but i'm oredi 21. i dun see why i can't haf a little more freedom. i even make an effort to call home always. haiz... hope they can realise it somedae. i guess, its becoz i'm a girl. but thru all these nonsense that my parents gave me, dear was the only encouragement for me. sometimes i feel so lucky, so fortunate, so indebted to him. he stands by me in wadeva situations.... that's what i call love~ a love that is unselfish n responsible.....

thank u dear.... u haf been my strength all these years.....

ta-ta...

The Kiss...

met up wif dear juz now. had breakfast and then we headed to the library. we spent quite a long time there. so nice and quiet in the library. juz the 2 of us reading books. dear was reading computer stuff. while me? i headed to the romance section. hehe.. adult fiction!

i borrowed a danielle steel, titled, "the kiss". a very nice book. in the very old english times where divorces were abnormal and women stay faithful to their marriages even though its not working out. here's a little preview to it...

the story was about a woman, named isabelle, who stood by her marriage, even though she knows that her husband (who is a high standing banker in paris) had totally shut her off his life. he no longer loved her. they sleep in seperate rooms and he no longer asks about her. he resents her because of their son, who is sick and was born 3 months prematurely. he does not like his son. and never talks to him. then isabelle met bill (who is a politician and also has a loveless marriage), through her husband's introduction at a party. and from then, they kept a long distance friendship. they then agreeded to meet for a few precious innocent days in london for their common interest for art. the art exhibition. but what lies ahead was, they were both looking forward to spending time together, purely as friends. but they find themselves fallen deeply into love, but none would say anything. they found their friendship changing.... and on one evening... they exchange their first searching kiss... until when time stood still when a double decker bus crashes into their limousine and crushes the both of them. isabelle and bill cling on to their lives, their bodies almost beyond repair. together they must find strength to embrace life again and face wad they had left behind..... a tale of changing relationships and a tragedy of another loss consipre to seperate them once again... and this time, they can lose each other forever... hmm.. can't wait to know if bill and isabelle got to be together. hehe. after i read finish, i will post the ending on my blog!

dear came to my house thereafter.... but he's on his way home now.... oh yah! tonite got phua chu kang! hehe.. i love it!

did i mention? jiayi checked for us! liang, me, jan and jiayi are in the same class! velly i dunno.. coz i dun haf her admin number. but in any case, i read the tp webbie, and they said that the arrangements are not confirmed. hmmm.....

aniwae.... that's all for todae...

ta-ta....

The Incredibles!

couldn't get to blog yesterdae becoz something went wrong wif my laptop! but i managed to repair it! only this morning... haha.. but aren't i clever? hehehe.. intended to bring the laptop to challenger to repair, but who knoes man! i solved it!

went to watch the incredibles with dear yesterdae. i liked the show! so nice~ enjoyed it.... hmm... then headed back to dear's home. juz slacked. so nice~ hehe..

that's about it.. gonna mit dear soon... we are going to the library! :)

ta-ta...

My 3rd Fishing Experience...

was too tired to blog last nite.n reached home around 11plus. yesterdae went to bedok jetty to fish wif dear and his frens. whoa. i tink yesterdae was the dae we caught the most fishes. at first, they were all living quite well. then i guess we caught too many, they were all grasping for air. though i brought my portable airpump. but the slowly died. haiz.. so sad sia. they can nvr live! why?! hmmm.... curious...

we left the jetty about 7 plus, then jf treated us dinner coz it was his bdae! went to marina to eat steamboat. yummy yummy! enjoyed my dinner though. especially the prawns! they were so fresh! hee... dear was sweet... he shelled all the prawns for me.... heee... i didn't even need to lift a finger...

headed back at home afterwhich. luckily bryan drive me home, if not damn late oso. but then i so paiseh, coz they have to drive here n there. tell dear i go home myself he oso dowan.. haiz.. wad to do, i'm the only one living in the east...

hmm.. aniwae, i had a great time overall.... hee..

ta-ta....

The Boring Old Holidays...

seems like this time, the holidays are especially long. i dunno... i feel so sian at home everydae. and i can't possibly mit dear everydae.. coz "meeting = spending money".... and plus, we stay so far away.. haiz... i dunno wad else to do... internet oso got nothing to surf....

aniwae, dear went out wif his mom todae.. i was supposed to join but then i didn't go in the end. coz tonite 9pm show is last episode liao. i scared i cannot make it in time to come home and watch....

hmm.. dunno wad to write liao..

ta-ta...

Family Outing With Dear & His Family

whoa. i was too tired to blog last nite. went home whole body aching. hehe... but i enjoyed myself. went to east coast wif dear and his relatives. they went there to picnic and play at the beach. dear, me & his dad went to bedok jetty to fish. i caught about 10 to 15 fishes. but threw them back in the end. coz they wouldn't survive aniwae. i got a sunburn! the sun was so strong.... hmm.. but then it rained in the afternoon. dear & me left about 5 plus. we went to parkway to makan. so nice~ juz the two of us. then dear sent me home. and i slept in the bus all the way. was so damn tired. but so nice to sleep. coz dear's shoulders so big... and i felt safe coz i know i wun miss my stop wif dear around. i was so tired and i got home, watch charlie's angels and then slept at 10pm... so early rite? came down wif a flu and headache. took panadols then slept.

this morning woke up with migraine! arrggh.. luckily this time panadols worked. i popped 2 into my mouth before going out wif my family. went wif my dad and jie jie to watch "bride and prejudice" nice~ nice~ hehe... then my mum and my little sis went to watch "shark tales" hmm... we then met up for lunch and then shopping and lastly, grocery shopping! luckily by the end of the movie, the headache went away. it was such a relieve! phew! and now i am here blogging!

guess dear muz still be at his relative's place playing mahjong. hmm.. wonder wad time he would be back. aniwae... hmm... hope school starts soon. i'm missing school.... and gaining weight.. arrgghh..

ta-ta...

