This Is It

my iphone alarm didn't ring just yet. but i woke up an hour earlier than expected. was hungry since last nite. ate 2 sandwich jam biscuits. and hmm that's besides the point. having little tummyaches now and then. and i keep wondering if its becos i really have a bad tummy, or its just becos i'm feeling jittery.

ok. so today is the day. this is it. i'm gonna be someone's wife today :) happy, yet i have a whole load of emotions running though my heart.. we went through happy times, crazy times, bad times. everything else under the sun that a couple could have experienced. i remember him serving NS, and me waiting for him to book out every saturday, or if he called me after lights out. those crazy days or even weeks, where we couldn't see or talk to each other for long, we hung on. for the past 10 years, i've dated this guy, and no other (ok, fine, i've never dated any other guys). yes, other guys have crossed my path more than once, but at the end of the day, at the bottom of my heart, i know very well that this is the only man i can spend the rest of my life with.

and today, i will wear his ring, take his surname, join his family.
i couldn't be happier to be a part of his life. i hope he is too.
and we will, make this work, holding hands walking down our path.

he just texted to say he's on his way :) 

love you baby.

6 Days

its exactly 6 days to getting myself a hubby, and being someone else's wife. if i said i wasn't being jittery, i would be kidding myself totally. i asked dear if he felt jittery, scared or excited, he felt neither. he said "wads there to be scared about?" haa. yeah, that's true. its a happy occassion. perhaps, its becos i'm a girl. afterall, you'd be taking someone else's surname, earn yourself, another set of parents, and family members.

yes, i know, i'm just being paranoid, cos its just ROM. its not even the traditional wedding. but to me, the ROM mattered more than anything else, becos its the "legal thing". having the traditional wedding is nothing more than just a tradition to me. in any case, if something happened to me after our marriage, here, mr eng weiqin, would be my legally wedded husband. i always asked mummy and dear why the traditional wedding mattered more to people. and they always answer me with the same answer. mummy would say "ya la... i also dunno." and dear would simply tell me, sadly but true, "becos you are chinese."

i hate it when people ask me"why get ROM now? why don't do it together with the traditional wedding?" need i give you an answer? we get married because we are in love. its that simple. dun come bugging me for an answer. and yes, our house will not be ready by 2012 and yes, we will still be living apart. but so what? we are already ready to be man and wife. and no one knows better us. who says husband and wife must live together? dun be such a nag.

still, thank you dear for making everything possible. literally everything.
looking forward to life after 13 november.

One Week

finally managed to have dinner at home, but at only at 9.30pm. dinner has always been bread bread and bread in the office. its just one more freaking week to d&d. i'm overseeing the whole dinner. super tough planning an event with 1800 staff. been working late this whole week, 300 prizes need to be tagged tomorrow, talent competition auditions on friday, retreat on saturday.

work.work.work.

wedding vows not done. appointment for fitting not done. flower bouquet not chosen. rings not engraved. guest list not ready.

luckily dear took over the planning.

i feel lucky to have you.
mine.

The Vows

been busy preparing for the company's annual dinner and dance, and my ROM, i'm super tired. planning, planning and more planning.

its 3 months more to a lifetime of commitment. writing my wedding vows, changing, editing them, then writing again. trying to keep it simple.

preview of our destinee bands.

dear: nothing's ever too difficult so long as you are around.

When A Man Loves A Woman

i forgot..

through all the in-and-outdoor work, day-and-night, the thing i'd love to do most is to hit the sack every night.

i guess, i have forgotten about the most important person in my life.

i've forgotten to appreciate the little things he has done for me.

things he do to make me smile even though he's not by my side... regardless, he's online every night, just to keep me company.

our random, countless, dates...

picking me up after work, waiting endlessly, yet patiently for me to finish work. turning round and round the city hall area cos the bellman wouldn't let him wait at the lobby. vrooooming me around every weekend regardless...

supporting me in becoming an runner. not hesitating to get me new shoes when mine had an "open mouth".

for becoming my pillar through the 9 years...

coincidentally, today marks our 9th year and 5th month. and without a wink we've been engaged for 11 months. i'm still glad  you're by my side to love, learn, grow, nag, argue and fight with me. like i told you, i'm gonna leech on you. and that rock on my finger, will constantly remind me of how much you love me.

did i mention? i lubb you...

weather.leave.dizzyspells.class95

in my room. aircon on. lappy with me. listening to class 95's love songs. the weather lately is freaking hot. i love quiet nights like this. just that dear's not online.

i left my blog to die. i know.

am feeling tired physically, yet i'm refusing to sleep. spent my day with ex-colleagues over lunch and coffee. i'm so glad to have met so many of them. at times like this, i miss working there, yet there's really nothing much to miss actually. people i know have left, or intending to leave. the vacancy was offered to me today, yet again.... still, i'd stand by my decision made and i'll never go back.

people are asking when is the date since the car and house have already been bought. if only it was that easy.

have no idea why i'm so tired. lost appetite after lunch. had some dizzy spells. and puked literally, most of my dinner. probably should see company doctor soon enuff.

i miss him, yet i refuse to sms him. cos he's having his "me" time, and i probably should go to bed soon, with class 95 :)

i hope the weekend will be good, though there aren't any plans.

sigh~

Here Or There

i am thrown with a higher position and salary again.... to be back at hilton.

i was caught in a dilemma, right from monday. dinner with colleagues was spoilt totally. it had my mind all in butterflies. i never thought that my director would want me to go back. not when i only left for 3 months.

aniwae, i didn't take up the offer. after considering the scope and every other aspect. especially spending time with him.

it was a good offer. one i would say i'm flattered. yet, i'm happy right where i am now, with nice colleagues and bosses. i guess i'll never regret making this decision.

work has been all that's revolving around me lately. event after event after event all happening back to back. tired, yet i'm happy.

aniwae, pics of our house in progress. taken back in 2009.

note the workers, damn proud of what they have built. haa.

and the new addition early this year...

*loves*

tired after work...

ta-ta...