Outing With Dear....

dear and me todae so crazy. we went to the science centre todae. hehehe.. spent quite some time there. coz got nothing to do ma. then after that mit bryan and his gf for lunch. coz dear gotta tk the thing for catching crabs frm him. coz tmr we are going to east coast to picnic and etc with dear'r relatives. so we decided to go fishing. hehe... so fun. i can't wait for tmr to come.

kinda tired todae.. feeling sleepy.... hmm.. and i haven't packed my bag for tmr's outing.. hmm.. i dun feel like blogging liao...

ta-ta...

Happie 4th Year!

yay! todae is me and dear's 4th year together. so nice rite? hehe. so long liao. time passes so fast. but in fact we didn't do much. we juz stayed at home and snuggled in each other's arms... then in the evening we headed down to singapore river to pick our anniversary leaf. we have 4 leaves now! 1 leaf represents a year! and now we have 4! so happie. hope to collect even more with dear.

we had a simple but enjoyable dinner filled with love at lau pa sat. hee.. ate so much, i can still feel it up to my neck. we ate sambal stingray, kangkong, sambal squid and even satay! juz the 2 of us. u can imagine how full we are! hehe.. but we still shared a roadside ice cream with wafer biscuits. juz $1! it was very "wen xin"......

dear did not send me home though. he was feeling abit sick.. in fact i wanted to send him home but he didn't let me to.... was worried abt him coz he kept sneezing.... poor dear.. hope he gets well soon....

aniwae, tonite is idol nite. haiz. wonder who will get kicked out tonite and miss the chance of being a big star. i hope its daphne though. i hate her singing. it sucks. and her chinese is kns. the rest of the 3 i all oso like.. but i hate to see them leave... hmm.. well.. stay tuned to channel 5!

lastly, happie 4th year dear. thanks for staying by my side all these while.. its hard to tell u how much i appreciate u in my life coz words cannot describe how i feel. u should know by now how much u mean to me and how much i love u..... forever yours....

ta-ta...

Shopping...

i haven't been blogging for the past few days coz so sian dun feel like blogging. todae went out wif mummy and my little sis todae. we went to watch the princess diaries - the royal engagement. coz my little sis wanna watch it. i went coz since its free anyway. hee.. my mum pay ma... then went shopping wif mummy before heading home.

din meet dear for 3 days oredi. not missing him though... hmm.. i guess i'm used to it.. coz last time he army oso lidat. aniwae dear went to play basketball wif his primary school friends while i'm out wif mummy. we are both busy wif our lives. hmm... haven't get to tok to him yet though.

i'm feeling kinda weird. guess the time of the month is coming. feeling crapmy and sianz. the blood going everywhere.. arrgghh....

dear... faster call me.. i'm moody (-_-)"

21st Birthday Bash!

juz came back from my chalet todae. was very happie with the results. was all wad i wanted. so much energy, so much food and so much friends. it was so stylo. hahaha... i was so happie... and thank you for those who came to my party. the include, ali, grace, liang, jan, william, cecilia, leona, yasmin, gladys and tracy. plus dear's friends too. thanks for taking time to come to my party.. i felt loved. dear, thanks for everything you have done for me too. and thanks for taking care of me. hee.... friends who were there, u know the energy that nite. it was fabulous. i wun say much here. except that it was the time of my life. thanks!

I'm 21!

hehe... i'm 21! was too tired to blog yestesterdae. and aniwae, yesterdae was also me and dear's 51st month.

dear gave me something that no one would give me. haha. its so beautiful. i dunno how to describe it. its like a glass figurine and then with a rotating stand that changes colour when it is switched on. he bought it from raffles city. i guess its not cheap. its that special shop where we always go to! haha. i found many cute stuff there too. dear came to fetch me and then we had breakfast and then headed to the supermarket! hee.. we had steamboat for lunch. so nice~ juz the 2 of us.... somemore yesterdae rain ma.. hee... it was simple, but i was happie, coz dear was with me.

yay! tmr is my chalet check-in dae. i'm so happie and excited. can't wait for sat too... so many ppl gonna come! its like a class gathering.. hee.. haven't been sleeping well these daes coz i'm so excited! yay! my big birthdae bash!

oh ya did i mention daddy gave me $50 angbao again? heehee...

So Bored!

dear left me at home todae. say he was gonna get something wif bryan and that i can't tag along. haiz.. so bored. dear will only be back at nite.

made chou chou a pants todae. he looked to cute! i juz adore him. hehe...

aniwae, i'm so bored, i dunno wad to write! juz hope that dear comes home soon...

"Chou Chou"

went to meet dear early in the morning todae. i was looking forward to it, coz we are heading to ikea! yay! so nice to see all the furnishings and the nice layouts. how i wish my home was nicer. hee.. aniwae, i was touched by something that dear did, though he say until like so normal, but i was touched deep down in my heart. he asked me which bed i liked, which layout i liked, which kitchen i want and wad kind of toilet was nice... hee.. he even took paper and then he said that we should start planning. he told me "u tink easy ar? these things all need money. at least we have an aim.." it costs a bomb of $100,000. juz for the basic necessities.. excluding the buying of house and renovations. whoa... its juz the skeleton and its like so much money. i told dear that its still far, why think so long? he told me that its time to plan. it was fun though, looking for our bed together, out bathroom and kitchen... so sweet. we even tried so many sofas, like a newlywed couple. i told him imagine before wedding buy house oredi so much money. haa.. he said, ya lor... hee... guys are so poor thing.. of course i wun let dear bear all this alone. but our taste are good.. hee.. we decided on the modern black, white, silver concept. very nice~ and why this blog is called "chou chou" is because, i bought a teddy bear at ikea that i like alot! really! it's only $4.50 and i love it so much. dear named him "chou chou" hee.. i think it looks cute wif a name lidat. hee.. bought some stuffs for mama and 2 cardboard boxes for storage of the poly notes. getting more and more.. dear cameover to my house for dinner afterwhich.

tomorrow gonna jumbo seafood to celebrate my birthdae and jie jie's birthdae with my parents and of course, dear.. it was my parent's idea. so i guess tomorrow we are gonna head down to east coast.. looking forward~ hopefully it doesn't rain..

ta-ta...

Home Alone...

dear went to help his dad at work todae. hope it doesn't rain. poor dear. i know he was reluctant to go. he sounded so sad.. he hated the job. but no choice la dear.. is ur dad. if u dun help him then no one would.. juz try to bear with it. who ask u so free? heehee...

so here i am, stuck here... at home. aniwae, its gonna rain soon. so i am somehow glad that i'm safe at home. heee... oh yah, did i mention dat i dyed my hair last week? hee.. i look so "gd girl" now coz no more highlights! hee...

my birthdae is coming soon and i'm getting excited! hahaha... was thinking about the presents that my parents gave me and i was like "wow!" haha... my dad bought me my laptop, which costs $3000 oredi. plus my chalet costs $190 and my buffet costs $360. and my mum bought me a $1400 diamond pendant necklace. not forgetting my elder sis sponsoring my birthdae cake which costs $120. all of which adds up to a total of $5070! gosh! muz buy 4D liao. hahaha...

hmm.. sianz.. ta-ta...

New Blogskin...

yeah.. got a new blogskin. was bored with the last one. so i decided to keep things simple. decided to use this skin. was quite satisfied with this one.. though its pink, i think it looks okay. it made me happie.. hee... enjoy~

ta-ta...

White Chicks

dear went for a job interview todae. he looked smart in formal wear.. hee... beauty is in the eyes of the beholder ma. hahaha.... the job dunno can get or not, but i dun like to stress dear to find a job. juz want him to feel happie and no stress..

after the interview, we went to catch "White Chicks" todae finally! i enjoyed the whole show... very nice. makes me laugh n laugh. dear enjoyed it too. he kept on laughing and laughing. and though i was watching the movie, i was secretly peeking at him smiling. makes me so happie to see him smile.. the actors are so funny. hahaha.. its entertaining and worth the money....

dear, thanks for spending the day with me once again...

ta-ta...

I Got No Supp Paper! Yay!

my heart was beating so fast juz now when the sms tone rang! luckily dear was with me. he was the one who opened the sms and claimed a little credit! hmph! yay! i am quite happie with my results. they get better every semester (at least for now) hehehe. and i'm very happie coz i have put in alot of hard work. so scared juz now man! haha. can't slp for 2 days coz of this. i'm so glad everything has come to an end and now in can slp and play in peace! can oso celebrate my 21st birthdae happily. i think this is the best present that i have given to myself. heeeeheee.. so happie.. dear's happie for me too! hahahaha.... thanks dear... i know i couldn't do it without your support. thanks for seeing my thru everything and always being there for me.

ta-ta..

Steamboat Frenzy...

went out wif JJVL todae... went to get liang and velly's birthdae present. had so much fun and laughter. hahaha.... was supposed to get my present too, but i couldn't find any nice items to buy. heehee.. aniwae, liang and velly treated jan and me to steamboat. had so much, i'm still so full now. i was very happy, coz we are so close and laugh so much. heeheehee... thanks liang n velly.. the bill came up to a lump sum of $95.... not cheap sia... velly's going back to indo tmr.... boo hoo hoo...

dear is watching movie wif his frens now. dunno wad movie he watch. nvr wait for me. hmph! hope dear come back early. he always come back late. actually i oso dun like but he oso dun care. always go out late late... flower leg.....

ta-ta...

My First Fishing Experience...

was too tired to blog last nite. dear went out wif my family yesterday morning for breakfast at Tung Lok Restaurant. we each had a bowl of sharksfin and delicious dim sum. the bill came to a lump sum of $170... whoa! afterwhich, i spent the whole dae with dear and his friends at bedok jetty to catch crabs and fishes... was quite happie.. i managed to catch a garupa (correct spelling ma?) with juz a nylon string. hahaha.. i think its juz pure luck. aniwae, we managed to catch quite a lot of fish. we were there from 2 to around 8 plus. i had quite a lot of fun. and it was my first time fishing. dear was such an expert, casting the fishing rod and everything.. so nice... but i caught my migraine and it kinda spoilt my mood... bryan's gf was so nice, asking me if i was okay and when i got home, she msged me too...

i had a nice time learning how to fish. it was a nice experience. thanks dear~

ta-ta..

I'm Happie, Coz Dear Is Happy...

spent the whole dae wif dear todae... i'm very happie.. coz dear is happy.. juz as simple as that. seeing him so happy juz makes me so delighted too.. went with dear to bugis, at the back of the streets.. why? to buy fishing stuff.. dear has his new found interest.. hehe.. so i supported him... the price is kinda steep.. but so long as he likes it and is happie, i would be most willing to give him my support.. we went to get the fishing stuff.. the rods, bait.. and other stuff which i dunno... spent like $70 on all the stuff... and he was so excited about it. he looked like a little boy who has got a new toy... aniwae, we are going to bedok jetty wif his buddies to fish this saturdae... bet he's looking forward to it...

went back to dear's house after buying the stuffs.. i cooked for dear and he... haha.. of course meddle with his fishing rod.. and after dat came to the kitchen and proudly show me his fishing rod after fixing the wheel... he was gleeming.. haha.. look so happie...

i have always known that when dear is happie, i would be happy too.. but todae, i felt it.. i felt his happiness and i shared his joy... and i realised that everything else didn't matter so long as he was happy.. so simple...

aniwae, thanks dear, for everything... for the 3 years and 11 months of love and care...

ta-ta...

Happie 47th Month!

happy 47th month dear! 1 more month to go. and we will be going steady for 4 years. can u believe it? we actually went through so much together. especially your army life. and not forgetting.. todae is your O.R.D day. so happie O.R.D too.... guess you muz be real happie in getting back your pink i/c instead of the silly green SAF ones.. i'm happy for you, and i'm glad we managed to get thru that critical army stage, where having you around me and looking after me was no longer possible, i had to be independent when you are not around me and i have to take really good care of myself. though i'm always very careless until now.. heeheehee... and seeing you as often as i like was not up to me too... it was all up to your "sir" but after you became a "sir" you had bigger responsibilities which i have to understand and i had to be your pillar of support. coz i noe that if i wasn't there for you, you would be lost. aniwae, those days are over. now i can call u as and when i like. heehee...

though it was our anniversary, we did not spend the dae together.... i went out wif liang and velly instead.. it was enjoyable though. the bonding between us was great and we toked alot. it juz seems that we have known each other for a very long time, but then again, when u think, it is not that long... we went to velly's condo for a swim.. which was cool~ i got a tan! and my body's burning now! hahaha.. and then we went to TM for lunch and afterwhich we went to catch Wimbledon. not a bad show. it was so exciting that we wanted to jump when the player was about to win... heehee... that was how exciting it was. hahaha.... after the movie we went to starbucks and i drank rhumba.. eekss.. fattening.. but i enjoyed it.. so it was a win-lose situation.. aniwae, i dun rhumba often~ hahaha... then spend for about 45 mins at starbucks... did nothing but talk about gays and men and results of our exams and friendship and wad would happen in the future and many more. we juz got so much to tok. so nice to be together. we spent the whold dae together. and the thing is.. we are all happie!

dear, on the other hand, went back to camp to get his pink i/c and then met his fren for a movie in the evening too... he's not back yet. guess he's still in the cinema. i haven't toked to him for a day. i guess we would have alot to tok later. looking forward~~hehe.. okie.. gotta go...

ta-ta...

Simple Sunday

it's sundae... i'm at home now.. so early rite? hahaha.. dear's at my house... erm... to have dinner, watch tv wif me and... hmm.. tk a nap? hahaha... went for a little shopping in the morning. though we did nothing much. but managed to catch jackie chan's new police story.. not bad not bad... so many movies are coming out.. arrgghh.. not enuff $ to watch liao.. still got wimbledon and white chicks. i think there will be more to come!

dunno when will the results of the exams be out. but hopefully can pass all.. shucks man! haiz.. keeping my fingers crossed (-_-)"

ta-ta...

Dear, Where You Going?

dear msged me in the morning, told me that he's going somewhere, to buy something, but cannot tell me. i dunno wad he is up to. he juz said that its a secret. leaves me with a big ???? wonder wad he is up to again... dat silly dear dear..

my flu is getting better, but my throat becomes sorer. and the phelgm.. arrggh.. i shall spare the details. actually, i hope to see dear soon. kinda miss him. we din see each other for about a week and still counting.. coz of my exams lo... we only survived through telephone. hehe.. hope to see u soon dear! then i can search your room and find out wad u went to buy and wad u are up to. hahaha..

aniwae, dear told me something sweet yesterdae.. will always remember it in my heart. juz makes me *melts*.. heee...

tmr HRM paper.. i'm not so scared. but aniwae, gotta get back to my books soon...

ta-ta..

Sick...

arrgghh... i'm down with flu and sore throat.. and u haven't been updating my blog lately becoz of the exams. been studying very hard for the papers. hopefully i pass. not too sure of it yet. had my second paper todae. ops was sokay. hopefully i pass. thanks liang, for teaching me.. it was great to have u in the same subject as me. why? coz u are a super duper clever whiz kid.. everything u oso knoe. i wonder why god made u a human being. they should juz make u a god of maths. hahahaha....

aniwae, haven't been feeling too well lately. juz woke up from my afternoon nap. lucky tmr no paper, so i'm taking it easy. and the nxt paper is HRM! my favourite. hope to do well too!

lastly, dear, thanks for supporting me throughout the exams. (^_^) appreciate it alot!

ta-ta..

Happie 50th Anniversary!

it's like 1am in the morning. i am still not in bed. still fighting with finance. arrgghh.. i need my freedom. hate exams!

aniwae, happie 50th anniversary dear. i got to know this shy guy 4 years and 2 months ago.. we became fast friends, or rather best friends. can tok about anything under the sun. he made me fall in love with him. this shy guy of mine, used the e-mail to ask me to be his girl. he's so adorable rite? hee.. can't believe it man. still got one more month to go and we would have been steady for 4 years. hee... dear, thanks for loving me.. so glad to have u around.. we've been thru so much more than other couples plus your NS and everything.. glad that things are finally settling down. our next hurdle is, graduating! u from NTU and me from TP! looking forward to the day you wear your graduation outfit! :)

i am having problems absorbing the formulas on topic 9 of the finance topic! i can't stand it anymore.. that's y came to blog. hahaha... gonna get back to the books! arrggh.. hate it man.. shucks!

ta-ta..

Got Dear's Letter!

i got dear's letter! dear wrote to me! hahaha.. so happie. he drew something for me. so cute and sweet. i am so happie... hehe :)

*all smiles*

Why Are Guys So Insensitive??

been quarrelling wif dear again... haiz.. i dunno.. i juz know that i love dear the way he was before he went to NS. i really do. its all changing now. so, for all my girlfriends out there, treasure your boyfriends when they are still un-enlisted. u might think that he won't change, you might be so sure of it. but be careful. i thot so too. but i know that there is no deceiving anymore. things are changing. he always tells me that i oso got change. but he dunno that i changed because of the change in him. it made me so terrible now.

was quite hurt recently for the string of events that happened lately. especially sentosa. i've always wanted to go to sentosa with him. why? coz i love the beach. and i thot it would be a beautiful place to spend it with someone i love, since i always go with ali and grace. i thot he would love it too. but i was wrong. i thot he would appreciate it. but he didn't. dear went twice with his friends to sentosa oredi. wad about me? none. i felt terrible. i dunno how to react. call me petty or wad. i dun care. i juz felt horrid. he loves going with his friends so much. and all the reasons are like, oh u wanna go on the weekends, so many ppl.. my friends ask me alot of times liao. paiseh. wadeva. i dun think i'll ever go to sentosa with him. not anymore. i thot i could show dear the little fishes there at the end of the beach. but i doubt i'll ever will. that place now reminds me of something so saddening. he won't understand how i feel. he never will.. its something i like so much. dear always tells me. if it makes me happy, he'll do it. he knoes that i'll be happy if he brings me to sentosa, but he juz won't go. he knoes that i love to take pictures, but he never wants to take with me. and till now, we haven't taken pictures for 1 year. why won't he take with me? coz he dun like to tk pictures. well, wadeva the reason is. i always got mistaken and will always wonder if this relationship was all one-sided. he loves chatting with his friends, playing mahjong with his friends, going sentosa with his friends, going holland village to eat with his friends. but i'm juz a dumb girl. standing by him thru all these. and not being appreciated. i dunno wad love is. i know very well, that i didn't change. i have always been like that. now dear's needs are more, he needs mahjong, he needs staying over, he needs to satisfy the needs of his army buddies. sometimes i wonder if there are girls in the outing. but i never asked. if he got someone new, i'm sure he would tell me.

besides this, we still have so many problems. i'm starting to wonder if i got the right guy. he wasn't like this before. maybe i wasn't too. he forced me to be like this. short-tempered and petty. i can handle friendships so well. but when it comes to relationship, its juz zero score for me. i dunno wad is happening. i'll juz take one step at a time. i wun ask dear to go sentosa with me, nor will i ask him to e-mail or write to me anymore. i dun think i'll write to him for the time being. i shouldn't do so many things. why should i give so much to the relationship? relationships dun work if only one person is willing. both persons have to be willing to commit. what use is it if i'm the only one slogging hard to maintain this relationship? i'm so soft-hearted. i always tell him that its my fault. which sometimes i dun even knoe what i did wrong..

dear, why are u doing this to me? driving me to the wall? wad good does it have on u? i need the old you. i need the lost you. i need the Qin before enlistment. i know its all gone now. it will never come back. i was reading your last letter that you wrote to me before enlistment. u told me to wait for you. i did. but don't take me for granted. pls. i'm not a toy. dun always assume that i'll be there. pls treasure me. i beg you. i'm going crazy..

(-_-)

Last Sunday...

this is gonna be the last sunday to meet dear... why? coz my exams are coming! arrggh.. so i won't be meeting dear until 2 weeks later. gonna forgo my weekends to meet him. i can't afford to fail. aniwae, studies are more important no doubt dear is important too.. hee..

juz realised that soybeans from carrefour taste awful! eeks.. not nice one. ntuc ones taste better. was so hungry juz now, i drank campbell's cream of mushroom and ate my favourite walnut cake from bengawan solo! i juz love walnut cake. dun ask me why. heehee..

aniwae, spent the whole dae wif dear. went to orchard to shop and bought a new bag.. again.. hahaha.. dear is wondering why i need so many bags. hee.. oh well.. girls are girls...

tmr is study week. arrgghh! gonna meet liang and jiayi and velly to study... sianz... juz 2 more weeks to go...

ta-ta...

Exams Are Here... (-_-)"

next week is exams liao. ahiz. can't wait to get over it man.. so sianz...

todae went to mit liang and velly to study HRM. glad i did some quality work. then met dear for dinner. went to seoul garden to eat coz i was craving for steamboat. didn't eat lunch. which resulted in a pain in my tummy at the end of the buffet. it felt horrid.. went to haf a sit and then i felt better. the pain was horrible!! eeks...

haiz. still can't find my dream bag. i juz feel like buying a bag. have one imaginary bag in my mind. but no one seems to sell it. went to rip curl website juz now and came across 2 bags which i like though. dunno singapore got sell or not. haiz..

dear went to bryan's house to play mahjong. he told me he's going home tonite though. i dunno how true is that actually. but aniwae, juz let him go bah..

hmm.. tummy's feeling a little weird.. gotta rest..

aniwae velly, i added u to my blog! hee...

ta-ta..

Last Presentation...

hurray! did my last presentation todae. was so glad that the semester is coming to an end. how time passes... its been 1/2 of my poly life oredi.. exams are coming soon.. grr..

went out wif dear after my presentation todae. dear was so crazy. he wanted to mit me. why? coz i was wearing formal. hahaha.. silly dear. aniwae dear went to pick me up and bought mooncakes for my parents. they were YAM! hahaha... so nice! and then we headed down to Marche for dinner.. so nice. we had sambal squid, sambal stingray, seafood combo (which consists of squid, prawns, fish and soft shell crab) and ROSTI WITH SOUR CREAM! (my favourite!) heehee.. so happie..

thanks dear.. for everything... i'm lucky to have u around..

ta-ta..

Tuesdae... Tuesdae.. Tuesdae.

dear has left early in the morning to mit his friends at harbour front. they are heading to sentosa. hope he enjoy his trip..

exams are coming soon... arrgghh... so sian.. aniwae, later gotta go for marketing tutorial.. plus, i still gotta mit up wif liang.. gotta do the presentation slides for PSQ.. sianz man...

hmm... oh yah! i gave my laptop a name! it's called "Baby" coz its white n silver n its so small... (at least smaller than liang's one.. haha.. and i got more USB ports than him!) heehee... aniwae, its my baby... love it so much.. daddy bought it as a gift for me for my 21st birthdae.. heeheehee...

okie la.. gtg sch soon! ta-ta..

Drfiting Apart???

juz finished toking to dear on the phone. we din tok much. or rather, i din tok much... dear said that i have become not as vibrant as before.. i used to be very chatty and tok alot.. dear asked me if we were drifting apart and that i was losing interest in him? definately not.. i am sure.. i would never lose interest in him... maybe its due to the busy schedule i have in school.. i dunno...

dear's going to sentosa wif his army buddies tmr.. i was kinda upset when he told me. not bcoz i dun want him to go, but because whenever i asked him to go, he would say no. and told me that since its the wkends there would be plenty of people.. dear told me that he is aware of that and said sorrie.. coz his buddies asked him plenty of times. but me too.. din he think about it? he said he did and he dunno wad to do. well.. he's gonna go aniwae... he told me sorry that he's not a good boyfriend as he is not able to fulfill my dreams and always make me angry n sad.. well.. wad can i say? but its ok...

i dunno wad's going on.... i'm not angry wif dear... juz loads of knots in my heart.. wonder when they will be untied...

ta-ta...

Phew....

haven't been blogging for the past few days.. has been busy with projects.. and i got 2 due tmr! been so busy these days... aniwae, i got 10 mins to spare, before i leave house and mit dear... we are gonna catch dodgeballs.. hahaha.. sure very funny one.. tink i'm gonna enjoy the show..

aniwae, i finally managed to buy my "chicken in a biskit" after a very long search.. haha.. NTUC dun sell it anymore... i bought mine at 7-11....

dear has been very understanding for the past few days (he has always been understanding! :P) coz i have been so busy, staying back everydae to finish up my projects.. he has been there, waiting for me. even if it means me sleeping at 3am, he would gladly wait up for me. i'm very touched, by the little things he does..

dear, its not about a big diamond ring, gifts that u shower me with or expensive gadgets... its ur care and concern that matters.. i felt it... u loved me, treat me like a princess... like i was the most precious thing to u.. sending me home on every single date that we go... its like... wow~ after 3 years and 10 months... u are still so sweet to me.. its going 4 years soon... and i've nvr regretted being with u... coz i know u are the one for me... no one will knoe ur goodness except me, and i'm glad to be ur girl....

thanks for standing by me thru all these late nites that i had to work.. u haf been most understanding and patient... i love u..

ta-ta..

The Terminal

so long nvr blog liao. the mystery person tagging my blog must be reading my blog.. i wonder who it is. i think i know who, but i can't be sure... he or she seems like my guardian angel. makes me feel protected.. i dunno why...

aniwae, went out with dear yesterday.. we went to watch The Terminal since i got no school. actually was supposed to do my HRM project. but i juz dunno why got no mood to do. i have to slog todae liao. haiz... but the show was nice. i enjoyed it..

been meeting dear alot lately.. hee.. guess it is a good thing? but not good for long, coz dear haven't found a job.. SAF won't be providing for us anymore. hahaha... so happie.. 1 more month.. dear ORD! yes! haahaa.. pink colour IC would be back soon...

aniwae, was supposed to meet jiayi to do project in school but she smsed me told me she can't make it coz she slpt at 3am. haahaa... aniwae, gotta go sch for finance lect and ops lect later.. sianz... todae will end at 5pm. can't believe it man. so sian to go to school...

my network connection ar. lately xiao xiao.. can connect, then cannot, i very sian liao. dunno wats up man!?!? hmm.. aniwae, gotta go back to HRM..

ta-ta...

Stressed..

whoa.. i can't believe it man.. time passes so quickly.. very fast going exams le.. sianz... and the worst thing is i have to hand in HRM project on Mondae... arrgghh.. stressed sia..

aniwae, haven't been blogging for the past few days.. hee.. coz saturdae went to CK's birthdae party wif dear. finally saw his gf.. not bad.. hee.. and saw bryan's gf too.. they were all quite nice ppl to get along.. hee.. exchanged numbers! i think i'm too talkative bah? hahaha... then the best part is, i came home late, and my daddy asked dear to stay over.. coz its late, no transport and somemore take cab gotta pay surcharge. so dear decided to stayover too.. hee.. my parents were so hospitable.. mummy took mattress and toothbrush for dear and my dad lent dear his clothes. hee.. since we are all stinky from the bbq.. no sleeping together though.. poor dear gotta slp on the sofa in the living room. but dear told me its ok, at least we made some progress.. it seems like a lot for us though ppl might think, "chey, only stayover ma" but it is our first time staying over together.. we chatted till 1am... then dear asked me to go to bed.. and my dad came out from his room too! haha.. he asked us why so long still haven't slp.. hee.. i tucked dear in bed, kissed him goodnite and went back to my room.. the feeling was undescribable.. juz so... hmm.. i guess only dear and me knows.. our relationship is not easy, coz of my parents they are very strict wif me... poor dear dear..

juz called dear not long ago... his primary school friend was at his place. can't believe it man. wad are 2 boys doing at home? hahaha.. aniwae, said he will call me after his friend goes home. i suggested it, coz i think its not nice since there's someone at his place. he should play host.

hmm.. spent the whole dae wif jiayi.. haha.. laughing and eating and doing project.. stressed again~ heee.. aniwae... hope our project turns out well! cheers!

ta-ta...

Thank God Its Fridae!

been so sian these days with school.. projects and all.. glad that todae is fridae.. i'm juz gonna hand in my marketing project and go for my ops tutorial.. exams are coming soon.. dread those days. my main aim now is not to get supp paper.. hee.. aniwae i did well, got A's for HRM and Mktg.. finance was okay.. i'm happie with my finance results.. on the whole, i passed all my subjects... yay! muz work harder for the coming exams. i'm determined to do well... but for now, muz concentrate on my HRM project and PSQ... shucks..

aniwae, gonna be meeting dear later.. he went back to camp todae for his medical checkup.. then gonna be meeting me for lunch and to buy CK's present for tmr's BBQ... and back to my house for dinner and then tutor my little sis..

hope todae will be a wonderful dae... :)

ta-ta..

Thursday...

haha.. looking at my blog title, dunno wad title to put. aniwae, i'm at the school library now with jiayi.. hahaha.. she doing the finance tutorial.. haha. the both of us actually say wanna come and study finance but ended up toking, surfing and eating. haha.. guess its juz us bah.. heehee..

wonder wad dear is doing now.. hope he's feeling better... little tummy ache.. so poor thing.. hee... miss you..

ta-ta..

My Nose Is Running Away...

haiz.. spent the whole dae in school todae. and the worst thing is, i'm feeling so fat the whole day.. shucks.. i muz go on a diet..

down wif a flu.. felt so horrible.. came back and slept like a pig.. then studied for my mock finance test tmr.. sianzz... exam coming liao..

dear's not feeling well too.. he got tummy ache. hope he's feeling better.. tk care when i'm not around ok??

ta-ta..

Roller Coaster....

phew.. didn't have school todae. was glad though. hee.. met dear todae coz he needed my laptop to type his resume as his computer is down. so we met for breakfast, then went to buy cute little handphone holders for his room. i chose them! heehee.. one fat piggy - that's me! and the other is a fat cow - that's dear! hahaha.. now our phones haf something to sit on.. hehe.. and Qin mama said it was cute! she asked dear whether it was me who bought it.. haha.. she even commented on dear's room.. say i pack for him so neatly.. haha.. i haf to admit i was happie.. hee..

dear spent the day doing his resume, while i was continuing with part 2 of the packing. which means, packing dear's cupboard and closet. hee.. hope dear liked the layout of it. he finished his resume and fell asleep on his bed. and i juz continued packing and like a fairy godmother who woke him up to show him is "magical cupboard" hahaha..

everything went fine until dear shouted at me for no rhyme or reason.. coz of where we wanted to eat. i was upset. tears flowed down. he was remorse, i juz ignored. after all the things i've done. we made up though, or rather, i chose to forgive and forget and compromise or else things won't get us anywhere. i insisted on going home myself after dinner though, saying it was still early.. he gave in, in the end. i was quite glad to go home alone though. hee.. but dear msged me when i was on my way home. somehow he sensed it? that i was upset? oh well.. i chose not to be unhappy.. juz told him that its alrite... dear said something which touched my heart.. he told me that i'm the best and he can't imagine how life would be without me because i have already been part of his life and he can't do it without me. i was really touched on the MRT...

aniwae, we are fine now. felt like i was taken on a roller coaster ride todae. hee.. but nevertheless, i was happie todae.. and glad to spend time with dear... still love u loads..

haa! juz found out that i dun need to take PSQ main exam. yay! so happie. at first thought the school nvr let me take the exam. hahaha..

aniwae, gotta go.. tmr got lecture at 10am sia!
ta-ta..

Not So Blue Monday...

it's monday! but i'm feeling good.. only for the thot that i did not manage to drag myself out of bed in the morning. but on the whole it was ok.

was supposed to meet dear to but i guess i'll juz give it a miss for certain reasons.. firstly, dear has to pay for my expenses of i meet him for dinner.. and then i guess its better if he goes with his friends. if not his friends say him this and that again. stoopid army guys. no brains de.. hahaha.. but its a good thing coz i get to meet grace, sara, yasmin and gladys. i dunno who else is coming though. hahaha. but i guess it would be fun to meet up with my old classmates. aniwae, gonna meet grace and sara early and buy flip flops from havanias. hahaha. i think its gonna be so fun. but i'm not wearing very nice lei. haha.. got the typical sch slack look.. hee.. somemore carry along my laptop. haiz.

now in school doing my PSQ project.. arrggh.. can't wait to buy my flip flops. haahaahaa.. aniwae hope everything goes fine for dear coz he's gong to find job todae.. heehee..

ok.. gotta go liao.. ta-ta..

Glad...

so glad that everything is finally back to normal. though dear and me did quarrel for a while in the morning. well... i guess we were juz on the wrong frequency.. but things we great after that..

helped dear to pack his room.. so nice now! and we even hung up our cute little couple slippers that sharon (yeo) gave me last sem.. heehee.. so sweet.. packed all the stuff! so dusty and dirty.. and then also saw the tons of letters that i wrote to dear.. he kept them nicely in a box.. and i oso saw the letters which his crush wrote to him. hahaha.. even laughed at him about it!

then went to play badminton wif dear's cousins. actually had a wonderful time todae. dear sent me home too...

nevertheless, thanks for being in my life thru all the ups and downs.

ta-ta..

Sunshine Is Finally Out After The Storm

dear was back home early. so unusual of him.. but i was glad.. heehee.. i guess things are finally fine now. we had a wonderful chat over the phone.. i am supposed to slp now, but i can't help but to blog. can't wait man. haha..

dear asked me if i had a daughter, wad name would i give her? and we started talking about our children's names.. hee.. dear chose Edward for his son. as for me, still haven't made up my mind. haha.. he chose.. Edward Eng.. so cute.. E squared.. haha.. or double E.. then i guess the daughter's name muz be starting with an E too bah? maybe Edna? or Edwina? but dear didn't like Edna, which i quite like very much.. haha.. i think we think too early le bah?

tomorrow dear and me are gonna go orchard for some shopping and then head back to his house to pack his messy room.. haahaa.. guess its gonna be a nice day bah? heehee.. aniwae, hope to see dear soon..

meanwhile, i think i better tuuck in bed since its going to be 1am oredi.. shucks! haha.. ta-ta..

Family Day..

didn't meet dear todae.. he went to pulau ubin to cycle with his friends. those reading my blog muz be feeling surprised! haha.. jul at home on a saturday?? yeah.. wad to do? we have been quarrelling over the same problem for the past few days. taken our relationship into a strain. i wished this week never happened in my life..

was dreading this saturdae to come. coz it juz feels so weird. toked to dear till the wee hours last nite. toked alot, really toked. but i guess, it wasn't fruitful.. he told me many things of which i didn't know. and somehow, though i know that he's not telling me all this coz he wants to win my sympathy or wad, but i juz feel like i'm a thorn in his life. i regretted entering his life. i regretted saying "yes" to this relationship. i regretted being his girlfriend. coz i'm juz like a barrier between his friends. i dunno wad i'm supposed to do. a little care and understanding.. that's wad he said. but when i need ur understanding, u were never gonna understand. u are never gonna understand how tired i am to meet you after school.. i felt like the worst girlfriend on earth yesterdae. i felt like a failure. i didn't know wad u wanted, i can't read your mind. and i wonder, how some people can juz walk out of relationships as and when they like. love hurts so much, though the happiness you receive is double.. love was never easy at all.. it is always easier said than done. promises are hard to keep and old habits die hard. if i could ever turn back time. i wouldn't wanna be in a relationship.. it juz hurts too badly..

i hope tonite passes even more quickly. i juz wanna slp and wake up to find myself on mondae. this is the first time i hated weekends.

but though so many things happened. i'm glad that i spent time with my parents. daddy drove us to PS.. in his new car! hahaha.. so nice.. leather seats and everything.. then went for lunch at lao beijing. ate until $90++ whoa.. haha.. i loved the xiao long bao and the peking duck. of course there were other things too! hehe.. then went to carrefour to get some groceries and junk.. haha.. by the time we drove back, it was already 5 plus. i'm so glad that half of the day is gone. i'm juz so sian. i think i never wanna get this week back anymore..

dear, our relationship is taken to another level of test again. hope we are able to pass it.. the last thing i wanna do, is to lose you. i thot of letting you go.. but i have no courage to do it. actually i know u can do it without me.. i dunno how u would feel if i told u this. i'm juz gonna gif each of us another chance. work things out. hopefully, we knoe where we are getting at... lastly.. i still love u all the same...

love and relationships are such complicated stuffs....

ta-ta...

Blissful???

dear dear is at my house now. he is currenly tutoring my little sis. and here i am blogging on my beloved laptop. dunno i should feel blissed or wad? where to find a boyfriend like that? but i'll be contradicting wad i said in the morning..

juz now dear and me met up and then we went for dinner and then catch a movie.. guess wad we watched? Garfield! hahaha.. he's such a cute and lazy cat. juz reminds me of dear dear.. aniwae, i enjoyed the show. dunno why, i dun seem to be angry with dear anymore. i dunno wad has got into me. haha..

dear's friend called him juz now i think. i dun wanna ask oso.. i guess, i should be glad that dear dear has been very nice to me. so wad matters most is that he is happie bah? aniwae, i should be joining my parents for dim sum tomorrow bah... hahaha..

by the way, i haven't announced the good news! my ops management presentation was a success! yay! my tutor was impressed. hahaha.. can't believe it man. juz so happie..

okie.. gotta end here now.. gotta go and do my mktg project liao..

ta-ta

Happie 49th Month...

todae's the 3rd.. means that i have known dear for 49 months.. well.. its equivalent to 4yrs and a month.. well.. happy 49th month dear. though i dunno why we have been quarrelling these few days.. we were fine on tuesday.. but it juz seems that things fell apart after that.. perhaps ur trust in me has gone. moreover, i still need to change.. but when u fell in love with me, u fell in love with my everything. i dunno why i need to change now. because of ur friends? i dunno wad is the reason. but still, i will change for you.. coz i love you. love is sacrificing..

had been feeling upset the past few days.. but i guess its all not worth it to be upset over your friends.. coz in the end.. i will still be at the losing end. coz u ppl are guys.. guys are insensitive, full of pride and ego.. guys think that love is juz a part of life, while girls think that love is everything..

i still have alot in my life.. why cry over guys??? at the very end, i know, at the very least, grace and alicia would always be there for me.. rite?? hee..

gotta go sch soon... got my operations management presentation.. wish me luck!

later gonna meet dear.. dunno why he wanted to meet me so early? becoz he misses me? or juz becoz it would make him less guilty tmr? i usually love saturdays, but i dread tmr's saturdae.. i dun wanna bother... juz wanna hide myself under the covers.. haha.. at least i got fei mao with me.. and my beloved laptop :)

You Made Me Stronger..

wad u said to me did pulled me back yesterdae.
i was gonna have to give up one of the two days that i can meet you,
because of your friends..
weekends are precious to me,
i reserved them for you.
i was upset.
i cried last nite,
i lost sleep.
but through alot of thinking,
i realised that,
crying over this was not worth it at all.
not in a situation like this.
i'm not sure who is right or wrong in this situation.
i juz know,
i juz dun feel like talking to you right now.
and i must thank you,
for making me stronger than i used to be.
its ok,
it doesn't matter anymore.
meeting doesn't mean anything.
it might be a good thing,
for the both of us.
i can juz spend time with my family, my parents,
and i can do my projects.
i dun wanna care anymore.
its taking so much of my time and energy.
i have other things to see to.
i'm so tired..
i'm sorry..